I think there is a compatibilty issue with something. The blogger page is not loading correctly. Hmmm....

The computer is still acting up a bit though much of the problem has been alleviated already. Today seems so long already probably because I have been at work since 7 AM and am quite happy to say that my stuff is about 90% done already! Yeah!

I need to post a picture of the new TV soon.=).

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Dreamers, or so my teacher say will do their best in whatever you give them. But you can't keep them, can't force them into a mould. They yearn to be free and it is in their nature to roam around the world and experience life the way it is meant to. Not in some warped way that people here experience.

Life is harsh for dreamers in a practical society like ours. But it is nice to hold on the idealistic view that you could just fly off into the sunset, even for a moment.

Now the question is, where does that leave the half dreamers who lack the courage to say no?

Come on!

Booked out at 7 PM today! The first time I got out of camp in daylight...=)

Really hope that this weekend will go well since I would be flying off this monday to taiwan. Hiaz.

Just got back from visiting my ex GP teacher and she is still as charming as ever. Shouldn't let her down by screwing up huh?

Yeah. Needa buck up a bit on stuff.

sometimes, it is not easy to do your best

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Still milling around, trying to fix the computer. =(.

Just got back from the presentation and have to rush to book in now. =(.

It was thoroughly enjoyable though.

Sometimes, there are things that you really wanna do, but at the same time don't feel like doing it.

Do you understand that feeling? Get it?

Drained

I wasn't going to write anything for the night until my friend came around on MSN to chat with me.

It was nice. A very kind gesture by an old friend.

The stuff he said, some of which was already long lost, others already hazy and likely to go soon. I don't remember section living firing my dear A, but that's because I almost got killed and was scribbling in my little black notebook.=).

You brought the smile to my face to night albeit temporary. And I hope the one on yours never ceases.

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I got bitten a zillion times by mosquitoes last night during guard duty. I hope I don't get dengue. :S

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I should take a leaf out of A's book. It's just one essay and once that's out of the way, the application should be done. But now, my brain needs some rest.

Busy

The computer is losing the battle against spyware. The situation is so bad that I dare not risk opening more than 2 applications at one time for fear of crashing the computer. I have to fix this somehow.

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Had been hard at work on my university applications. The progress is considerable though I still have much to do. The thing is my essays ain't turning out good and that is THE major obstacle. Hiaz.

Besides that, I have a bunch of army stuff to do-pack my kitbag for the Taiwan trip, study for an exam on Tuesday which constitute 30% of the final grade etc. etc.

I guess this weekend is too short. Looking forward to Wednesday as well as my last book-out on Friday...

I need to find it fast.

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Will blog just before book-in, which is in 7 hours time at 10 30 PM. Bye.

Back from duty

Entertaining a thought now...=).

Yup, I just got back from guard duty (a pure waste of time) and somehow feel quite invigorated by the cool chilly air in the morning.

Must have been the rain last time. Camp on Saturdays and Sundays is a picture of quiet serenity unlike the boorish and loud thing it is when the week starts.

Got to run. I still have my essay to write. Cya!

After being locked away in the confines of camp for 5 days, I come out into the civilised world to realise a couple of things have changed....

...like how North Korea has pledged to give up its nuclear ambitions, the threat of hurricane Kita and the trend of bloggers writing cryptic pieces of I am the _____ that ________.

Geez, it's very unlike me to jump on bandwagons and go crazy with people but this one seems too good to be miss.

But being rather private, I have decided just to go ahead and give myself the liberity to write just one line, even though I am dying to write a full blown piece. The university essay is of a higher priority. Haha.

So here it goes...

I am the guy that thinks the world is a little wrong and is doing my best to change it.

Damn, I am sleepy already!

Sucks

I really forgot how it feels like to be happy already. Haha.

-suckers-
so another late book out (8 15 PM)...
a letter trying to make me feel guilty, which has succeeded in part...
lousy week in camp...
guard duty tomorrow, meaning I have to report to camp early in the morning, ruining my book out...
many tests and army stuff to do...
university applications to content with...
generally just not up to anything....
no time for myself to do ANY DAMN THING.

-cheers-
TGS is one exciting show with news on FFXII, Dragon Quest VIII is coming!!!, MGS 4 is on PS3!, reviews on advent children...and more!

life's just like this. Sucks.

Writing against time

I am suffering from writer's block. Everything that I write for my essay I read and discard.

Considering the severe time constraints that I am facing, this is not good. Hiaz. And I just had to turn down a dinner outing.

And it seems the internet is more or less back to normal except that Gamespot is still down. =S.

I need to find some inspiration fast! Book-in timing is at 9 PM. Come on....

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Quarter life crisis.

THE INTERNET CONNECTION HAS GONE NUTS

Argh! I have wasted so much time on it already and it is still acting up!

WTH!

11 44 AM:
After numerous attempts at fixing the darn thing, it's still not working. The problem might not lie with me since several of my friends are experiencing difficulties as well. I shall go plan for today first.

Woke up at 10 AM and have been meddling with the internet since.

Something has gone wrong, someone is tapping in and I have put the WEP on. But I still cannpt access Gamespot. This is damn irritating and time wasting.

ARGH.

A breather

Meeting up with friends took a little longer than usual as I have just got home. Really tired man.

Walking back, I could smell the burning offerings and see the full moon in the night sky. Earlier on, I had dinner with my friend at Carl's Junior to celebrate his passing of some pesky tests. I guess the novelty is what is attracting the crowd to Carl's Junior. Honestly, the taste isn't out of this world and the price is on the high side (around $10) even though the portions are HUGE. But how many medium (large size if you think KFC or McDonald's) cups of coke can you down? Yup, drinks are free flow.

Now you know why Americans have a thing with heart diseases. Tb and I idled around Suntec and I meet my coursemate. Singapore is really too small man. OH! I saw Kym Ng at citylink today and she looked very dodgy. I would have approached her for a picture had I went out with a camera. HIAZ! Waited for Eddie to coming along before going to his place to watch FFVII AC. I must say that despite the very impressive graphics and fight choreography, the show didn't really catch on to me. Sad to say, I almost doze off midway through it. Nonetheless, anything FF can't really hurt that much!

And my brother drove me home.

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When you look at certain things and the way they turn out to be, sometimes you wonder if the world is fair. You wonder even if you know the answer that quite franky the world is unfair and some people, if not most, get by doing lesser and might end up better off than you.

Who now believes in good o' fashion hardwork? Working smart stinkness though.

I feel damn cheated. But the fact is, you can create a final fantasy. Hang in there!

10 36 AM

The wind was really scary last night, howling and whipping away.

I have big plans for today and have also come to the realisation that you can't expect much of a screwed up organisation.

Down with a slight flu

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Did the service paper, went to Popular to buy printer ink ($64!!!) and photocopy some stuff ($25.65). And that brings us to 4 16 PM already. =(.

Why me?

Booked out on Friday at 10 20 PM. Burnt.

This weekend is not going according to my plan. It's going to get burnt.

Catcha later.

funeral

...are unpleasant affairs. The juxtapose of practicality and logical against the supposed sentiments of the occasion makes the whole affair laughable. But it is beyond me to act in such a callous and cruel manner.

I didn't even go for the lunch on Sunday and she sounded okay then. I didn't realise she always ask after me.

My eyes watered a bit today.


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penning/drafting essays? I need to buy a gift.

In for Hell Week

Yup, I sense that this coming week will be challenging. But it doesn't matter so long as my coming weekend doesn't get burnt up like the one I am having now. Hiaz.

Somehow I have some time on my hands now to indulge in some R&R. Still have a couple of things to settle though before leaving home early to book in. Hiaz Hiaz.

I hate running. Today's AHM gave me pain in the shins again, as well as a hurting right knee. It's difficult for me to figure out how you can get HIGH after a run. Soccer, fencing, yes. Running, no no.

And I didn't read the Sunday Times as carefully as I wanted to, though carefully enough to find the woman at the back page of Life! weird. Her favourite chinese restuarant is in London.

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show me how to cry
for the tears have dried long ago
tell me how to cry
because soon she might go

I don't confess to be the most feeling person on earth. However, at times like these, I am shocked that I don't find tears welling, voice choking and knees shaking.

It's now 6 36 PM.

Additions to my house

Now this fountain is ugly. It looks like some gothic mismatch from a different era. My Dad bought fishes for it but 4 of them committed suicide last night by jumping out of the water. Even the fishes are complaining.


Now this thingy here costs $1880 and dispensers purified hot and room temperature water. Works like a tap, just more expensive.

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Just settled down after a long morning. Cabbed down to the AHM at padang, ran/jog/walked 12 km before taking a train back home. Boring!

But there was this cute eye candy on the train which made the ride a little more pleasant and faster than usual except that she treated me like I was a piece of glass. Darn.

Still have much to do. Cya in a while. I am so sleepy now. ARGH!

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Succumbed to the comfort of my bed for a good 1.5 hrs. Haha. During AHM, I saw many many people ranging from RI secondary 1 classmates all the way to recent Delta mates. It's nice to catch up with people at any time and any place. It's saddening to feel how out of touch you are with your friends....or ex-friends perhaps?

ANGSTY

11 46 AM

The morning has been wasted on stuff. Yeah, on very unenjoyable stuff. My aunt and her husband are at my place now but I don't really feel up to talking today.

Because I am in a foul mood.

And that means I am stuck in my room with nothing but unenjoyable stuff to do.

This weekend is really RUINED. BURNT. I can hardly believe this.

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I will probably go out later to buy stuff, get a haircut, update my bank book and destress a bit. Everything except destressing links, in some way or the other, to the fricking army.

Don't tell me to 'LL suck thumb' or anything along those lines. Army lingo is bad english. I feel extreme pain just typing it out.

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1 40 PM

I just finished my lunch and ran my errands. The stationary bill came out to be $79.25 excluding the stencils which I have yet to purchase. This is ridiculous.

Hiding in my room now with the air-conditioner tuned to the lowest temperature. Such a rarity. Back to stuff.

Argh.

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6 49 PM

Have been shuffling between work and play for the entire afternoon. I have got a feeling nothing much has actually been achieved but can't be bothered to worry myself with that.

My life has been so restricted that I can count of the number of strangers I have seen in the past 24 hours with one hand. There is still much to be done...but right now, I am using the excuse of waiting for dinner to extend this ill deserved break.

Things to do...

• Settle Stanford essays and forms
• Army stuff...yeah stuff
• Rest, relax and slack

Listening to Sometimes You Can't Make It On Your Own by U2. Ironic because I hate/seldom ask people for help. I should be more forthcoming with seeking others for help. That's something to remember.

Because life will be so much easier then...

BUSY

This is unbelievable.

I have just been assigned, on top of so much shit already, 2 extra jobs to be completed over my fast disappearing weekend.

And to think that my university applications will no doubt have to suffer because of this makes my blood boil.

I don't even have much time to complain. Cya later...I got run first.

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12 30 AM. It's already Saturday and I have spent the little bit of Friday fretting over absolutely moronic things that refuse to make sense of themselves. Even the McDonald's meal that I stuffed myself with tasted bland. Just how bad can things go?

Ironic that all I wanted was a peaceful week to myself. Fuck it. I hate being stress....because it kills me.

Have to go back...

Just finished watching the HK drama...Booking in late at night really feels better. Not good, just better than bad. So much for being grateful huh?

All the army stuff that I set out to do remains undone, but that hardly matter since I rate my future school at a much high priority.

On a side note, Google is taking over the world. Bloody geniuses

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Have to control myself, have to control my thoughts. Keep cool and calm, worry less dude.

My life these days lack the TV. It lacks the Playstation 2 as well. But what's important is not the physical deficiency of these entertainment avenues. Those were passions albeit hedonistic ones that I pursued...and that reflected on my life. School life to be exact...

Life as an army boy is bland and crass. The loud laughter, the swear words and the mindless screaming, yelling, crapping just detracts but cannot deceive me about the true state of affairs.

And I have got a service paper to write and an exam to study. Rats.

Nowadays, even the flashing MSN conversation window seldom pop up on the taskbar.

Bye guys...I can't wait for the 9th to come. It's a Friday.

A rainy day to magnify my gloomy mood.

I am thoroughly vexed because of a fix that I am in. It originally could have been avoided but now it's quite pointless to say that...HIAZ.

My mind is in a swirl from all the application forms that I am burdened with. I need a break badly.

Too fast...

This book-out seems to have just zoooomedddd by. And I am to return back to the confines of camp tonight.
This feeling sucks.

And I still have to content myself with the rubbish that I was told to do over the weekend. This feeling sucks just as well.

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I purposely left parts of the Sunday Times unread because I would need it later amidst all the boring crap that I have to do. Please...wake me up when next October ends.

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Darn busy. ARGH!

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10 17 AM: Nothing is coming out. The stuff you see on the web can get so ridiculous

Punggol

I never knew that rural places still existed in Singapore! Definitely worth a second visit...

And when I got off the train just now, fireworks were going off at the Chinese Garden. I think I should pay the Light Safari exhibition a visit sometime soon. Maybe next friday if all goes well...

I need a good shower now. BYE!

Friday night and Saturday afternoon

Just got back from soccer at HCJC.

The turnout was good and the people were cool. Just that everyone was lethargic in some way or the other and the friggin weather didn't do anything to help. One moment it was hot, very very hot and the next moment rain came down like no tomorrow. Argh.

Got drenched as I ran all the way to Coronation Plaza for lunch with a busted ankle and a bruised shin. That's not good since SOC test is this coming Tuesday.=(.

Pondering what to do now...I feel like going to town to get some shopping done. But first up, a nice warm shower.

GTG! Time is darn precious.

Crappy. I wonder how I fell asleep last night.

=(.

Motorcycle or Car

Will be having a rather busy weekend...=(. Lots of exams to study for and assignments to complete! Who would have guessed that the ARMY gives HOMEWORK. Wah liao!

On a brighter note, I have cleared my IPPT last Wednesday with a PB in the 2.4km run and also managed a PB in SOC trial test even AFTER the frigging guard duty! Yup, quite a good albeit long week.

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I decided to give the SMU party a miss because I figured that clubbing really isn't my style. Clubbing falls under the category of 'physically strenuous activities' while soccer does not. Weird, but unfortunately very true for my case. Haha.

Which reminds me that I haven't decided whether to go kick ball tomorrow morning...

Wah, too tired to write already. Cya around!

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Would you rather take a car or a motorcycle?