was too tired last nite. ended up playing xenosaga half asleep. haha. ferrari has a new car. hehe. but i hope it is reliable. shall be able to c tt soon. hopefully, back to their winning ways. today was been nice so far. have been doing physics. it is quite tough thot. but it is the sub i lyk best. bio totally sux. haha. i hate bio. n gp for tt matter. but i wish i can be more pro sometimes. den maybe i dun need to waste so much time figuring out 1 physics qn. or look at the ans n work backwards. but i guess knowing tt u dunno now is better den not knowing u dunno n when the exam come. dieded. haha. but enough physics for the day. i feel lyk puking. haha

friday got rj vs vj soccer at sa. wow. i tink i should not be going to watch. i should spend time mugging or something. or going home early. but, i am going. haha. i hope someone goes wif mi. or it will be super boring. i found someone liao. hopefully he doesnt back out. on the other hand, i feel quite gulity going off to watch instead of mugging. wah lau. i hav a idiotic physics test on tues. i tink i shall mug half of it today. another half on sat. n do some questions. ok tt settles it. dun wanna screw up. may i add tt the recent physics lecture n notes sux? in fact, i tink the physics dept sux. but my tutor is quite pro though. haha.

i tink i might get a call to go lan later. oh no! omg. shitz. haha.

n y is everyone calling life a rat race? presumably when rats run, they seem to be in a great state of panic n hurry. i tink. or at least i get tt impression when i imagine rats running. hiaz. but den rite. must realx a little wat. take things easy. be a little slack. but tt relative. haha. but the system here is terrible. but i am not against nor for it. cos i dun really hav a choice nor cant i change it. so y bother hav an opinion? haha. but the change in pple to suit the system is quite terrifying n it disgust mi a lot. but tt there life. n if i hav tt ability, i might well become another of them. yeah. i tink so. haha. wat the hell am i toking. haha.

training was veri fun last nite. i must say. haha.

i hav to
mug physics test
do pp.

oh n i hate pw. haha

today is a veri nice day lor. haha. i am happy. but tired. gonna go shower. bye bye. tomolo is holiday. yeah. i hope someone beats mi up soon bye. haha. happy!!!

not gonna pack my bag yet in a despo attempt to prevent myself frm slping so early. haha. but the previous few times i did tt, i slept without packing bag. haha. died in the morning. haha. but i dun feel tired now. so nvm. my hand got blisters veri painful.

interesting deviation. my class treasurer cslled 2 ask mi to bring $ for fac funds. he sounded damn chiam. i feel a little gulity. he wanted mi to help him call pple. sorry lar. i confirm bring one. just put 50 in my wallet. hiaz. there goes more money again. i am gonna start keeping track of how much i spend. hmm. again. yeah. if i dun, i tend to spend a lot. on food. i eat a lot of crap when i am bored or sad. hiaz. but recently it is more of due to being bored. i just discovered the gel i use is painkiller. no wonder haha. bo chap.

today quite ok. except for the gp which was super long. dieded. n maths. the teacher say i always say wah lau. veri bad. wah lau. lyk tt she also wanna kao. pls lar. give mi some slack can.

wbcgsbwr...hehehe

tomolo got training. n tomolo is bio day. i hate bio prac. wah lau. gonna faint. who gives a damn abt being a doc? i hate main ideas n topics too cos i cant find dem. n i can ti gp class late. 20 mins. hahaha. how shuang. grey is nice btw. being spending quite a lot dis days. shitz. i very lethargic also. sian. math lect was terrible. she went on n on n on abt one little para. wah lau. i fell asleep. amazing. really sleep lar. everyone around mi was sleeping. haha. sian si. physics lect was chaotic. chem lect. i really cant stand the teacher. he creeps mi out. n he always kao bei. just lyk the bio lecturer. wth. sian..

got to do physics n chem prac. i still tink i am veri slack. haha. aiyo. i hav been slacking for the past 1 hr. n i feel sleepy. how come? shit. gonna die liao.

the gp teacher is giving mi stress. sian. the font is too small

i actually went to read up cell membrane. wah piang. i hav no life. cos salem was going on n on in bio tutorial abt things tt i totally hav no idea abt. lyk it was suppose to be a class discussion. but in the end, the teacher n him tok onli lar. i was lyk trying to spell all the chim words they were saying. haha. how pathetic. ho. must tell u abt maths tutorial first. cos after pe i went to shower so no time to eat. den after bio lect i was lyk starving lar. jasmeet ken n i went to buy food. eating on the way to class. i decided to go toilet for a while. came to class quite late. the teacher quite pro. knew tt i went canteen to eat. wow. quite smart. i am impressed. i was gonna come up wif a lame excuse. but. haha. back to bio. so now i noe a little more den nothing. hehe. hopefully by the next lesson, i will not be so blur n can ans all the qn teacher ask. but as if i would. haha.

a little girl p6 got caught cheating. at loyang pt. tt near my house. i shall go check it out. i wonder if she really wanted to cheat. if it is so, tt disgusting. shitz. havent make specs yet. wanted to go today. but lazy lar. haha.

i am confused now. hiaz. shit. i promised myself not to waste time thinking. but i cant help it. ok. i just need to satisfy myself. the rest of the world can die. yup. i am happy now bye!

today was disaster. my feet rot liao. pe was soccer thru out. 1hr plus. but. once again i played lyk a fag. damn bg. kenna tackled outrun. keep on falling n slipping n all the blisters so painful. all my passes n cross all go haywire. n my first touch was terrible too. disgusting. i hate it lar. yucks. there was one cross in frm the right. did i even touch the ball? but somehow, i scored 4. omg. tt how disgusting all the disgusting things i did. wah lan. i am so ashamed of myself. " u how lan." tt sums it all up. fag. i wanna cry. haha

the onli one i lyk is the second shot. but the kp tip it out. o well. fag. no mood i going to slp. n mug bio. disgusted at my lousy bio skills too

i am major irritated. just let mi rave a while. u fucker. u 2 fucking fuckers. go around fucking abt n come n fucking complain abt how fucking pitiful u are. go to hell ur bloody fucking asshole. n u 2. go eat shit wif all ur bullshit. i wanna kill u 2 fucking bastards. ok i am done. feeling a little better now.

ok. today quite nice actually. i hav done everything except for bio. haha. not my fault leh. the popular dun hav the bio tys. plus when i wanted to go do the tutorial suddenly got tv show. n tv is wayway better den bio tutorial. so i watched tv. ok might do it later. haha. i tink not. tt just trying to comfort myself. anyway, i tink i am not hardworking enough. wat the hell am i doing, thinking. argh. i no mood to study lar. argh. shit. confused. nvm tt. i read thru the past 2 bio lect stuff. understand a minute part of those stuff. n came to a conclusion. actually i wanted to use crap, but out of respect of those great pple would spend their lives creating on dis knowledge i shall use stuff. the teachers, those tt think their stupid moronic tutorials n notes n lectures r so bloody important can go n die. yeah go n die man. hav said dis b4. the knowledge isnt even urs, u just downloaded it into ur brain early den i hav tt all. so stop acting so high n mighty. n pls. dun keep on trying to humilate pple in front of others. spare a thought u idiot. someday, one person would be crazy enough to put a bullet thru ur head. i wouldnt. but i will try n take revenge. surely. the first perosn on my list is edward ng. tt still years away, but no harm planning. enough of the teacher crap. dey aint worth my time.

i ate quite a lot today. i eat alot when i am bored or sad. today bored lar. not sad. but a little piss. tt all. on the whole still quite ok. haha. billy is being filled up slowly. i will put the gun there too. yes. tt all. i am feeling drowsy now. so much for waking up early today. n i hav to wake up at 6 tomolo to drag myself to work. oh man. n first period is pe. i would it will be fun. the knee r cracking up lyk crazy. hiaz. n i heard two phrases today. sometimes u just hav to do wat u want lar.

there is a prob after moving out the sofa. there is more space in the room. which mean, more stuff is on the floor rite now. wah lau. haha. n i hav to hav another pair of spec made. wth. waste money lar dey. hiaz. i still hav not go to the library to return my bks n buy the friggin tys. hiaz. waste time lar. today quite nice. quite happy. haha. today quite hot. sian si. but cant be bothered to turn on the air con. arsenal drew. haha. i am lyk chao happy. newcastle won too. haha. happy happy mi. oh btw, chalked up abt 3 hrs of gaming time today. quite shuang. but got quite sian at the end. shall do some reading later. den go to buy the bio tys n read up the bio shit. argh. hate bio. the whole department is screwed up btw. ALL the teachers hav major prob. or is it i who hav ap. haha. bo chap.

gd things tend to publicize themselves. haha. it is quite true u noe. just seen the effects of tt. on a separate note, dun hav any dvds to watch liao. wah lau. sian man. nothing fun to do.

i hav to...
do bio
do w
do tt. yup.

i noe y my weekends seem so short. fri use to play floorball reach home 9 plus. sat got fencing n yfc. die. the time clash lyk a fag. wth. from 8 30-11plus fencing den yfc starts abt 12-1 lyk tt. die liao. i am figuring out a way to go for both. hell no am i quiting. nononno. tt is a mark of a loser. but i am wat. hiaz. tt leaves sunday onli. n tomolo is monday. i hope dis cycle stop soon. i need something new in life to make it more interesting. hope something interesting happens soon. but rite now...i am back to my boring but quite happy life. haha. bye.

i slept super early yesterday. slack for 2 days liao. i today must torture myself. hiazz. haha. i wonder wat is everyone doing now. no one is online except roger who is in canada. wth. haha. i guess it must be quite shiok rite. going off to study, not doing wat i am doing now. but i am not rich enough. i wonder how rich pple will feel if dey become poor. crap. anyway, i am determined not to step out of th house today. shitz. i just forgot tt i need to go get my bio tys. wah lau. oh yeah i can return the library bks too. i feel feverish, but the thermometer says 36.2. i checked thrice liao. wif different thermometers too. ahah. i even hav one in my bag. lent it to justin tt day. i dun lyk sars. it is irritating. btw, pple bullshit alot. mi too. so dun always trust wat pple say. haha. anyway i just realised tt pple hav a vast range of opinions on the same matter. amazing. how can one person generate 2 contrasting ideas. wow. but i dun really care lar. i just stand by my frens cos i trust dem. if they say it sux. it sux. yeah. btw. zhien gives great advice. too bad he went to hc despite living within 1km of rj. he hated the rafflesian environment. i tink. tt nite, i was talking to someone abt y we went to rj instead of vj..which we happened to pass bya t tt moment. haha. the brand name. tt all. kinda pathetic rite. yeah i guess so. i hav been pathetic all my life. it doesnt really make a difference being pathetic one more time. haha. watever.

i cant believe how pple change too. i wonder if i have changed? dunno. anyway besides tt, wat the hell am i doing at 8 43am on a sunday morning talking crap to myself. i feel sick though. nvm tt. i hav lotsa stuff to do. hmm. i shall go shower first. byebye. gd luck to myself n may i hav a fun happy bz torturous sunday. dun wanna salck today. btw, i finished tt gp of which i hav neither learn nor gain anything except satisfaction tt i managed to struggle thru. BYE.

i woke up at 7. so tired. yfc was quite boring leh. i should hav gone fencing. but if i dun go yfc i will be kicked out. wat nonsense. anyway onli 2 more morning lessons n it wouldnt clash anymore. so nvm la. tahan a while more. but today was quite bo liao. plus the ops manager is a damn fag. he is chao fierce n diao. wah lau. a few kenna screwed by him. not including mi. haha. heng lar. he is gonna take the lectures. wah lau. i hav to mug dis load of shit. the bk is lyk half n inch. 2 wks later gonna hav a stupid exam. den real flying will start. must tahan. but the admin manager is quite chio. haha. she should hav talk longer. ahah. ended at 12. i cant believe i sat thru 4 hrs of crap. fencing is seriously more fun. haha. nvm. but i tink the flying part would be fun. anyway dey say they should 27 x 8 out of 4000-5000 pple. so i should consider myself lucky. luck however is quite a rare visitor to my doorstep. anyway i got gp to do dis wkend. redo a compo. wah lau. sian. i really cannot stand it. but the stuff actually goes towards the promos. wat the hell man. shit. i also havent do a single bio tutorial since sch started. nor have i done any prac seriously. my mircoscope skills is lyk shit. die liao. i tink i will go n buy the bio tys later in the day n do the stupid membrane tutorial for a start. shall stop slacking liao

on the way to the seletar camp today, i hear katrina again. on radio. 97.2 i tink. i lyk tt song. hmm. anyway, i will hunt out the cd later. dunno where i put it. crappy. seletar is damn near pasir ris n yishun actually. but den if i go yishun i hav to take a damn long train home which is spas. but if i go back i hav to go sengkang first. n change bus. n the stupid bus take so long. wah lau. n the bus is full of sars pple. freak out. got one guy cough lyk siao behind mi. scary, i chaoz lyk a fag. haha. buses r quite scary dis days. cant die yet got stuff to do. haha

i hav....
gp
bio membrane
chem bonding
physics dynamics
do w. yup. wat a bz day. tired liao. haha.

i hope today is gonna be a nice n happy day. yeah!

damn tired. sch ended at 12 30. just got home at 10pm. did nothing until 5. played floorball den dinner den talk cock go home. "i hold back my character in sch" interesting statment there. yem say got ca one. wat lau fag. i tot eoy is 100% wah shit. watever. anyway next wk i wanna got home early liao. hav been slacking disgustingly too much. i will go home if there is no cca. today chem was terrible. my tutorial was wrong lyk siao wah lau. i damn sad now lar. n guilty.

Damn it. plus fencing clash wif yfc tomolo. damn

i am in a writing mood today. sch was boring though. as usual. the civics was terrible. i was spending the time discussing the man u match. wah lau. I MISSED TT FRIGGIN MATCH LAR. wth. i purposely placed the alarm clock far away frm mi. i woke up when it rang n i went rite back to slp. no determination. loseristic. anyway, 7 goals lar. i am pissed tt i missed it. the cip stuff dun really interest mi anyway. haha. physics prac was spend building a immesenly boring catapult. wah lau. played pick up sticks wif the ice cream sticks n pissed the teacher off. haha. but he is being nicer though. n he said no need for physics remedial cos test pp. HAHHAHA. maths lect was ok. until attendance taking. all hell broke lose. i wasnt wif the class n some fag above mi said something stupid to the teacher n i got screwed lyk a fag. wah lau. i was just doing nothing. n ray got screwed cos of hp. n worse thing, the fag slack teacher said "3i got a lot of prob students" n she turned to mi n said "u also hav attitude prob" wah lan. i did not do a single thing.wat the hell. i am damn pissed. i hate being screwed for nothing. n she is so slack. tt besides the pt though. wth. i dun care liao. ap ap lar. shall ace the next test to shut her up. hmph. chem lect passed without getting screwed. gp. haha. i got 18.5/50 for compre. no wonder the teacher keep saying i hav to improve my reading. n when she ask mi question i laughed n said dunno. bad move. hahaha. shit. towards the end of the period, she discussed soccer wif us. tt was quite cool. but i didnt say a thing when she said carlos was sexy. omg. lyk beckham is chao shuai lar. crap. pe was ok. but damn hot. i kept hearing thunder, but rain never came. wth. den played soccer in the stupid fag sun. so tired n hot. wah lau.1

tt my day. interestingly, kwk came n talk to mi today, so we discussed mainly abt his sailing n whether he should go back to pole vault. he was afraid of injuries frm pole vault. aiyo. injuries n risk hav never been factors for mi. i tink wat is most impt is u do wat u wanna do. anything shouldnt stop u unless it is a veri impt reason. injuries arent tt impt. my kneeS r veri painful now. haha. nvm tt. den he said tt he didnt hav a passion in sailing he just went. he sounded sad. hiaz. maybe sometimes, passion isnt everything. taking something as a love or hobby might be tiring cos it is the passion tt keeps u going. on the other hand, tt stuff as jobs, which i often do, is so much easier. cos ur personal lyk or dislyk isnt a factor. feelings r not considered. u just hav a job to do. n u do it. haha. sch is as such. sometimes other stuff r lyk tt too. i told him to go for both. i hope he does well. he told mi tt everyone else has a leadership position in their cca n he does not. i tink tt does really matter. of course it is gd to hav one, but den, sometimes u hav to learn to be contented. yup. u cant go fighting for everything. fight for some n leave the rest up to fate. yar tt it.

my frens played a prank on mi. they stole my stuff n made mi hunt up n low for it. wah lau. haha. bo liao. i still hear thunder. but no rain. haha. tonite i am gonna be damn bz. i hav a lot of hw cos i hav been slacking dis few days. wah lau. haha. i told my mum to put seaweed in the ice cream. she freaked out. haha. who says seaweed cant go in ice cream. haha

in dis troubled times...as sincostan will out it. haha.he is damn funny. one should not go worry abt stuff beyond ones control. so nick. pls lar. relax a little bit. wat is urs is urs. haha. so cliche. y dun leave it up to fate? btw leaving it up to fate to me is something you want but u dun wanna work for it. haha i tink it is quit correct rite? haha. but as if you will see dis lyk tt.

i hav a lot of things to do lar sian.

the stuff i post r gone

i am irritated btw.

shit

9 liao so fast. gosh. i am so tired. just had a late dinner. n i am so full now. i cant move an inch. but i got stuff to do leh. how. crap man. haha

eh zhengxian.. thanks a whole lot =p
thanx for wat?
btw congrat for ur council thingy
for ur support
ah ic.....dun mention....we r brothers....haha
haha.. brudders .. =p

shouldnt be so courteous to mi consdering the fact tt i hav known him for 4 yrs. but tt veri nice. veri veri nice. n i am sick of running around the canteen wif food looking for seats. argh. haha

the maths teacher is getting slacker by the sec. wah lau

i hav to...
write my diary.
fill up billy
pack bag
do dis pp
do tt

yup. tt the plan for today. the person who said during assembly to join the interact club project for 9 com hours kenna screwed by the principal. headmaster sounds better though. anyway, y so serious, i tink it was more of a joke lor. wth. relax lar. besides, tt being practical. there aint many mother theresa around. get a life lar. i sound too mean. watever. i should be able to sound watever i lyk, but tt aint the way it is in most cases.

happy happy mi. but tomolo is BIO DAY. 3 hrs of bio. faint. haha. busy busy mi.

i am home early today. tt arent nothing much to do recently. haha. 2 days in a row i am home early. wanted to go play soocer. but den ever since the polic incident, there aint much nice places for soccer. anyway. i did something productive. i fixed up billy. haha. it took half n hour n cost 39.99. i wonder y it is called billy. funny rite. but it sounds nice. anyway i bought billy from ikea. he is a cupboard. the instruction manual says billy. so i took it tt its name is billy. haha. anyway, billy is creamy white. not clean creamy white. the white is lyk ageing white. with a tinge of yellow. he is quite tall. i chucked out the old leather sofa. so my room has more space now. has 3 shelves. onli stacks of papers on billy now. i am gonna fill him up wif bks later. haha.

kenna screwed by the chem lecturer again. tt faggot is irritating mi. gp was as usual a torture. maths was most fun. physcis was lame. watever. quite a gd day. but den tomolo there is training. it is gonna end at 10pm. which means i reach home at 11pm. which means how am i suppose to last until 2.30am to watch man u vs real. wah lau. i must. it is gonna be damn exciting. no sleep again. haha. anyway, the new batch of dogs have been produced. watever. haha.

btw, va 5 is still wif the teacher. wth. waste my time finding. n there is gonna be a physics test. damn. die. n ivan lee is damn bloody selfish. unbrotherly. wat a fag. wouldnt even lend mi his physics to copy cos i wasnt listening. wah lau. nvm. there is always fang! haha. fang rox!

i am feeling the need to kill u. u noe? u just dunno when to shut tt hole in ur face. i shall kill u soon.

where the hell is va 5? i hate losing stuff. waste time finding. actually i tink it was missing a long time ago. shit lar. it isnt in my file. neither is it in tt box of papers. so logical conclusion is i have lost it. awh man.. wth. argh. sian. i hate losing stuff leh...how how? pray i find it. pray to wat? haha. crap

i hav to
file chem prac
do dis w
do tt p
n tt m

if i hav the time
ps2/pc

tt abt it. yawn. i am feeling tired now liao. haha. nvm. i hav a call 2 make anyway. k bye. haha

morning pe is quite fun. haha. seriously. pe was fun fun fun. den had break. n gp. wah lau. she say i hav to improve my reading 3 times today. i sux lar. at oral n comprehension. i failed the comprehension i think. she was giving her predicted grades to everyone n making comments abt how everyone might do at the end of the yr. improve reading. the rest of her comments on mi were quite gd actually. amazingly. shant say lar. or else to hao lian. but she said something lyk although u had b3 for eng in o levels...haha. chem was DAMN DAMN DAMN SHIOK. it seems he hates her too. tt quite sudden dunno y. but DAMN DAMN SHUANG! lck rox! woahahah.

bio lect was horrible. firstly it was boring. secondly i got displaced! omg. should hav go in earlier. sux man. right in front in the middle. fag. n everyone in the first row had pen n paper copying wat the fag was saying. GET A LIFE LAR IDIOTS. n as usual the idiotic bio teacher gave remedial. n i was ready to go. so i had nothing on my table except my bag whihc was all packed up! hahaha! so she said..u wanna copy something?..haha. not copying. photocopying! haha. i tink i lost va 5. shit. n ken toh is si bei mug. n i am gonna show my power in common test. hehe. watever power i hav. hahaha.

voting was lame. today is veri fun. haha. the blister is quite painful though. or else i would probably be kicking ball now. but den. hiaz. anyway got the rest of my sch u. the stupid person say replace zip $4. wth. is the quality lousy lor. wth. btw, my pe class is damn shaung now. go den a lot of pple i noe. hahaha

saw the faggorty trainee teacher again. he was teaching some class. wah kao. i wonder y he want to be gp teacher. hiaz. wat an ambition. schumi's mum died but he won. i wonder wat to feel. sad or happy.

i hav to...
file chem prac file
gp ws

the album is gd. really gd. amazing stuff. nice turn frm the stuff i usually listen too.

nothing ever stops all these thoughts
and the pain attached to them
sometimes i wonder why this is happening
its like nothing i can do will distract me when
i think of how i shot myself in the back again
cause from the infinite words i could say / i
put all the pain you gave to me on display / but didn't
realize / instead of setting it free / i
took what i hated and made it a part of me
[it never goes away]

hearing your name / the memories come back again
i remember when it started happening
i'd see you in every thought i had and then
the thoughts slowly found words attached to them
and i knew as they escaped away i was
committing myself to them / and every day i
regret saying those things / cause now i see / that i
took what i hated and made it a part of me

[it never goes away]

and now
you've become a part of me
you'll always be right here
you've become a part of me
you'll always be my fear
i can't separate myself from what i've done
i've given up a part of me
i've let myself become you

get away from me
gimme my space back / you gotta just go
everything comes down to memories of you
i've kept it in but now i'm letting you know
i've let you go
GET AWAY FROM ME

i've let myself become you
i've let myself become lost inside these
thoughts of you
giving up a part of me
i've let myself become you

when i pretend
everything is what i want it to be
i look exactly like what you had always wanted to see
when i pretend
i can forget about the criminal i am
stealing second after second just cause i know i can / but
i can't pretend this is the way it will stay / i'm just
trying to bend the truth
i can't pretend i'm who you want me to be
so i'm
lying my way from you

[no / no turning back now]
i wanna be pushed aside
so let me go
[no / no turning back now]
let me take back my life
i'd rather be all alone
[no turning back now]
anywhere on my own
cause i can see
[no / no turning back now]
the very worst part of you
is me

i remember what they taught to me
remember condescending talk of who i ought to be
remember listening to all of that and this again
so i pretended up a person who was fitting in
and now you think this person really is me and i'm
[trying to bend the truth]
but the more i push
the more i'm pulling away
'cause i'm

lying my way from you

this isn't what i wanted to be
i never thought that what i said
would have you running from me
like this

the very worst part of you
the very worst part of you
is me

the vcd player is in my room. muahahahaha. now i need an amplifier. yup. i am so tired. my arms r trembling. n i just drank dis cup of foul smelling thing. argh. so thick. argh. help. anyway, just wanna complain how screw up china can get. they blame the sars no. in beijing (jumped 10 times in a day) on miscommunication. yar rite. i believe. how obvious they wanna cover it up. how disgusting n irresponsible. damn the damning damners.

on an egoistic side note, i just helped someone solve maths prob. feeling quite pro. hahaha. tomolo timetable is rotten. pe in the morning. wat crap. havent even feel awake yet. n i will b dirty the whole day. maybe i should go shower in sch. hmm. everyone keep saying i am veri slack. i tink i am more slack den in ri. but den. i dun wanna be too slack. i makes mi kinda gulity. but lyk dis wkend, did not do anything constructive. hiaz

oh i bought a new cd. linkin parks meteora. n it isnt for mi. but it is surprisingly gd. not bad at all. hmm. i shall be more on liao. haha. but i really lyk one song. hmm

sometimes i
need to remember just to breathe
sometimes i
need you to stay away from me
sometimes i'm
in disbelief i didn't know
somehow i
need you to go
sometimes i
feel like i trusted you too well
sometimes i
just feel like screaming at myself
sometimes i'm
in disbelief i didn't know
somehow i
need to be alone

don't stay
forget our memories
forget our possibilities
what you were changing me into
[just give me myself back and]
don't stay
forget our memories
forget our possibilities
take all your faithlessness with you
[just give me myself back and]
don't stay


i don't need you anymore
i don't want to be ignored
i don't need one more day
of you wasting me away

with no apologies

my eyes r tired frm the training wc3. argh.

hmm... why did they give us ability to read other's mind but not good speaking skills so that you can console them if they're down... why did they give us ability to console others but not youself... why do they say life is beautiful when it is obviously a bed of roses... why did they the world is a wonderful place when it is obviously not... why did they teach us love when it hurts... why did they..........

stole dis frm someone again. haha. u cant actually read pple's minds lar, unless it is chao obvious or they wan u to noe lar. it will be disgusting if u read wrongly lor. as the gp crap says, never assume. speaking skills r blessed one lar. cant learn one. some pple just can say wat others lyk to hear. i cant really do tt. tt y i piss pple off. i even got slap recently. wth. life is beautiful n the world is wonderful. ignore all the shit tt all. love i dunno wat to comment. dun love lor. hahaha.

pple r veri occupied by relationships dis days. everyone is different liao. hiaz. omg.

training was fun. quite gd. den when to eat kfc. i cant stand potatos liao. argh. got the fries n the hashbrown in rhe burger. haha. n now i am eating chips. haha den when to play soccer wif the seniors n other j1s. i tink the seniors r a bunch of damn nice pple. chao nice. recently the soccer as been bg. disappointing lar. quite sad. y so lyk tt. my feet rot liao. a lot of blisters. pain. help. den there was the interview. i died. screw it up. but den again, i wasnt very on abt tt lar. i dun tink i cant make it neither would i hav the abilities to do all the on stuff. besides, flying is gonna start soon. i dun hav time to dabble in committee n stuff lyk tt. between being in the committee n flying, i would pick flying anytime cos flying is special. i dunno y. but i tink to fly a plane is just the best thing i can do now. so. shall see if i pass the interview. haha. o well. fate fate.

i might not need to go do gp resentation. i hoping tt got 2 more pple in front of mi. den i no need to go. at least for a week. the last time i went up for current affairs. i freaked out. broke cold sweat n was trembling lyk a prick. it wasnt cos of the talking. had done talking on stage wif no probs. it was the teacher. i am terrified of her. dun y. maybe cos she is gonna write all the testimonial n stuff n she hates ri boys n she diao the pple going up lyk siao. she is chao bias towards rg girls. stupid moron.

ever since i bought the dvd player, i have watched tears of the sun, saving private ryan, the others, 30mins of harry potter all in one day. haha. i wanna finish harry potter. den hopefully someone would hav replied to my mail n tell mi if i hav to do gp.

i hav to...

pack bag
gp presentation

hiaz. listened to xue hui. damn nice n meaningful.

went to lan for 5 hrs today. time passed veri fast. didnt even realise it was alreadi 8 plus. n once again, i forgot abt dinner. actually wanted to go pp to hav dinner. but den. no one seem keen on tt. cos it was pouring n pouring. so had no dinner. n had to take 12 back. on the way home, i saw a jellyfish. haha. pathetic. haha. anyway, never realised tt there were so many of those little shops behind roxy. most of them were eateries. looked very nice. maybe cos i did not hav any dinner n also had 2 dollars in my wallet wif no atm in sight. fag. so i had to choose the cheapest. the tim sum shop. but there was dis moron in the queue in front of mi hell bent on buying everything there was there. wah lau. who can eat so much of pao! omg. 25 dollars worth of pao. there was lyk 30 of them. n my fren n i were speculating wat she was gonna do wif all the pao. cant be dinner too late. supper not likely cos pao r not right for supper. breakfast is stupid too. so wat can u do wif 30 pao. conclusion. she is a china mama. hahaha. mean. anyway. ate a standing dinner at the bus stop wif rain drenching my pao. haha. den 12 came. n went home. i wanna try the laska shop n the beef kway teow shop. i plan to eat this route to the cycling trip. this remembers me of the time some fags n i cycled to geylang to eat tim sum at he ji. faggoty. but veri fun.

i give up on icq. tried to connect more than 20 times liao. hiaz.

tired sia. tomolo morning still got training. argh. haha. n i still got to look for topic to do gp presentation. wth. sian. I HATE GP
why am i not kicked out. y? y? y? sian lar

went to lan for 5 hrs today. time passed veri fast. didnt even realise it was alreadi 8 plus. n once again, i forgot abt dinner. actually wanted to go pp to hav dinner. but den. no one seem keen on tt. cos it was pouring n pouring. so had no dinner. n had to take 12 back. on the way home, i saw a jellyfish. haha. pathetic. haha. anyway, never realised tt there were so many of those little shops behind roxy. most of them were eateries. looked very nice. maybe cos i did not hav any dinner n also had 2 dollars in my wallet wif no atm in sight. fag. so i had to choose the cheapest. the tim sum shop. but there was dis moron in the queue in front of mi hell bent on buying everything there was there. wah lau. who can eat so much of pao! omg. 25 dollars worth of pao. there was lyk 30 of them. n my fren n i were speculating wat she was gonna do wif all the pao. cant be dinner too late. supper not likely cos pao r not right for supper. breakfast is stupid too. so wat can u do wif 30 pao. conclusion. she is a china mama. hahaha. mean. anyway. ate a standing dinner at the bus stop wif rain drenching my pao. haha. den 12 came. n went home. i wanna try the laska shop n the beef kway teow shop. i plan to eat this route to the cycling trip. this remembers me of the time some fags n i cycled to geylang to eat tim sum at he ji. faggoty. but veri fun.

i give up on icq. tried to connect more than 20 times liao. hiaz.

tired sia. tomolo morning still got training. argh. haha. n i still got to look for topic to do gp presentation. wth. sian. I HATE GP
why am i not kicked out. y? y? y? sian lar

on the topic of losing things. i lost 2 jerseys. one was number 10 lar. yar. so nothing to remember abt those days. hiaz. maybe i dun even wanna remember. watever. but i am not getting them back. so there isnt much pt in thinking abt tt rite? rite.

katrina. gd. gd. veri gd.

vinz says 3n is veri fun. better than 3e. how interesting. there r lotsa of pple in sch at 8 but not 9 i realised.

was dead tired last nite. argh. a bad day wif teachers on the whole. plus i lost my pe shorts. nvm. those were ri ones. but den i lost dem because i changed into sch u bcos i had quite a bit of blood on my shirt bcos i had 2 cuts in my mouth bcos i was elbowed bcos i was playing soccer. wah lau. haha. the pants n shirt was damn wet lar so i hun it outside my bag. n then gone. the shirt was there but the pants gone. i remember seeing it when i took my bag n left the mrt at pasir ris leh. shitz. i tink it is somewhere at white sands mall now. crap lar. i should not hav gone walking so much. den maybe wouldnt hav lost it.

full moon yesterday n the day b4. i wonder how many pple saw it. it was quite weird to see the full moon. weird but weirdly nice. anyway, recently my life revolves around sch, soccer n cca. how insanely boring. boring! n cos of the ioditc police, can no longer play at the arena. so we went to the badminton court den the basketball court to play. n it was not very shuang. firstly the badminton court was too small for 10 pple. the basketball court was too big. hahaha. wat the hell man. i wonder if there is a street soccer court around.
while playing, i saw a lot of pple i knew walking by towards home i presume cos they were going to the crappy red house bustop. or maybe out. i wonder wat they were gonna do wif their time. something fun? dunno. interesting rite. haha. went to hav dinner n den went home at 9 plus. wah sian man. hav nothing to do. feeling a little gulity.

bio hav to copy ans frm someone cos i didnt bother to do tt in class
physics nothing gonna start on new topic
chem also nothing cos gonna start on new topic
maths also nothing cos gonna sart on new topic!!!! hahaha

gp. shit i wasnt not kicked out of the class. a few were. i think my presentation has been shifted forward. wth. shit man will do it tomolo. gp never fail to spoil my day. fag. programme for today is lan n more soccer. i am dead tired alreadi. hahaha.

pe was quite ok yesterday n i got my new timetable. it is ok too. lectures were all abt laughing was usual. tutorials were ok except for gp. the speechs in the morning were quite interesting. at least some of them were. there are 2 kinds of pple. the ultra funny n the ultra serious. amidst all the laughter, the ultra serious always lose. because the speechs r actually a mockery. how many pple r just gonna vote for u cos u went up to talk. useless u hav a damn damn gd speech tt is. i alreadi noe who to vote for so the speech was just entertainment. den there was this fag who went dancing on the stage. sleazy entertainment. disgusting. ought to be shot. yeah man!

fag. i finally finish the gp shit in 3 hrs. boy am i tired. the same music of piece as been playing for 3 st. hrs. i am going nuts. shut of the speaker. if i hear one more sound i will positively go insane. i am damn tired now. physically n mentally. crap. n i hav only 5 hrs to slp. all thanx to gp. mother of all troubles. but there is still one person online at the moment. onli one. but tt amazing. i am 99.998% dead liao. n tomolo hav maths test n pe n end at 5 10. slp thru everything including the test. todays chem is fricking hard. blur out. dunno how to do. fag. a senior told mi j1 fail is fail everything except common test n promo. wat the fag. haha. sian lar. i tink i shouldnt cock around too much liao. actually i stop cocking around so much liao. maybe i should start coming home earlier. but tt thought disgusts mi. i onli go home when i feel lyk it. tt the main advantage of having no curfew. but tt comes wif responsiblities too. rite.

great responsibilities come wif great power. is it lyk tt. spiderman, answer mi now. haha. watever, i shall throw myself on the bed n friggin slp. n deal wif tomolo later. haha

fagged but happy

i shouldnt hav attempt to do the gp essay. i am damn tired now. brain n hand. hiaz. shit. n i am only less den half way thru. juz went to eat chocolates to get some sugar into my system. i feel lyk giving up n go slp. but den i alreadi do so much liao. hiaz. i wll finish it. but god knows when. i am super tired. hiaz. n i still hav to teach pple maths. wah lau. i hav a friggin maths test 2molo lar dey. haha. stressed man. but veri veri happy. i dunno y also. today is happy day. haha.

back to gp.

hahahahaha. ri tops! 7 in a row. just got tt news frm the idiotic batch egrps. hahaha. ri rox. ri rox. woah! n those craps got half day n 7 nma. wat friggin crap. wah lau. n i got nuthing. wat the hell. hahaha. so happy. ahahaha. yeah. i got a gp essay. wah sian man. should i do. sian lar. hiaz. i am hoping man u whacks arsenal. gd luck. pray pray. pray to wat? hahaha.

today is quite ok. bio lesson was ok. surprising. haha. maths is ok. oh man. i got maths test 2molo. hiaz sian lar. just got my sorry ass home n i am tired lyk shit. watever. bio prac was damn damn damn damn funny. hahahaha. super corny. but i got slapped. fag man. ahha. but it was damn funny best bio lect ever. which reminds mi i dun hav the friggin bio notes. tt one of the inconveniences when u camp at the east arbitrary wall of the LT hahah. fag. ok. hav to hunt the bio rep down tmolo. den gp was damn crappy. cos she kao bei abt the presentations as usual. n tt bitch complained to the ct again. again. tt is the 3rd time liao. the class always kenna complain. wah lan. i hope i get transferred to the ang moh class. tt for weaker students. i tink i should go there. cant tahan her liao.

the speechs were quite long n boring. except fot the aaaaa one, renji, amok, yingheng n dunno liao. fag. a lot of my primary sch mates r running for council. n here am i as pathetic as ever stoning lyk a fag. haha. den got training after tt shit until erm 5 30 plus. den went to play soccer at the shelther. hav been wanting to give it a name. dey say call it astro. i lyk arena better watever. damn shuang. cj, julian, ray, me, yq, yangqi, zhao yang, one guy i dunno, john chen, ken toh, yl, zy. damn shiok lar. fantastic. going back tomolo. crap but sch ends at 5 10 wif friggin pe. sian lar. sincostan pe damn sian. i prefer the friday one. so shuang. but den got gd friday.

got gp essay n mi. wat fag. shall do mi first. sian lar. i dun wanna rewrite the friggin essay lar. but den she confirm kao bei poor attitude. FAGGORTY!

puking frm chem. argh. sian man. but i hav still somemore to go. anyway. fag julian got screwed by some crappy muds. n no one helped. got 8 pple lar. disgusting man. wth. so screw up. i hate it. they just stood there acting lyk fags. wat brothers! wat nonsense. those muds tink they damn big. i would lyk to see who they r n wat they can do. stupid friggin muds.

tired. but i still hav chem n maths n gp essay. hiaz sian. i shall stone a while more.

wat the fag today is damn happy day. in gp, i realised tt i am onli 1 of 2 b3 in the class. wat fag. everyone is a1 or a2. but i just yell out my mark damn loudly to the fag teacher. who cares. i b3. u not happy is it. wat fag. i top class in gp essay. how friggin lucky is tt. haha. damn happy. played soccer outside sch. wah kao. quite scary. keep on got teacher walk out of back gate. wah lan. must find bball court next time.

i seriously shouldnt be writing now. got maths n chem test to mug. n gp essay to rewrite. actually teacher say no need. but i tink i write one more lar. crap. mathematical induction is friggin difficult. i always dunno how to do. so demoralising. fag. i need more practice n brains. phone bill rocketed man. shitz.

mug chem
mug MI
do gp essay...bz bz nite. day watever. fag. y did i play soccer, fag lar.

eiii...

yes

nothing. just wanted to talk to u

abt? just to tell u i am not in a veri gd mood today.....i might say the wrong things

oh.. how come u're not in a good mood?


bcos

oh.. hmm. woke up on the wrong side of bed tt kind ah

tt plus a lot of other stuff

dun want to say ah?

nope.

orh. mm. den u just feel down? aiya..
*hug*
:
dun bother abt mi.....i will be ok

orh.. mm. wat appened to ur 'happy' days??
hmm. aiyar. did u kope any freebies today?

no i just say i will vote n they left

hey wat did u ask in council interview

hmmm? normal stuff lor. liek y u want to join council.. n anything about wat theytold us.. y

y dun u pple always ask y do u wanna join council? wat sorta ans u pple wanna get?

ei. can u be my study taskmaster?

it'sthe most impt reason rite? occasionally we get the typical answer. lardidardidar kind. but sometimes they talk about more personal reasons i guess.

ans my question

really......lyk wat......they wanna serve?

oh.. hmm. it's not realy what answer we want t
o get? but the way they say it.
hopefully something that's sincere, and personal.

some people want to just do things for other people, it's just like this compulsion to want to do stuff and make other people's day

some are really glad they got into rj, think they really like it here, so they want to give soemthing back to the school

i prefer it if it's unexplanable. tho. i dunno y. but i think..if it's a genuine feeling, it shdn't be too easy to explain

i thought u didn't like these things.



yes i dun lyk

? u do? but u always just criticise them

it is a typo....

oh. den y ask?

i just wanna noe y u choose pple u choose

hmm. there are a few reasons?
based on capability, based on passion, based on heart definitely, sincerity
in a way.. we didn't really choose people? we just took out the people we felt might not be able to meet these in a well-rounded way.

really...before i say something stupid change the subject. haha

bad lar. i will say something tt piss someone off soon. i better zao soon.

i just remember my breakfast is still in my bag. uneaten. oh man.

i hav just read something really fag. omg. the pple dis days. fag man haha.

tomolo is lect day. how fun. even tho it is long. i much rather hav lect den tutorials.

letter came. really 26 lar. oh well. nvm lor. can do anything. got tt stupid attendance is compulsory application will be terminated blah blah wat crap. the maths teacher gonna give a maths test on thurs. got chem test on wed. i shall mug later at nite. damn sian. hiaz. the gp ws is damn tough. she said i will probably fail gp. so never mind. i bo chap. today is terrible, but it just became less terrible. hmm. tt gd.

got a bunch of dvd. maybe i shall watch n do maths. wah. haha. too slack liao.

oh. someone is complaining abt not getting into council. it has been a long time since i hav been in any position. haha. so i dunno wat it feels lyk missing out. ok i noe. but tt quite long ago too. hiaz. y so angry. it is onli council mah. THE LAPDOGS OF THE TEACHERS. oh owell will probably say...those students join council because they thought that they did so out of their own free will when actually they were manipulated into doing so to serve the interest of the administration. lets see. i promised the people who came up too mi to vote for them. so i hav to. even tho i dunno them. haha. i shall vote for tt 2 people. john. zhihan. baoluo. who else? forgot liao. hoe come parents will be disappointed when u dun get into council?

tt y. shouldnt go giving pple hope. den take it away. tt cruel. all the interview n crap. is crap. how cruel. hiaz. i tink the whole thing is so wrong. wrong wrong wrong. but tt the one way to do it rite? i tink so. oh i am in one of those moods again. watever. haha

11-12 mug maths test
12-1 more mugging
1-2 slack
2-6 slp

how sian?

torrid. frustrating. irritating. sad.

i hav a new resolution

on n this is damn funny haha.

ELEMENT: WOMAN
SYMBOL: WO
DISCOVERER: ADAM
ATOMIC MASS:
Accepted as 53.6 Kg, but known to vary from 40 to 200 Kg.
OCCURRENCE:
Copious quantities in all urban areas.

Physical Properties:

1. Surface normally covered with a painted film.
2. Boils at nothing, freezes without any known reason.
3. Melts if given special treatment.
4. Bitter if incorrectly used.
5. Found in various states ranging from virgin metal to common ore.
6. Yields to pressure applied at correct points.

Chemical Properties:

1. Has great affinity to gold, silver and a range of precious stones.
2. Absorbs great quantities of expensive substances.
3. May explode spontaneously without prior warning and for no apparent
reason.
4. Insoluble in liquids, but activity greatly increases by saturation in
alcohol.
5. Most powerful money reducing agent known to man.

Common Uses:

1. Highly ornamental.
2. Can be a great aid in relaxation.
3. Very effective cleaning agent.

Tests:

1. Pure specimen turns rosy pink when discovered in the natural state.
2. Turns green when placed beside a better specimen.

Hazards:

1. Highly dangerous except in experienced hands.
2. Illegal to possess more than one, although several can be
maintained at different locations as long as specimens don't come
into contact with each other.

i hav to practice aoe. haha. got a game coming up. hiaz. so slack. so sian. today is quite bad. i dun lyk today.

wah lau. even my bro say i slack. am i tt slack. omg. i ahte it when pple sya i am slack. but honestly, i would lyk to noe if i am slack. i am a little gulity.

shion is damn cute. haha. super cute.

was reading the papers. how come bring water bottle to sch is embarrassing? pls lar. i bet she thot she was cool in saying tt. how stupid. moron. for christ sake. a water bottle is the most convenient thing to hav besides food. i had always wanted a water cooler in my room. but tt not veri possible lar. yar so pls stop being a fag. stupid hc fag. no les. since she is a she.

i just hav a new challenge. to cycle more than 120km. hmm. i shall surpass. yes. but i cant find the time. all the sat is either fencing or yfc. so i tink i might do it on gd friday. but. it is a little rush. still i dun care. so exciting!

i hav to...
help someone buy ps2
plan the cycling trip

suddenly realised on near the 26th is. time really flies. awh man. y must it be on a sat. y why must it be in the morning. confirm hav to skip training lar. wah lau. n for the next 2 sats too. tt 3 in a row. i hope for some miracle. wat fag. they purposely one lar. den i cant go for 3 trainings. wah lau. den i will hav to play catch up wat fag. haha. it betta be gd. or i will kill all of them.

on a separate note. napfa is this troubled times is on 19th. gold can. but i wanna 28 pt at least but faggorty 2.4 is disgusting. haha. stnading board jump should be a 4/5 i need a few cm onli. but fag 2.4. i hav to start running. how insanely boring. running sux. so 5 5 5 5 4 4 yup. ok. fag. haha

there is gd tv nite. haha. i got the stupid bio question today. but i found the tys ans. hahaha. tt is so jian. too bad lar. cant be bothered. i will just read tt ans n present. screw wan yuck. haha. xenosaga brought another climax today. they blurred the line between robots n humans. how interesting.

gp induces sleep. i was doing the gp ws n i fell asleep as usual. my ct told mi he is assigning grps for project wk. wth. no lar. dun lyk tt leh. as if he will change his mind. haha. fag

the scanner is working but the mouse isnt working properly. haha

i feel lyk puking. argh. must be yesterday. should hav eaten earlier. shitz. watever. newcastle GOT THRASH. wah lau. wth. disgusting. disgusting. ohohoh. I FINSIHED THE FRIGGIN GP FILE. HAHAHAHA. except for the dates lar. cos i dun hav anyway. but still, i finished everything i need to do liao. hahahaha. i am so happy. currently alone at home. haha. crazy shitz wanna lan today. wah piang. i am lyk so tired liao. damn siao lar. lan will at least take up 3 or maybe worse 4 hours. den will go n eat den will be dead tired again. but if they call, i tink i am going. hahaha. do i have anything else to do? hmm. should not rite. should i? lets see

bio...crap...1 question...shall attemtp later..not now...i am currently in joy over the completion of the gp file
physics...dynamics...but i dunno how to do...so forget it...haha
chem...chem bonding...but also onli hav stuff tt i dunno how to do...so forget it
maths...oh yeah...tutorial 8...ok...tt should be easy
gp...ha.ha.ha.ha.ha. screw u pereira.

so i hav 2 things 2 do. okok. i still cant believe the gp file is done. took so long to hunt the articles. shall i tidy my room? hmm...i am hungry. but too lazy to cook. to lazy to go buy food. instant noodles? no. argh. help. i need food. haha

i am quite happy today. haha

SLOW DANCE

Have you ever watched kids
On a merry-go-round?
Or listened to the rain
Slapping on the ground?
Ever followed a butterfly's erratic flight?
Or gazed at the sun into the fading night?
You better slow down.
Don't dance so fast.
Time is short.
The music won't last.
Do you run through each day
On the fly?
When you ask How are you?
Do you hear the reply?
When the day is done
Do you lie in your bed
With the next hundred chores
Running through your head?
You'd better slow down
Don't dance so fast.
Time is short.
The music won't last.
Ever told your child,
We'll do it tomorrow?
And in your haste,
Not see his sorrow?
Ever lost touch,
Let a good friendship die
Cause you never had time
To call and say,"hi"
You'd better slow down.
Don't dance so fast.
Time is short.
The music won't last.
When you run so fast to get somewhere
You miss half the fun of getting there.
When you worry and hurry through your day,
It is like an unopened gift....
Thrown away.
Life is not a race.
Do take it slower
Hear the music
Before the song is over.

it s a poem by a girl abt to die. tt depressing.

i am dead tired. go look for the article n slp. hiaz. my mood has dropped

i hate screaming n shouting. esp when i wanna get something done. esp when it is those pple screaming n shouting. i cant really understand wat is their prob. y must dey create something out of nothing. y must dey also try n drag me into the yelling n all. y cant they just get the hell out of my sight. they love the noise n chaos n love to create lotsa of screaming n yelling n shouting. n if u wanna do tt can u pls not involve mi? i am already shut in my room 99.99% of my time at home. where else do i hav to go? i am already coming home at 12 mn. how long do i hav to stay outside? n y must the door always be opened n closed just for the fun of opening n closing it? i hate pple to come in n check on wat i am doing. i hate it. tomorrow is probably gonna be rotten due to dis crap. i notice i am frowning a lot when i am typing this. bad for the eyes. the right one deteriorate liao hiaz. anyway when i stay in my room u ask mi to come out n communicate. to who? for what? how? why is dis happening to mi? argh. i probably am capable enough to solve most of my probs.

tt end of the crapping. i am refusing to allow myself to be sad. so this is the only time i am gonna think. n i am done. back to my gp file. btw i left one last article to hunt hiaz. boy am i sleepy. haha.

I AM EXTREMELY IRRITATED N PISSED. WORST MOOD IN SEVERAL WEEKS

settled 1 file. wif out dates thot. gogogo. i need my 3 articles. ALL THE WAY. ARGH! MOVE IT!

wah. just got home. showered. tired. meet them at 6 lar. den play soccer until 10. tired sia. played against some soccer team. chao pro. amazing shen. but we won. how impossible. crap lar. i was crap as usual. crappy. but i scored. how amazing too. but kept on losing the friggin ball. played in the darkness cos the court had no lights. den shifted the bball court n played until the lights went off. crap. ckp kicked the ball into the construction area lar. haha. n i had to go hunt it out. wah kao. den stop lar. as planning to go hav dinner when i had gastric. wah lau. wat gd timing. call them to go food court. dun wan. must go to a place wif air-con. sissy! in the end when to east coast macs. wah piang. i am sick of macs. digusting. not gonna go macs forever n ever n ever. yucks. was so desperated to eat proper food. order the idiotic mcrice crap. edible. den tok cock. n i went into the crappy female toilet by mistake. argh. i was so tired lar. couldnt see properly. haha. finally got home.

i saw "the guy ahead is meat to be overtaken" again. how cool. yeah baby!

on the other hand. i hav my gp file still undone. wat the FUCK. i just had to swear out the frustrations. it is sunday now. i am gonna finish everything b4 sleep..which includes filing all the crap. filling in contents pg. call pple to ask for help. ok den later i shall find 3 articles n on monday go back to sch to copy the dates. I WILL SUCCEED. i hav too. btw. haha

i feel lyk puking. hav to meet those idiots at 6. wah lau. i dead tired now. n the gp is still not finished. i tink i shall go take a shower. try to finish at least 1 of the files. den i hav to cheong out. argh.

crap lar. just got home. damn it. time pass too fast liao. shitty. the gp file is not done yet. oh no. si le. shit shit. how. i dun even know the dates of who presented wat. screw lar. n i hav to go out soon. again. wah lau. i should hav get home earlier. die. i hav 1 hr to do b4 i cheong out. but so sian. faggorty. oh someone told mi a SA guy committed suicide cos he kept on keena diao fag n gay. wah kao. died on april fools cos he said he was a fool. wah lau. dunno wat to say lar. wat can i say man. the pathetic pple dis days. sad. haha. moral of the sotry is not to be a fag. haha.

anyway, i hav to hunt for gp articles. i tink i will go look for 2. fill in the content pg. den fill up everything. den go ask pple for the dates n everything else. should be ok liao lar. lyk tt. i dun expect any gd comments. my ct told mi language teachers hav to write the testimonial. wah lan. die liao. game over. confirm die. shit man.

training was very fun. but tiring. stupid floorball. my back aches lyk crap. but floorball is also damn fun. hahaha. i gonna try do the files now. gd luck to myself.

my onli aim is to finish go file over the weekend. i hav to anyway. it is a must. haha. i need slp. bye.

i am damn tired. just got home. but. today is too fun a day to not write abt. but i forgot to bring specs to sch. n i hate tt. in the end got a major headache thru out the day. all thanks to gp lor. argh. was so sick frm gp last nite tt i slp in front of the stupid com. n had to rush dis morning n so i forgot my specs. gp's fault. shit i havent finish the file MUST DO TOMOLO. WTH! anyway, had pe. pe was fun. played soccer. jasmeet was going lyk must kill the other class cos must take revenge for handball. haha. i so wanted to kill them too. but damn. had to play intra class. wah kao. but it was funny how jasmeet reacted. so hype up. in the end it was a draw although my team was lyk totally outplayed. haha. cant run properly. so slippery. jasmeet is damn pro lar. gonna find a way to get pass him. haha. i need my boots lar. nonon. i must try. i tink i can confirm! yeah man. the teacher said last goal. n we refused to score so tt we can play longer. in the end the teacher scored n own goal of my volley. haha. how lame. chem prac was crazy. so busy. i anyhow whack va 9 cos i kept screwing up, n my chem teacher kept making fun of me! va 8 was easy tho. had the stupid bio makeup. so sch ended at 1 10 instead of 12 30. i was pondering whether to go a not. in the end i went late again. abt 15 mins. wah lau. i went in. she ask mi y so late. had to give a stupid excuse. cannot find classroom! hahaha.she replied i see. wah kao. i tink she is gonna take revenge.

after sch, stone around in canteen acting stupid. tok cock wif pple den went to the library. but didnt get much work done. i dun tink i hav any work to do lor. getting damn slack. haha. feeling quite guilty. left the library for the cateen at 5. i saw dis person lar. she ask for my name. said i looked familiar. haha. how lame. i refused to give her my name. i tink it irritated her. ahahah. who cares! haha. den went to indoor gym to play floorball wif the pe teachers. wah kao. run lyk dog. damn tiring. cramp in both legs haha. but bo chap. continued playing. damn fun. stopped at around 7 30. half dead. shit got training tomolo. argh. so tired. i knew had training. aiya. bo chap lar. i didnt feel any pain in the knee tho. but they r aching now. haha. hitch a ride to no mans land. wah lau. had dinner outside n was left wif absolutely no money. damn it. stupid ken. u took my 17 dollars. in the end at the call my dad to pick mi up. wah kao. couldnt even find an atm machine. crap lar.

finally got my sorry ass home. i feel lyk puking now. argh. such a fun day. ho. pple r watching stars now. how cool

ni dui wo de hao, wo zhe me shi qu le cai zhi dao
ni dui wo de hao, wo zhe me yao ting peng you shou cai zhi dao
ni dui wo de hao, wo zhe me gan jue bu dao...

gp ws completed. i am suppose to write a reflection on it. tt part of the homework. i shall write 2. one here. one on the fricking piece of paper.

a faggorty exercise. it is way way too long. it turns pple off just by the crappy printing n the small fonts size n the thickness of tt shit. plus u probably aint gonna go thru all of them. u quit wasting my time u moron. plus it is so chim tt it is impossible to do. n so i just anyhow whack. n wat is the use of making it so hard? u stupid idiot! it just disinterest mi u moron. n i feel tt after completing dis stupid shit load of stuff my english is no better. it is worse thanx to this swearing u fag! plus u still wan a gp file u fag!

gonna write the complete antithesis of the above on the friggin piece of paper. haha. wat crap. i just feel tt i have wasted my time. now i hav to do the gp file. wat library research file! crap lar. i never research lar. wat u wan mi to hand it!!!!! shit. hav to look for help bye

wat an exciting nite.

vow not to slp until the gp ws is done. file die liao. nothing to file in the library research file. haha. empty empty. die lar. haha

i found the music i was hunting for. haha

aiyo. damn sian lar. i hav stupid gp. dun feel lyk doing. super crappy. den now must go hav maths file. wah kao. file file file. everyday also wan file. how lame.

i shall do the gp ws first. get it over n chuck it away. den i shall change stuff in tutorial 8. file.. wah piang. i shall just sort it out n punch stupid holes lar. nonsense. today went late for physics prac by dunno how much. ias i walked pass the lab, was quite surprise tt everyone inside liao. the teacher saw mi n i smiled at him. hahaha. he thot i went to take temp. haha. no lar. actually i was just unwilling to go to lab. haha. lucky sia. or else confirm plus guarantee plus 3 yr warranty kenna screwed upside down. damn lucky. btw, mingheng got screwed for lighting is paraffin up. haha. L. haha.

i hav to settle the gp file n the gp ws. n maths tutorial 8 must do some changes. nothing else. i tink. haha quite free.

haha. happy day. but chem lect was terrible. also wanted to slept. in the end didnt quite catchj the part abt the stupid circumference of the stupid sphere. but i did catch the joke. haha. damn funny. but was really tired. gp was as usual crap. physics prac was stupid lar. 1 hr looking at thermometer. damn dumb. in the end i just whacked tt stupid shit stuff. i now den now paraffin is inflammable. haha. i wonder y my beaker never catch fire leh. i thot it wasnt inflammable. i thot it is lyk oil! n it was all over my hands n beaker n i heated it wif the bunsen burner to 110 deg. haha. when u r onli suppose to heat to 70 deg. scary. reminds mi of the explosion in the chem lab i caused. haha. maths test cancelled! haha. happy. maths lect was quite fun. in fact damn funny. laugh lyk cock. tok so much cock. hahaha. i love maths lect the most. haha. damn shiok. plus my class sits near my permanent position so more convenient haha.

pe was quite fun also. but den both knee hurt lyk siao now. aiyo so sian. tomolo got soccer i hope. yeah! but den pain lar crappy. ran the stupid six runs n pain lyk cock. sprint a little n pain even more. argh. sian. haha. the left one start to ache liao. no locking so far. so far so gd. haha. i feel damn happy.

oh. the stupid moron idiotic bio teacher wants to give lessons tomolo. there goes my 12 30 day. BLOODY BITCH. damn crap. today hav lesson dun wanna come. tomorrow must hav after sch. how dumb!

the gp file is terrible. so difficult to do. wat personal reading. wat required reading. go die lar. maybe i read wat i lyk lar. who wants to read all the crappy bullshit.

wat the hell. was on the phone for 3 hrs. really should start sleeping early haha. n start getting into the mode. anyway outlast everyone. haha. nite

HAHAHA. i finished the review crap. HAHAHA. unbelievable! woah. happy now. relieved a little. 5 10 day tomolo. sian si. got pe. dangerously sian. i wonder wat we doing for pe.the double period is always damn sian one. run n run n run n run. run everywhere. the single period is so shiok. play soccer. sincostan shuld learn lar dey! ok hoping for a fun pe tomolo. But tomolo so darn long lar. crap. got prac some more. 2 hrs of shit. n my class number change, i tink i sitting somewhere cock now lar. my old position was damn shuang lar. right smack at the back. behind mi is the library. at last for last time. so if u r chao bored u can just turn back n look at pple in the library. tt quite interesting sometimes.

dun feel lyk touching any work liao. quite sian. friggin hell. must be sch. my ct says tt someone might get sars n sch shut down for a while more. i really dun mind tt. haha. hmm. lotsa disgusting lessons tomolo.awwwhhh man. bored out sia. ken toh, as usual got screwed by the gp teacher. but ken toh is damn sly. haha. u dick! hahaha. felt quite mean at laughing today. but stupid ken laughed first den alvin laughed. den i also laugh. shit sia. tt person was intro-ing herself lar. lucky i did not say some trash. lucky sia. i tink she must be quite pissed. hiaz. not my fault. oops. haha. damn mean. kinda disgusted. shit shit shit. nvm lar. i shall just turn my face away next time. y the hell did i laugh i also dunno. ken u die. haha.

i caught up wif some slp. slp caught up wif mi. the gp ws is chao hard. aiyo. dunno how to do. lost. still got review to do. filing i shall throw to weekend. too sian liao.

gp review
gp ws.....reflection can wait til weekend too.

the other one wasnt veri true. so i cut the code. haha.
really hav to go do work now. crappy
i am even more pathetic den i thot. it is time to change

project wk. teacher allocating grp. DIE LIAO MAN! GONE GONE GONE. ARGH.
gp common test 28th march. wth. my teacher says if get a1 can slack in class. wah lau. i want a1! argh!

there is a match tomorrow morning at 2.35am. should i?

ran home in the rain. stupid. haha.

my ex classmate give us a farewell gift. wah. tt damn nice of her. o well. thanx. n i am not funny. i am trashy. sad to say. haha.

ok i have to do...sleep

2.gp review.
3.gp file
1.gp ws
chem test
maths test

quite high now. i lack slp lar. crappy. haha. a crazy day. lets see. hmm.

12MN. i went to slp after catching some of the skulls. tt a veri ol show. third time i am watching it. watched it in nz once too. i heard the skulls a really thing. geroge bush joined it in uni. freaky. pple ask mi to call them to wake them up. i agreed

fell asleep at 12 30am. was tossing in bed thinking abt some stuff. cant tell u. haha.

woke up at 2 20am. wanted veri much to go back to slp. but i hav to call pple. so i called. n they said they not watching liao. but i continued alone. cos it has been a long time since i watched a soccer match live.

2 35am. match started. super exciting as i said. real outplayed n outclassed man u. haha. i blogged at half time. wanted to see if anyone was online. hopping to find someone online. but. no sadly. everyone was elsewhere. the second half was not bad too. super gd match on the whole.

went to slp at 4 30am. but no! i could not fricking slp. tossed until 6am. wah lau. didnt slp at all. i was tinking abt lotsa stuff. abt the match n other stuff. hiaz.

left house for sch. found tt my mum locked the stupid metal gate. had to take out my keys. wth. tried slping in the train. to no avail.

first lesson was the sars thing. i almost collapse frm exhaustion. wah kao. i was damn sleepy. i onli slept for 2 hrs man. crappy shit. saw everyone in new sch u except 2 pple. i tink. both frm my og. laura n liyang.or is it leeyang. who cares. haha. anyway had bio tutorial but i didnt hav the new notes plus i wasnt sitting wif the class. basically stared at the screen n the stupid bitchy teacher the whole 1hr 20min. wat a waste of time. plus i hav to go borrow pple's notes n copy. hiaz. sian.

climax of the day. GP. wah kao. thot got video. no video. so in the end went late for class. there was a trainee teacher there. got screwed for being late. N TT MORON GAVE US HW gp file. gp ws. gp bk review. i wanted to swear but nvm. the ws is so thick n terrible. she going thru tomolo. abt verbs n subjects. n etc. n nonsense. all my pathetic life, i wasnt so pathetic to bother abt verbs n subjects n wat not. n i have to do a stupid ws on tt now. she spent the rest of lesson talking to the trainee abt modifiers n subjects n verbs n super ordinate relationships between m,s and v. wth. pathetic. even worse den mi lar. n if u r worse than mi. u r the worst. haha. stupid

break. den chem tutorial super slow pace n civics did nothing. but the china mamas kept on bugging lck in civics to teach them chem lar. faggort. u dicks brought in the sars. n i talked nonsense in chem. my teacher asked if i wanted him to cough in my face. no thanx. haha. played bottle soccer after sch. cut my finger n sweat lyk a dog. then, went home

training cancelled man. heng! or else i confirm faint. haha. sat is weapons trial so exciting. i wonder wat they gonna make us do. hehe. but i had to cut my finger n crack my fingernail. how suay. nvm. tt aint gonna stop mi. my dad went to look for his medical buddies to ask wats wrong wif my knee. they say it is a partially dislocated kneecap. oh shit. might need op. or might not need. i hav to get tt letter soon. haha

i am watching the match i guess. haha. wth. i will die in sch liao lor. shit. i hope i dun get sars tomorrow. the mrt looks terrifying. the match is damn gd. the first half flew by. zidane is shen sia. wah lau. wat the heck am i doing. i tink i might fall ill if i am not careful

should i watch the match?

thot i wasnt gonna write today. but something cropped up

complain 1. icq damn bloody hang. i am gonna kill u
complain 2. actually not a complain. just an opinion. yo! u probably wunt be able to read dis but still, dun be so sad man. yar. yeah. dun be so sad. a great man once said something veri elementary. be it was so simple tt many forgot abt tt. even me. until recently. it goes "dun waste a minute thinking abt pple u dun lyk" tt for mi, is key to happiness. not onli pple, but things too. things u can change u try. things u cant change u accept. simple simple. i hope u get to read dis. hiaz. but den again. u shouldnt just give up on everything. try finding a balance. i am in the process of doing so. but i gotta feeling ur prob is abt girls lar. just a guess. but i am quite sure. i cant help u. tt seems to be the prob everyone has dis days. haha.

ok bye..off to enjoy my last few mins of blissful joy. sob sob. haha.

oh no! sch starts in 12 hrs! argh! help help! dun wan! haha. sian si lar. crappy! watever. wth. hav to wake up at 6 tomorrow! 6 6 6 6. argh. sian. aiyo. i wanna cry liao lar. sch sux sch sux sch sux. argh. wats so bad abt stoning at home. argh. but i still hav to go.oh man. watever lar. dun care liao. but but. gp tomorrow! argh! 1hr 20mins in all its glory. omg. just make my day man! woah. gp. so fun. so exciting. wat crap. haha. shit man. i tink i will fail gp lar. die liao die liao. gone liao. but there aint any use in worry. haha. so i shall not.

borrowed my first cdrom frm the library. not bad. actually the library is quite gd. but den. the white sands one got no seats lar. or else can stone there. shit. haha. i wonder if there is training tomorrow. i hope so. but den again. there is common test. argh. stupid common test. but nvm. sat should hav training. hehe. happy mi. but training wouldnt be fun if all the pple i noe dun come. SO. better come ah. accompany mi. haha. yeah! ok. i feel better abt sch tomorrow. haha.

okok. main topic for 2day is abt xenosaga. wah kao. it is damn bloody fantastically gd. doesnt hav the eye candy of ffx. but den. the story is fricking zai. it is episode 1 of 6. 5 was xenogears. wah lau. it is so so so gd. just lyk a nice storybook. i shall go on abt the story. it is quite mature. quite funky. quite cool. lotsa religionous stuff human rights blah blah. but way better than gp. pple wake up lar. games r not all hack n slash lar dey! back muscle aching. must be lie on sofa too long liao. haha. mother juz went to work. HOME ALONE. haha

my fren says he is gonna wear a mask to sch! woah! create news man fantastic!

woah. super sleepy. cant slp yet. hav to wait for the gel to be absorbed. how man. wat crap. super tired. i tink it must be the flash thing. i cant stand reading tt bk. so long. so crap. i shall do it my way. haha. ok. hope the end result is the same. but it isnt really impt so. hmm. last day of hols. oh man. i am mourning. haha. the passing away of hols. so sad. so sad. sch starts on a wed. how insanely boring. i hav to figure a more pro way of eating in the stupid LT. hmm. len toh is da shen at tt. haha. lectures r so bloody boring. my teacher says project work is starting soon. i hope the grps can be across classes. pls pls let it be. or else. i am...screwed...haha. no actually not. but quite lar. pls lar. i want to do wif pple i lyk. not pple i dun really give a damn abt. argh. pls pls.

someone just called to ask for abt hw. oh man. y dun u not lyk to do it urself? tt so funny. no satisfaction meh? n y u lyk to make use of mi? i so much rather prefer to be made use of by pple i lyk. hiaz. tt quite selfish. but seriously, u r just one fleeting shadow. i tink. i tink too much. haha. but really, i wonder how many pple in my class will i get to noe at the end of 2 yrs? maybe 1. or 2. tt all i guess. there isnt really much interesti in mi to know them. y i dunno. erm, they just dun interest mi enough. watever. i shall stop bothering myself wif such trivial matters. yf y arent u online? wanna send u sumting lar! qiuckly. where the hell r u?

yikes! wat a gay homepage! tt guy is positively gay! argh! disgusting. help. haha. moron. haha. it makes mi wanna puke. my bro is off to army back tomolo for a day, den off again. the house is quieter now. gonna be home alone today. haha. xenosaga is stressing mi out in a fun way. haha. oh wat the hell. anyway, i hope i havent forget to tell my bro anything. or i am dead. my fault as usual.

i hope it will be all right. tt it. i am slping. phew. zzz

xenosaga is fantastic. i am begining to lyk it a lot. i tink the series is gonna be an epic man. yeah. woah. haha. going to the library to return bk. hav been postponing dis. haha. cannot liao. cos today date due. hiaz sian lar. gonna rain liao. hiaz. crappy. haha. i am feeling extremely happy today haha. happy happy mi. haha. ok. packed my bag n cut my nails. the onli 2 constructive things i did 2day. haha. woke up at 12 noon. arghhh. haha. not my fault. stupid f1. haha. i hoping for a better result next time. pls pls. did the stupid gp.

gain n understanding of theory of relativity today. haha. was in the game n there was dis sequence in the space ship n saw asteroids outside. den i thot, shouldnt they be moving lyk super fast. den i realised tt the ship must be moving veri fast also. haha. how lame. trust mi to notice tt. i hope tt rite. haha. goes for mi being happy too. realised there r a lot of pple wan you yu around mi. haha. wat a bo chap way of putting tt. cant be help lar. wired into mi. shall go cycle!! yeah! bye!

what a truly amazing race how apt a comment. newspapers will be full of it tomorrow i hope. hiaz

y on earth is raikkonen winner? ARGH

my curse is deadly. 8 finished out of 20. safety car came out 5 times i guess. haha. pple r injured. the race had rain. yellow flags red flags. in the end stop. ran onli 54 out of the 71 laps. i am feeling extremely sorry n guilty now. shit. wtf. just when i tot nothing happened acar burst into flames. argh. wth! i must try get a tape of this race. pple r alreadi commenting on how spectacular it is.

the crash got. the spin got. even the burn in hell also hav. my curse is deadly. hiaz. i hope no one really dies. i am terribly sorry. i was just so frustrated. so sorry. oh man. hiaz. shit. anyway, i must try watch dis race. boy is it exciting.

SORRY...REALLY

totally crappy. argh. my curse was so powerful tt rubens...stalled in the lead. he could hav won his home gp. now reliable ferrari will hav no finishes. wat did tt last happen man. ok 20 mins to go. crap

wat the hell. he was gonna take this lar. n he crashed. he just had to crash! he was gonna win for sure. n now idiotic raikkonen has pit n everything is so terrible. tt is it. i am damn pissed. probably a mclaren 1-2. wat the hell. dis is so disgusting. stayed up all for nothing. arghhhhh. he had to crash at the exact sopt 2 others spun out. where r his brains. arghhhh. i am so so so veri damn bloody pissed n angry! i am not watching anymore. ok i will. but there isnt much pt. hiaz. arghh. i hope everyone crashes n dies n burn in hell. except ferrari.

nothing is going gd. newcastle lost too. oh man.

my curse is coming thru. everyone is spining n crashing haha

damn exciting! everything is going well for ferrari so far. mclaren still is 1-2. disgusting.

it is insanely difficult to do 2 things at a go. nvm. nothing of importance is happening now. so i stole some time to write dis. i just realised tt i got cheated of $7. oh man. it is so easy to cheat mi. i am quite dumb. i tink it was due to mi being bo chap. ok there goes my money. tried asking it back. but i dun really wan to press it. my opinion of tt person hav dropped. i will never trust tt person anymore. ok watever. feeling pissed. there goes another 7. wtf.

separate note...the race just really started..everything is wrong. shit. better now. mclaren is too pro. disgusting. ALL THE WAY SCHUMI. HAHA HE IS FLYING!

so far so gd. fantastic. posting gd times.

pls pls win tomorrow. 5 hrs more b4 race starts. i wonder wat they r doing now. one day, i must go. go n see wat they do. i would lyk the one at imola or magny-cours. when i hav enough money tt it. sit in the vip suite n stone for 2 hrs. tt beats looking at numbers for 2 hrs rite. haha. i prefer the old commentry lor. the new one kinda sux. oh yeah. old stuff r usually better. haha. trying to look for other sites, but there seem to be none. newcastle takes everton tonite too! might be able to listen in too. wat an action pack nite. haha. sch reopens in 2 days. sian man. i wonder wat will be happening, hope interesting stuff happens. crappy. haha. nothing interesting happens in sch. maybe someone might get sars or something. haha. devilish. dreading wed. haha. oh but at least i get to wear new sch u. yeah. so tight the old ones were. haha. ok. got to return the library bk 2molo. due liao. n i havent pay the darn fine yet. haha. but it seems when u return the bk, they stop charge liao. so i can technically dun pay, n die owing them 15 cents. haha. how lame.

my boredom has reached a new peak. i actually when to hold the button. haha. yes zm, i am tt bored. the bored says boredom cause fatigue. fatigue cause worries. worries cause unhappiness. i guess i still feel ok. haha. i should try do something interesting to kill time. i cant wait for the race to start. i tink there is an interesting show tonite. hehe. finally found wat der wille zur macht means. it means the will to power. how cool. yes, but i hav to agree tt it is quite bland, not veri colourful. hiaz.

shall go stone around. later.

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if u r fated, maybe u will be able to read dis. haha.

aiyo...lock lyk siao...pain lyk siao...aiyo...hahaha

schumi is 7th on the grid. absurd n unacceptable. wat nonsense is he up to. argh!

took a short nap. feeling fantastic now. ahh. i just remember tt i hav to go buy a game n change one. hmm. i gain satisfaction frm remembering tt. haha. so lame. the world is full of dishonest pple. wat is so nice abt picking pple's wallets n hp n keeping them? disgusting. ought to be shot. haha. ok. my fren wans mi to help market his lastest e-bk. i hav to confess he amazes mi every single day. unbelieveable guy.

it is very noisy outside. i wonder y. i bet downtown east is having some crappy function...again. icq hung again. broke my conversation on how to my money. argh. i settled wif the idea of selling my flash skills to webmasters. ok. tt it. i am gonna try my luck.

i hope i dun need surgery

shit lar... crap... so loose...just locked cos i didnt take care in bending. wat the hell. anyway, dear mum, i am not stopping becos of a bad knee. no never. i believe n i hope it is nothing serious. it might be maybe. hoping it is not. haha. yeah, not stopping, u get it? just read something disgusting! haha

hooray! finish chem tutorial liao! haha. except for a few holes here n there, it is done. phew. dun tink there is any more work to be done. so i am basically free now. quite sleepy. haha. just took a cold cold shower. almost freeze to death. wah piang. for a min, i thought it was gonna be refreshing. it is worse. haha. i feel so darn sleepy. but if i sleep now, den i probably cant sleep tonite. how screwed! haha. thank god i finished the chem tutorial liao. at least tt sumting of my mind. hehe. got a feeling icq is gonna screw up soon. again. argh. sickening. haha.

y the hell did my fren did a quiz or watever nosense u call those on wat kind of gf he is. wat the hell. trans! pple dis days.. hiaz. perverted. on the other hand, betta not tell him tt. seems mighty depressed dis few days. i dunno y. anyway, dun wanna tok abt tt anymore. haha. anyway icq really hung lor. so sian. getting screw by someone for not replying. not my fault wat. in the end had to use hp. wah sian si. dun jump into conclusions mah. not my fault. haha. dinner was pathetic. instant noodles. wah lau. i promise to go learn how to cook sumting better for myself. probably die of msg poisoning. haha. something easy, nice to eat n filling. hmm. i dunno. but i tink i am pro at cooking noodles. haha. maybe try one of those microwave dinners haha. wah piang pathetic sia!

shall try tidy a little bit of my room. it is in total mess. lyk war zone. return library bk. pay fine. check any work left to do. hmm, wat else?

wah liew. i slept at 4 30am. now i am feeling the after effects. a little dizzy n drowsy. haha. lyk drifting abt between dreamland n reality. haha. quite shuang. i am just plain shagged. haha. not veri funny esp when i am trying to figure out chem bonding. but, on my way to finish tt tutorial. rather surprisingly. it is quite tough. argh. everyone seems to hav the ans, but i dun. so tt quite pissing too. ok, but it is better to know now den not to know forever. haha. left wif some holes in the tutorial. probably gonna finish it up today. am still waiting, hoping sch dun reopen on mon. pls pls pls. haha. it will be chaotic if sch reopens. hiaz. no more slow fun life. actually, i dun really hav an opinion cos i dun really hav a choice. however, if given one, haha, i prefer no sch. haha. racking my brains to tink of whether is there anymore work to be done. cant tink of any. hope there is none liao. but my classmates always spring surprises. ok just receive news tt sch opens on 9. not 15. argh. they tink jc students more immune to virus. wat nonsense....

woah. just realised tt ken toh is a chao mugger! argh. do so much hw liao. i am gonna slay u! haha. no. i need to play catch up. proud to say tt i actually finished maths tutorial n assignment 8 in 2 days haha. i am lagging behind in chem bonding. he finsihed it liao. moron. i shall finish it by tomorrow. rite now, it is in front of mi, but i cant be bothered to do lar. maybe not slping tonite. haha. complete it tomorrow.

i shall do
1.dis
2.chem bonding

veri veri busy nite ahead. haha. ok icq is veri problematic. give up man. argh watever. a little bu shuang now. the knee is veri veri veri loose. haha. if i continue lyk dis writing crap, hav no time to do important stuff. veri veri important. haha. heard tt sch is not opening until 15. hope tt is true. i dun happen to appreciate sch veri much. much worse wif a crappy class. haha. call mi ungrateful. hahaha. i cant be bothered. byebye. i am gonna do my stuff n be veri happy!

today is great. i button bashed for 8hrs. ended feeling dizzy. haha. so i went to do maths tutorial 8. quite fun. haha. really. graphing i so fun! knee locked once. i dun care liao. hehehe. but i am quite drained now. i plan to finish up maths tutorial n assignment 8 by sun. haha. i tink i shall go shower noe. hav been showering at 3am for the past week. my mum says can get arthritis.. maybe tt y my knee, haha cannot be. oh well. conclusion of another happy happy day. fantastic to be happy. haha.

hiaz. hav a headache frm the machine. haha. but i dun tink i will be addicted. i somehow prefer to do work. haha. sometimes i wonder if i am a menace to others. oh well, i cant control tt either. i dunno. maybe it is my fault. or am i thinking too much. haha. watever. beyond my control. it is dizzling outside now, i am gonna catch some slp. soon sch will reopen. i tink i will get into the sch mode soon. every night i go off, i still see pple online, i wonder wat they do? n when they wake up in the morning? but i dun feel lyk asking. haha. or else there aint any stuff left for mi to think liao haha. gd morning.

oh no....icq got prob!

amazing, either my icq got prob or there is totally no online now. haha. anyway. today has been great so far. fantastic. it was the icq tt had prob. haha. oh. the new guy in the og send another mail. wah. he is chao on. haha. he is in my class too, if i didnt get the name wrong. yes. but i got dis feeling tt i would probably not bother abt his presence. heard so not so nice stuff abt him. tt is not a factor tho. he just doesnt seem lyk the pple i mix wif. i wonder wat r his hobbies? hmm. interesting. divert a little. i splurge on ffx, xenosaga, dynasty warroirs 4 n winning 11. if u stil dunno. i hav a ps2. hahaha. just got it today. ok, i shall let it affect my studies. already set my aims for the common test. n i shall fail in achieving tt. i can feel it in my bones. haha. ok back to my classmate. i just dun foresee myself mixing much wif him. he freaks mi out. haha. sadly true. haha. i am darn evil. but i lyk. haha. ok. ok. dun be so mean liao.

not really looking forward to sch. haha. yasho just labeled mi crazy. i noe i am slightly off. haha. but they say it is a fine line between geniuses n maniacs. but i tink i am the latter. haha. i wonder wat it feels to be really smart? hmm. interesting. who cares. haha. ohohoh. btw i tink my bro is disgrace to ffx. haha. i shall personally thrash him in tt. haha. oh n yasho. i am hoping the hols never end. i am getting used to such a slow pace relax life. maybe when i grow up, i shall go to some island resort n just live there n work frm there. haha. lyk in the movies. tt is way way cool. singapore is too stressful. actually ok lah. but i dunno. c how it goes.

just had two minor locks in my knee. hiaz. but i cant do anything abt at except to accept tt n be happy abt it. at least not now lar. ok nvm. shall got se a doc as soon as i get a letter. went out today. for the first day since the sars thingy. if u discount those small little trips to the park n all. ok. it was fun. crap. just had a little more than minor lock. i find tt the locks come in clusters. n after each one, the knee will get quite weak. hiaz. the fact tt i am worrying abt it is because i cant go training n play soccer. tt all. ok n i am afraid tt i would become one of those wearing knee guards all the time. but such worries serve no purpose at this pt of time n therefore, i shall banish them to outer space. haha. as i was saying, i went out n spent 43 dollars to make myself happy. it was actually 51..but i bargained. wohaha. i am quite proud of tt. anyway, i am refusing to feel sorry for myself, because no one will feel sorry for mi n therefore, if i self-pity, i will just look lyk a pathetic twerp. i am still quite happy. haha.

someone is going nuts over a missing wallet. i wouldnt if i were him, cos probably die younger.

anyway read dis. picked out the gd ones. haha
why did the chicken cross the road

Colonel Sanders
I missed one?

Bill Clinton
I did not cross the road with THAT chicken. What do you mean by
chicken? Could you define chicken please?

Sir Isaac Newton
Chickens at rest tend to stay at rest, while chickens in motion tend to cross the road.

Albert Einstein
Whether the chicken crossed the road or the road crossed the chicken depends on your frame of reference.

Saddam Hussein
This was an unprovoked act of rebellion and we were quite justified in dropping 50 tons of nerve gas on it.

Joseph Stalin
I don't care. Catch it. Crack its eggs to make my omlette.

George Orwell
Because the government had fooled him into thinking that he was crossing the road of his own free will, when he was really only serving their interests.

Jerry Falwell
Because the chicken was gay! Isn't it obvious? Can't you people see the plain truth in front of your face? The chicken was going to the
"other side." That's what "they" call it: the "other side." Yes, my friends, that chicken is gay. And, if you eat that chicken, you will
become gay too. That chicken should not be free to cross the road. It's as plain and simple as that.

Jerry Seinfield
Why does anyone cross a road? I mean, why doesn't anyone ever think to ask, 'What in the world was this chicken doing walking all over the place anyway?

Jack Nicholson....me too? haha
'Cause it (censored) wanted to. That's the (censored) reason.

Darwin
Chickens, over great periods of time, have been naturally selected in such a way that they are now genetically disposition to cross roads.

i am so slack. haha. up to now. i read the time mag. the author of the bk i did for review passed away 2yrs liao. surprised to see him in the article. the bk was so wacky n out of the world. haha. ok. den i explained maths over the phone. did some mindless reading of chem bonding n watched the tv. oh. the americans rescued a pow. fantastic. gd on u! ok. realised tt sars is still as bad as ever. i tink they should ban all china mamas frm coming in. i would personally slaughter the next one who says china is pro in gp. xenophobic morons. haha. wat the hell am i so worked up for? no i am not. i am just bemused. y dey so nationalistic. haha. plan to study dynamics. yup. losta rumors n speculations whether sch hols will be extented. i found tt extremely pointless except to kill time. i have learnt to cooperate wif the inevitable. haha.

i find it funny tt when guys r hungry, they almost certainly cook instant noodles. i hav 2 frens doing tt now. but wat is amazing tt some degrade themselves to suffice on cup noodles. or even. omg! sweets. argh! haha

never ever play to weird jokes. pple cannot take it sometimes. n everything gets into a mess. haha. in the end, this idiotic person had to go around apologizing to everyone. haha. found out tt pple cannot take gays. haha. the reaction was so strong. amazing. teach him not to fool around too much. i am very happy today. haha. wat a nice day. even discussing work over the phone was happy. haha fantastic. tv was great. stoning was fun. reading was happy. everything just seems brighter today. happy. however, once i become happy, i find a lot of sad pple around mi. i shall make it my job to infuse everyone wif happiness. haha. quit being sad. u dunno wat u r missing. everything bad cant really affect mi now. haha.

the sars thing is still as crap as ever. hiaz.