a slacky sorta day. so sian. i really dun feel lyk doing anything. hiaz. today is the 1st day of june rite. so i am supposed to start some of my plans. oh man. i feel so drained. just feel lyk sleeping n not waking up. shall take a shower later to **** myself up. ****. haha. i still havent totally forget yet. i dun think i will forget. but i hope to. it will end soon enough. haha.

did the physics assignment n circular motion. i hav 1 trigo qn left. but dunno how to do. flip through some of the yfc stuff. must go mug more. must memorize. hiaz. shall do some filing, cos the general file is getting too thick. trying to get a digital camera for taking photos at founders day. it is gonna be fun. but the sucky thing is must be in sch on wed. wth. hate tt.

aiyo. sian. but the day just became a little more interesting.

i hav to do
gp...omg. not again argh.
trigo
bio..m&m
circular motion

eruorfikrdfisdfedfpsdf...wth

it is abt to end soon. hmm. i tink tt gd. takes the load of the mind. a load. it ends where it begins....frm xenogears...i tink its in the bible too...btw i tink xenogears is better than xenosaga. story wise. it was brilliant. i am alpha n omega the first n the last..something lyk tt

just had dinner. i feel so sleepy. but i havent done anything today YET. besides vomiting frm mgs2. argh. i feel so sick. really looking forward to founders day on tues. i hope i dun even need to see sch on tt day.

some pple have to much time others hav too little. can be more fair a not?

the gp thing said crap.

almost puking frm mgs2. argh. damn hard. but tt makes it all the more interesting. same cant be said for gp though. haha. hav been going full force on mgs recently. should try n scale back a bit

yfc was boring. they tok n tok for 4 long hours. almost died. so sleepy frm gaming last nite. n they ask mi questions. died. haha. must go n mug liao. trimming n shit stuff. but the nice place is nice. scary tho. there is food but is x. n there is air con but is spoilt. oh well. but 10000 times better than the old building.

i tink i shall study circular motion today. n the meiosis n mitosis crap. my real bio teacher is coming on monday. i hope she doesnt force us to do tutorials. haha. should do some filing. n the gp crap. n the maths trigo. n wat else? dunno. wth. must go check diary
i hope there is no sch on tues. nxt wk should be fun. i hope can play floor ball on fri. tt the thing i am looking forward too. nothing else. sch sux. it was confirmed at the rugby finals. the councillors were a disgrace. worse than ripb, which i didnt really like. but comparing the two, ripb rox. haha.

dad went to meet the teacher. woah. died. who cares. fuck off.

june hols is packed

got to do the recording
the cycling trip
fencing + some clinic
yfc
common test
camp?

wow how fun...

i was making comparisons. n i found out tt i didnt cherish my time properly. hiaz. but now is not the time 2 regret.

i hope yfc doesnt waste my time 2molo. all i wanted was to fly n hav fun. now i hav more than tt. i hav clashing n stress n screwing. but at least it is a new place now. hope they hav air con n food. haha.

the ruggers played wif a lot of passion. it was truly great. much better than shouting pple. they deserve more.

may is also gone. i tink may is a sad month. "you r never scared rite" "yeah" right. n there was the usual talk. again

argh. i slept at 8 yesterday. cant believe it. never study physics. so fail. but nvm. cos the day was fucked up by rugby. they should have won. fuck. i dunno y it is affecting mi. but i am rather pissed off by it too.

fuck yfc too.

be back later.

today is a very mixed day.

shit stuff happened. my knee esp the left one is dangerously painful. n lips r very dry, cracking cos of air con. so i am not slping in air con room tonite. may i burn in hell. bio was disaster. smashed up the stupid tray. luckily, my partner had already taken his stuff or else i have to pay more than 6.5..i give 7. 7! waste my money. wth. gp was a pure waste of time. haha. shant waste anymore of my time on it.

nice stuff happened too. went out after gp ct. a lot of pple came. shuang! luah. fang. ray. yem. yeh. gin way. eddie. watch brue almighty. haha. super funny. hahaha. got the game changed too. sons of liberty. here i come haha. den we tok abt some stuff over dinner n on the way home. yeah it was quality conversation. hmm. not bad. a nice outing on the whole. happy!

be the miracle..haha...
i give up liao

the tv show is how nice. the fencing pple called to say no training. tt really nice of them too. at least they dun let u find out frm the notice board on the day itself. gd job.

wei xiaobao has 3 things. yi qi yi qi hai shi yi qi. last episode tomolo. it is really gd. i tink i shall get the book to read. but it is 5 books leh. haha omg. i tink i will enjoy it.

i hav realised tt i dun hav an aim for gp at least. i just wanna get the average mark. no need higher but not lower. someone told mi tt it is not a competition wif others. it is for urself. i would very much lyk to agree wif tt. but i cant. all my life it has been a competition wif others. tt is to derive some self worth. the spelling of worth looks wrong. haha. gd luck for gp haha. i tink tt y i am so rotten.

tried to organise a camp over to watch soccer at my house. failed. all except one can. cos parents dun allow. omg. parents hav never been a factor for mi. i tink i enjoy a great deal of freedom. thanks mum thanks dad. but never mind. there is still the cycling trip to look forward to. i better start planning the route soon. haha. btw, i realised tt a lot of pple cant cycle and/or swim. they were talking abt tt in class today. how sad.

gd luck for gp...to myself...i hav realised tt when u noe death is approaching, n u cant stop it, den u become rather bo chap abt it. b4 every major exam, i will always remember wat a taxi driver told mi when i was in his taxi going to rss on the first day of psle in the morning tt lyk 4.5 yrs ago..it was in dialect. hokkien i tink translated it means lyk...if u wanna win u hav to pia...wat a fantastic phrase. i just just whack tt bloody piece of paper tomolo...hahaha...confidence is at an all time high...show no fear

i still cant believe i bought the wrong game. i am gonna burn the shop down. after gp tomorrow the wk should rox apart from physics test n the possibility of bio test. after gp tomolo 5, i am chaoing away frm the horrible stupid place call sch where pple might be discussing all the stupid ans.

CHANGE THE BLOODY GAME N MURDER THAT ASS WHO SOLD MI TT PIRATED PIRATED GAME
go for fencing...reminds mi of the clash wif yfc
cheong home to watch casualties of war at 10pm den champions league finals while doing stupid gp editorial...must go ask how to do.
den arrive back in the stupid place called sch damn shag but much happier.

i wish the ruggers all the best in their finals.

i bought the wrong game. tt sums up my day. sux. after geting it change tomolo, i will never ever buy at ghim moh again. shall go tampines instead. i am bloody pissed...

pt no. 1 to make is i hate gays. disgusting.

just slept off a mother of a headache n back to the real world, which unfortunately is a mother of a headache too. yfc tt stupid mother crap has decided to shift the briefing from 1330hrs to 0830hrs in short meaning i miss training on sat plus wed got faggorty gp ct, meaning i dun go fencing for the whole of dis wk which means i HATE YFC YOU BITCH! WAT IS UR PROB! training is gd for health n not training is no gd for health n WTH IS UR PROB!!!! U BASTARDS! i should hav taken another club instead. hiazz. regret. if u hav a gd way of solving dis prob pls mail at thngzx@hotmal.com btw yfc is youth flying club...

BASTARD BASTARD BASTARD BASTARD BASTARD BASTARD BASTARD BASTARD BASTARD BASTARD BASTARD BASTARD

just formulated a 2.4 training prog...hehe...sick of running being my weakest item. so next yr around pple shall be eating my dust. hahaha. tt is on top of pp n w training prog. wah lan. haha. i am crazy. everything starts tomolo tues 27/5/03

must work on some physics later but rite now vexed by the yfc shit n fencing clashing. hiaz. i will swear it off on paper later.

pple r getting it all right. ppple tt were once wrong. i am in danger of getting left behind. history cant repeat itself. i cant let tt happen, it must not happen...

today is quite a happy day. but chao tired cos of gladiator last nite. damn sleepy now. argh. 2.4 10 17. miss A by 6s!!! argh. ok i wasnt expecting an A anyway but now tt i can do 10 17 i tink A should have been no prob.. but den again, i am satisified. 28 pts. shall try 30 next yr! got back chem, bio n maths test results. ok lar. quite satisfied. last term AAAA now AABE. i onli not shuang the B for physics miss by 1 mark onli! E for bio quite expected cos i never mug. but i was expecting a D. haha. nvm. gp was too sian as usual. but some of my classmates tink it is ok. i dunno lar. maybe it is just mi. anyway i hav backup plan liao so never mind. but the thing was talking some stuff abt cca. lyk how councillors work lyk dog but onli get c n onli the pres will get a. but i tink wat is more impt is u enjoy it lor. lyk for sailing even tho i didnt get anything cos it wasnt core but i really enjoyed by time there. plus the pple were great!

anyway, interesting stuff happened after pe. i was lyk stoning wif the 3i pple. n i said i tink i spend more time wif u guys den my own class. everyone agreed. it is jus tt most of the time my class is no where to be found. ah nvm. but den again cos ray n ivan i noe dem damn long liao ma n gin way also quite long. den 3i got quite cool n fun pple lyk shengxiang n lian kiat. i guess its tt we r abt same wavelenght. i dunno lar.

ken composed a song on fri at library. saw it today. quite pro. tt y he is called KEN DA PRO. haha. seriously not bad lor. but it is abt a guy liking a girl but den the girl doesnt lyk the guy n all the waiting n stuff lar. so it is quite sad. cos it is true. oh well. but tt aint for mi to comment. tt his life.

gp ct sux n i am going do 30 pp.

nothing to do today expect for physics test n tutorial. slack. but did i hear tt there is bio test. wth. cant be bothered. let mi settle gp n physics first. BUT TOMOLO GOT LONG GP 1HR 40MINS. HIAZ. i really hate it.

sometimes i wonder wat went wrong. did i do something wrong? i guess i will never know. but den i tink i should have done something wrong or else y would things go wrong. or mayb it is just fate? i think so lor. just too different. but tt nothing anyway.


oh n i scored 6 in a row in bball last sat. haha. but i still dun lyk it.

stoning...

argh wrong person!!!! shit lar. but maybe it is correct rite. in fact i dun wanna noe. i much rather left it as a mystery as chaos said in xenosaga...the truth isnt always a nice thing to know...btw the story is heating up

anyway to my visitor in the US...i am frm singapore. drop mi a mail at thngzx@hotmail.com

a bloody funny conversation. haha

k...
wait ah....
wat colour do i remind u of?
orange, red, yellow, blue, white, purple, pink, or green?
huh,,,so chim
??
juz say which colour i remind u of lor.... haha....
its not a trick qn with lame ans.... serious!
i noe i am tinking......shhhh
haha....
kk...
pink
OH MAN!!!!!
y?
erm....
u wanna know e meaning?
ok..haha how exciting
orange= a friend worth knowing
blue= love
white =someone who knows u well
red=hate
yellow=someone u cannot forget
green=someone u think of occasionally
pink= sex partner (OH MAN!)
purple= someone u can rely on
hahaha....i am not gonna rape u relax

today is chao slack. didnt do anything at all. hiaz. i am quite hyped up by 2.4 tomolo. seriously interested 2 noe how fast i run. if i dun screw up should b less den 12min certainly it should be high 10 mins lar. but tt was lyk 1 yr ago. haha. ok i aim to get 10 mins plus but die die must at least 12 den gold ok. tt it. hehe. how exciting. i am getting excited abt running 6 rounds around a damn track. wth. i am crazy! but hope tt the weather tomolo wont be so hot. pls. or i will burnt. thankfully it's gonna be in the morning. praying...

my fren si bei worked up abt gp ct. haha. conversely, i dun give a shit. fate shall handle everything for mi. i already tho of wat to do if i so happen to fail gp for prelims or a...not tt i hope it will happen.i will try not to let tt happen . but.. contingency plans r gd rite

1. prelim fail n get retained. ok. i will quit sch n see if i can still apply for the poly scholarship thing wif the army. den i will hav both studies n career settled.

2. a levels fail. i will enlist n sign on as regular n slog lyk a dog to increase my rank n pay.

n if dad get retrench or pay cut too mcuh ( touch all the wood in the world!!), i will quit sch n go work. the rich always say y so greedy over money? n there is one couple buy a farm in singapore to stay n be farmers. but tt cos they r filthy rich in the first place! argh. the have n the have nots. one day i shall start a revolution.

but to reality...
i still got physics test to mug
n 2 qn of physics tutorial
pw proposal to complete the little bits
maybe flip some gp.
watch tv. set bye

just finished another failng piece of gp essay. fag. hiaz. cant be helped. but at least it is out of the way. yester i slept at 9 plus 10. wah lau. tt is how early. my mama tricked mi into slping early! wah lau. how jian shit. i wanted to do more r&r one lor. wretched. argh. damn

i am gonna attempt to fight the gnosis. gd luck
den i shall read the bio dna n the physics test..when ar? haha

i hope gp presentation is not on mon. even if it is so wat. i dun care now. totally. i am free.

my bro is out partying the nite away. how shuang is tt. i also wanna go out lar. actually no one is gonna stop mi if i wanna cheong tonite. just tt i dun tink it is the right tink to do. lol. besides, cheong where? mountain? haha. i hope napfa pass faster. cos it is stressful. i really wan 28. if it is 27 i will be quite pissed. hiaz. i will just run the best i can. i plan to do 1 chem qn. n den read bio DNA. haha. unbelievable. dis wkend is quite slack actually.

the class is having a class party. been a long time since i hav said anything abt the class. ok there r 3 councillors..got 2 l or 1 l? my spelling lyk shit lar. tt y my gp sux. even tt fag thing said my spelling rots. haha. go to hell. anyway, kenny n kim is the ct rep..k&k haha. lotsa pple r sick everyday. i am the it rep. n i slack a lot. keep kenna screw by the maths teacher..."where is my it rep!!!" haha. always trying to spoil the ohp to stop lessons haha. the physics always touch touch. gay! but i tink he is quite nice. haha scary n freaky. lck totally ROX! screw gp. i dun wanna tok abt tt. bio, wan yuck complains lyk shit. i dun really give a damn. the real teacher coming back soon. die. got to do tutorials liao shit. pe mr tan n sha is damn nice. they always let us play games. tan is lyk total joker. damn funny! haha.

the people in class all veri pro. i am the suckest of the lot. i talk more. but mostly thrash. as usual. at founders day my old classmates all agree 4c is still better. i agree too. aint any bros to talk to. most of the guys r preoccupied wif girls. either tt or too upset by girls to tok a shit. plus dey betray u cos of girls. tt disgusting. where has all the yi qi gone? but u never noe u noe..when u get into shit u never noe who can save u. n i tell u it is ur bros tt will save ur ass n no tt girl u like. just lyk how ray saved mi frm the headmaster by bullshitting the eng teacher. thanx man. those were the days.

the days of soccer in class. eng shit. chinese corny lessons. stupid form teacher. soccer tournament. class chalet. stripping. bishan soccer. fights. climbing up to the roof. getting into trouble. prelims. changing everywhere n anywhere. too many to remember. too gd to forget.

i got thrashed up by a gnosis in xenosaga. total no contest. haha. i refuse to use the word boss cos it sounds so unpro plus it disgraces the game. haha. gnosis. how cool. for ur info all u south africans n austrians it is pronounced no-sis wifout the g. lol. i am crazy.

2day is how slack. haha. i a little gulity. got to do some work later. but now, is slacking time. screw gp. haha n judging frm the looks of it chem test is a no hoper. n ray got 21.5, which disgust mi. tt fag. kenna thrash. again. totally unaccecptable. i am gonna kill him upside down for tt. argh. wth. wtf. haha

maybe i made the right choice?

i am still DAMN PISSED for missing floorball. WTH!

wah lau. they say floorball was veri fun yester. shit! den nxt got rugby finals. no floorball. argh. but i quite lyk watching rugby owell. shant say anything more. oh hope dun hav yfc so can go watch rugby. praying. training was not veri tiring today. quite fun. the blisters r tearing up my leg. 2.4 on mon. i hope i can get a b. running is my weakest. dis sux. but 9.1 is quite pro. thrashed julian by 0.7s. hahaha.

gonna play ps2 for a while den go do tutorials. i hate gp. k bye.

argh. i still can believe i didnt play floorball. something seems lacking today. shit. man. thanx to blisters n holes everywhere. pain. pain. help. haha. i am gonna so die in training tomorrow. i hope i dun. actually i tink i wouldnt. haha. napfa ends on mon. so i shall start on mon. again. anyway, i foresee a quite good wkend. potentially sucky things would be gp rewrite. tt all. haha. common test is on wed. i am expecting the worst. but hoping for the best. tt all. haha. i am no pressure at all considering the person calling mi a retard. i refuse to call tt thing a teacher. lol. haha.

oh i still hav to write the proposal for ipw. it is abt 75% lar. but there r still some parts i dunno how to finish. i need some help. but i dun wanna bother the other members. shits. shall tink of something tomolo. aiyo. argh. nvm. but pw is quite a disgusting thing. cos they keep on one u to claim credit n to give evidence n the rest of tt crap. den everyone will seem embarrassed at writing stuff. lol. quite faggorty. haha.

i hav to do
pw proposal
chem tutorial 6...disgustingly hard. tink shall just do 2qn...haha
physics tutorial 9...first pg

shall enjoy the rest of tomorrow doing watever i lyk. haha. i hope the coach comes early. he always come late one. haha. but he is veri nice tho.

they just call saying they need a last man. haha. i feel so honoured!

first friday never play floorball. hiaz. thanx to the stupid feet. argh. pain. the chinese sch song composed by ken is how pro lar. haha. damn funny. whole class + lck laugh lyk siao. haha. shit lar. i long timen ever do proper pp n w liao. cos the past 3 wks veri crazy. hiaz. better start again nxt wk. today quite ok. but i feel super sian. n energentics is how hard. lck go thru the gas tutorial damn fast! at question 9 liao!!!! which means he onli left 1 qn n will do energetics. n i spend 2 hrs trying to do 4 questions but onli managed to do 2. sian si rite. n gonna fail gp liao. give up. expecting it anyway. haha. after tt went out to tok cock n buy stuff quite fun. haha. i was deciding which ice cream to buy den i went in to 7-11 to ask for price. 2 10 siao! so x. tt fag cashier rush to scan tt damn thing. but i refused to buy. haha! in the end settled for a macs ice cream cone which melted lyk crazy. haha

i stayed back to watch a gd show but he didnt happen. hiaz. shit leh. waste time. mugging at library was also waste time. also dunno how to do. haha. toking cock at canteen was the best. i pissed ray off! haha. who call him so pro. haha.

3 guys 1 girl n a vanilla bun. i will get killed wif he sees dis. but i dun tink he will c. haha. oh i 4got tthe ac guy. make tt 4! haha. just lyk a movie. y everyone so crazy?? haha.

chem tutorial 6
gp rewrite...i hate dis man. really. no amt of swearing can express my hatred. so i am not.
physics tutorial 9
bio DNA tutorial...i dun tink i will give a damn
maths tutorial 10b...i dun tink teach yet must c first.

the flesh is red n raw. pain. argh. sat got training. i hope it heals fast. dis n tt n tt n tt. sux. just sux. too many things sux. i am sian. tomorrow is friday. which is a sch day. dis sux.

yesterday was the best day dis year. today is one of the most fucked up. no mood to say how great yesterday was. but it was damn fun.

today is fucked up.

my feet is rotting.

Hitler is great. 88.

lck sorta screw the class a bit. the stupid bio teacher got her hair straighten rebonded watever u call it. n she complain the class all the time. how backstabbing. but kinda of used to it. there aint many nice teachers around anyway. btw, she looks lyk a dog drenched by the rain. n i saw someone reading a book called dog training for dummies today on the train. i am trying to type without looking at the keyboard quite pro. not bad. haha.

the mind is tired. the body is tired. the spirit is gone. but the job has to be done. and it will be done. and done well

i am on strike. not gonna do gp. i am so shag.

I don�t know who to trust, your surprise
Everything feel so far away from me
Have your thoughts sent through dust, and the lies
Trying not to break, but I�m so tired of this to see
Every time I try to make myself get back up on my feet
All I ever think about is this, all the time and time between
And how trying to put my trust in you just takes so much out of me

Take everything from the inside
And throw it all away
�Cause I swear for the last time
I won�t trust myself with you

Tension is building inside, steadily
You feel so far away from me
Have your thoughts forcing their way out of me

Trying not to break, but I�m so tired of this deceit
Every time I try to make myself get back up on my feet
All I ever think about is this, all the time and time between
And how trying to put my trust in you just takes so much out of me

Take everything from the inside
And throw it all away
Cause I swear for the last time
I won�t trust myself with you
I won�t waste myself on you!!!
You!!!
You!!!
Waste myself on you!!!
You!!!
You!!!

I�ll take everything from the inside
And throw it all away
�Cause I swear for the last time
I won�t trust myself with you
Everything from the inside
And throw it all away
�Cause I swear for the last time
I won�t trust myself with you
You
You
You

betrayal. tt the worst ting tt can happen. cardinal sin. on the topic of shallowness, hey i noe i am si bei shallow leh. no need to keep on reminding mi. btw, wats wrong wif being shallow? lit n religion n the other chim stuff like all those chim chim theory n principle i dunno so wat? cannot meh? i spk rotten english cannot meh? i am trash cannot meh??? cannot meh?? use chinese cannot meh? use dialect cannot meh?? no global outlook cannot meh? my life or ur life? my rite? rite or wrong. so i should be able to do wat i wanna do wif it. ok i am trash n crude n no character n no responsibility n no leadership n mug n bastard n watever. wait. i juat wanna say i mug wat is needed onli hor. extra stuff not really interested. haha. but den rite. i tok si bei a lot of yi qi. i will never ever ever ever betray my frens. never. n to mi, tt being a gd fren. call it blind trust if u wan. but i am happy putting trust blindly in pple if i tink it is worth it.

veri happy noe. got a pleasant surprise. n my name is of interest in a way i dunno.

wth. i hav to do gp rewrite. WTH! I JUST REMEMBERED! WTHHHH

just settled maths n gp compo test. haha. happy. but maths no more full marks. shit. too careless. argh. haha. compo i tink i op liao. shit. die haha. quite happy to pass. i tink i had a lot of info. but the ting came out quite incoherent. the outline didnt help much leh. actually instead of following the outline i tink i would be better of planning the essay my own way lor. but den. shit. done liao. my essay is a work made by a messy mind. the ideas were flying everywhere wif no coordination. hiaz. die liao. quite sad tt i didnt do my best. but den. all over. so i quite relieved.

should i go training after founders day? hmm. i want to go. but on the other hand i want to go out wif the ri gang. how. how. how. hiaz. shit. shit. shit. not going makes mi feel guilty. n it is not cos of the stupid pts. shit in a dilemma. argh. should i do the right ting. advice pls. n fencing hav a camp! i wonder wat r they gonna do. rugby camp last time was quite exciting. haha. shall decide later

my slping spot has been officially kopped. wth. nvm lar. hiaz

knee cracks a lot. k bye PS2 TIME!

it is one thing. i just had to write tt down. dunno y. but it is one thing to not understand mi n it is another to misunderstand mi. the latter being the more disgusting of the 2. wth. back to maths. n i hav to do gp tomolo. wth. wth. sch, really sux. dao is wat, wat is dao? wat talking u? dao is not talking. wah. confusing. haha

i hav completed 2 maths questions today. haha. gonna mug maths test later. but i reallie no mood to study. hiaz

haha got home early today. napfa was a breeze. veri please wif myself on course for 28 pts. let mi be ego haha. not as if anyone would write dis..here goes nothing...
pullup 10..effortlessly achieved
shuttle run..9.5 on 1st 9.1 on second. i tink might be able to go even faster if i turned better. but equal sec 4 timing so ok.
situp 50...wif lotsa of time 2 spare haha
standing board jump...245cm. used to be my proest item but now cant imrpove further. mi onli B
sit n reach...60 hahaha. i wonder if i beat the girls. must go ask. haha
2.4..havent take yet. thrus i tink

but napfa took up break too n as a result came for gp 20mins later n i cant stand tt teacher. haha. her dog included! haha. zm says maths test is chicken. so i am gonna slack more. haha. happy.

am searching for games to buy. I CONFIRM MUST BUY BY SAT. haha. so i can onli spend 20 dollars dis wk on other stuff cos games r 30 bucks haha. can lar. cos cant go fencing cos got founders day so i no need to anyhow spend on drinks n food etc. haha. i veri excited to go back to ri!!! can play astro soccer tok cock do a lot of fun stuff. i hope lotsa pple r going back!

maths test
gp re rewrite. boy am i pissed. but i too happy to be pissed. in fact i am too happy to mug maths too. wat zm said is another factor too. haha.

also, my third floor slping spot hav been stolen! i can 2 sch today needing to catch up on some slp n i saw a fag sitting at my favourite table at my favourite seat!! argh. there r quite a few pple there today! 3 in fact. tt a lot of mi. wth. where to stone!!!!!

was watching 2 women toking cock abt beauty pageants on tv. den there was dis tie xie. quite nice n dis 2002 muscis awards show. lol. i really si bei sian of sch. just feel veri sick. esp of maths now. loaded wif stuff i dunno. but i am too tired to complain abt tt.

i told them to try their very best. they dun seem to be listening to mi. maybe it wasnt for their gd. i tink i wanted them to do wat i didnt manage to do. n they say i hav made the wrong choice. again. even if i had, i will hav to make it right. but i personally dun tink so. or at least.

ec said tt i hav no life. haha. juz cos ray didnt want to go to a fag concert wif him n i didnt wan to be a fag stand in. haha. wats so fun abt concerts anyway? i will probably just stone the time away. not an artsy person. am i brute as most of the bros would say haha. i beg to differ. haha. btw, wat is life to u might not be life to mi. besides, i tink i do a lot of stuff tt u might not even noe. just look at tcb. he says he will kenna retain. but i tink he is damn happy. u call tt life? op. haha. but i tink being happy is all tt matters. at the very least, dun show tt u r unhappy cos sadness spreads. happiness however does not.

sch sux. 6 more hrs. slp liao. fag.

i am filled up to the brim wif shit. argh. sian. i hate sch.

hiaz...just tt barri never get 2nd. oh well schumi wins. again haha

my curse came thru. haha. just tuned into f1, n see montoya first. quite piss. so i said to myself his engine will die. n it did. but williams sux at reliability so too bad. n schumi just whacked kaikkonen's ass. haha. i am chao happy. flying german. it seems he had fire. too bad i didnt see. they say he is lucky. it is skill lar dick. ok but luck has been great for ferrari recently haha. bloody hell. he is really flying. si bei fast. not careful he take off. haha!!!. but kaikkonen is quite pro too. barrichello up to 3rd woahahha!

can someone tell mi wat is rude n wat is polite. haha

just settled gp. i noe y my marks so shit. cos i am stupid plus i anyhow do. tt y. but i really bu tahan lar. crappy. nvm. i tink got maths to mug. hope to squeeze in some gmaing time later.

tomolo is mon. sian. tues is sian cos of maths. wed is fun! got founder's day rehearsal!!! shit got to skip fencing but den i get to go back to ri!!! i tink can play soccer n cock about. RI SOME ROX SIA! never regretted going there. woah. haha. thurs sux cos got to do gp presentation...oh no...fri rox cos got floorball. sat rox too cos got fencing sun rox too cos no sch. haha

tomolo is napfa!!! so exciting!!! haha. 28.28.28. woah. i tink i just might be able to get 28 pts. all the way wahhahaha.

gd luck to schumi!

just had a nice conversation wif hc fren. hmm. tmd. back to mugging

hot hot hot day.

just found out i need to do gp current affairs.
too sian to mug maths
too sian to do gp rewrite.
shit

oh todays lunch was ice cream from macs. i am broke out man. totally no money. had ice cream for dinner yester too. n den came back n ate bowl noodles n watever leftovers i could find. wth. I AM SO BROKE. COME ROB MI. haha. if mama gets wind of dis, i am so dead. reallie. i tink i shouldnt be eating dis way. but den, no money. how? steal food lor or maybe fight wif the dog next door. haha.

btw, fencing is hounding mi for 15 dollars. tt pisses mi off. the treasurer give mi a fuck face today. i had to drain everything in my bag n wallet to prove tt i dun hav a cent on mi. cos she choose not to believe mi. i hate pple who dun believe mi. y on fucking world who i not pay if i hav the fucking money. n den after training she came n look for mi again. for money. hello, u tink i magic money while training is it. either she tinks i am a magician or she was a fucked up brain or she still tinks i am lying. wtf. u should hav seen tt face. tt fuck face. i gotta gd mind to give her 1500 1 cent coins. maybe i just hav ap. just lyk wat the maths teacher says.

oh speaking of tt maths teacher, she accounts for 4 of the 11 white slips. i tink my class is how zai. 11 in 2 wks sia. pro pro. seriously. i dun given a damn abt all the stupid moronic teachers who tink white slips can deter pple from doing wat they wan. tt stupid paper of paper might be ur ticket to a bullet. u noe???

change is the onli constant in life...i hav heard dis soo many times leh. everyone has an ulterior motive dun they. dun lie. u hav one, i hav one. everyone hav one. it just depends on how ulterior it is. rite or wrong?

i hav to do gp n mug maths test for dis wkend. hiaz. i really sux at gp. hiaz. stress.

i remember happy stuff today..

a red plastic bag(i tink) in front of the class room during oct when i was sec2 on the last day of eoy, lit paper i tink, while i was doing the paper, i kept on looking at tt bag

from 1999-2000, the right d nearer to astro turf wif pple running round the bend. wahh. those were happy times. i dunno y i suddenly remember.

i am puking frm maths. haha. chap 5-9 leh. siao man. napfa is on mon i tink, might pp cos of thermometers.

full moon night again. failed gp 14/50..worse den last time. i am veri worried now. shit. but tt is of no use. my ans r totally wrong lor. die liao lar.

physics test came back. ok. but can definitely get at least 28. miss A by 1m. thanx to stupid marking scheme. but den again. i tink i should get 28. nvm. i am not worried abt dis cos i noe tt aint no prob.

today kenna mass screw by ct. i tell u rite. i tink the class is letting lck down. he is damn nice lar. but den 11 white slips in 2wks. hiazz. n my hair got mi into trouble. so after sch went to cut wif ken. den tried to mug but failed miserably. hiaz bruised knee in floorball 2day pain. got training 2molo. but i am going no matter wat. den mug maths test. set. n do gp rewrite. juz drop the damn bag of ice. shall let evaporation clean up the mess. listening to a nice song now.

shall shower..cook noodles n mug maths. btw i skipped dinner again. broke. if mama knows dis, i am dead. hiaz. i tink i will fail in my first ambition, so i hav another one. n i tink i will gladly live my life tt way wif no regrets. live life to the fullest n may i die wifout regrets.
the harder u fall the higher u bounce. wat if u go thru the ground?

i say something, meaning it, den forgetting it, n regretting it. it is always lyk tt.

i am watching u

shit gp ct is coming. bo chap wth

i went on thinking tt today is race day n i was wondering whether i should watch. but hell. today is thursday. wat on faggorty world am i thinking. fag sia. room is in a total mess after 2 wks of stupid fag sch wif fag test. n i read something which proves my pt of view today. haha. "think" is a critical word u c. hehe. btw, a lot of pple enjoy mugging at capt cook. wth. very fun meh. i almost vomit blood sia. n den there were dis 2 kids applying for a job. dey looked far to young tho. n went to borders. tt place is quite crap. but the war section is not bad. n den went to white sands. went looking at boots n shoes. wah.. everything is so x. no money. haha. my shoes hav 3 holes which r growing bigger n bigger by the sec. shit. haha

went out. quite shuang. i took my most expensive bus ride to date. 2.05 dollars. haha. tomolo got sch leh. sian si. i spend quite a bit today. 35. i tink. haha. i shall starve tomolo. haha...floorball n maths test. tt all. but buy mgs2. i saw some ff posters at a comic shop today. haha. i gonna buy a few to paste hehe. napfa on mon. go gol gold. haha. tt nothing much actually. haha. but tt means i will miss floorball for pe. or at least tt wat mr tan say lar. shit. crap napfa.

btw had an agrument. lotsa yelling n stuff. n i swore my head off. as usual. hiaz. i dun tink i will change. n i will tqlis. woah. ok watever. i bought the cd. yeah.

ok day

mgs 3!!! argh! shitz i am so behind time. anyway. up n down. watever.

holiday. happy.

wtf. bio test is chao sian. i dieded. i thought it was easy, den come out found out tt i got quite a lot of mistakes lar. fag. upon 45. do until i siao man. minus at least 7 plus liao shit. but i tink can pass. actually i tink if got mug properly should be quite easy. haha. nvm
can minus 13 marks. lyk yfc

but i am in sch now n am chao happy cos no test liao n tomolo i can slack lyk fag. training gonna start soon. in abt 1 hr time. i hope the coach comes in the afternoon. tt leaves the night to hunt for the cd. i bet it is available at hmv lor. but dun wanna go so far. i wonder if there r shops near here. maybe can buy game. haha.

"computer games of any type and viewing of computer game catalogues or sites are not allowed" pasted on the fag monitor. tt means porn can lar. haha. wat is so faggorty bad abt computer games. idiotic.

math test next wk n maths tutorial...haha. i got one wk to do. haha. chao slack.!

would u go look someone up? someone u havnt bothered for days n weeks n months or maybe even years? just cos u hav something u need help in. tt quite disgusting aint it? i hate dis type of pple n sadly i seem to be surrounded by many a such of dis pple. frankly, i would never look someone up just cos i need their help. i much rather solve watever prob myself. but tt mi i guess. lotsa of pple dun work tt way. maybe it is weird but den again, making use of pple sux. it sux a great deal. oh but relationships r usually built on needs. so tt a fact i guess. almost half the yr has gone. time really flies. tt old. but tt true. the resolutions r fading away. so hav been reached. others never. maybe i didnt try hard enough? but wats the use of pushing so hard. but some i am trying quite hard to reach. yeah. it is just for satisfaction. maybe. i tink it is. just to porve to myself a pt. but if u dun succeed in the end den tt will be quite sad. so y try in the first place. but if u dun try dden u dunno if u can. wah. dis is going in circles. maybe should just hope for the best n expect the worst. been thru tt b4 so tt nothng much really. it must been the letter. darn tt letter. nvm. tt a lie.

oh well back to bio. 2molo after training i shall go hunt out the fricking cd. thrus shall go out. fri hopefully yfc is settled. hopefully. or else kenna screw.

bye back to bio.

correctly answered 70 out of 82 total questions or 85.4% correct

i quite satisfied. should be higher but considering how much i hate bio, quite shuang liao. haha

someone just kenna murdered near my house. abt 400m away. i tink block 418. the world is getting scarier

i hope starting frm 2molo, which is wed...everything will be nicer

rite now, it sux

15+30+360..=405..wtf.

fuck lar. y is everything on wed? 21st n 28 n 3rd must go stupid rehearsal. 2 more trainings down the drain. but founders day is at suntec dis yr. how cool. but get prize must rehearsal so many times for wat. i much rather go training. i miss 4 in all due to yfc. disgusting.

n i got fucking caught for eating in lt. white slip. fuck lar. some boy jump n blamed his chinese teacher. if i were him, i would hav shot the teacher n every other teacher in sch b4 jumping.

bio is also fucking a lot. fuck. i am gonna fucking fail.

wat a total fuck up wk. the last wk was fucked up too. n next wk got MATH TEST! i just hope to get rid of bio n den relax a while on thurs. got to lan or cycle or something.

last post for today b4 i go cheong bio. principal said dance nite was veri gd. was it? dunno i was at indoor gym playing floorball. but i remembered wat sincostan say. wayang. hahaha.

CHEONG BIO. BYEBYE HAHA

ohoh today kenna screwed by gp teacher n maths teacher. not mi onli thankfully. the whole class. onli lck never screw. ok he did too. a little abt 7 white slips the class got for attire check. n he told mi to go get haircut. haha. 7 sia. si bei pro. to tell u the truth, i found it amusing. lyk. who cool is tt. muahahah. no one gives a damn. tt the attitude man. i tink lck also bo chap lar. just tt he is ct. tt y he hav to care sometimes. haha

remind mi to ask abt yfc on wed. i dun hav my specs now. at the shop waiting for them to come back. when they r back i hav to mug cell bio n membrane. commit everything to my pathetic little brain. not tt i hav any to begin wif. haha

ok. some pple are quite nice.

just took a damn long personality disorder test. omg...i dun hav a freaking low. it adds to my conclusion tt i am so how damn screwed up. but den again, i dun really trust dis. haha. but some r weirdly quite accurate. watever. in any case i still hav bio to mug.

Disorder Rating
Paranoid: Very High
Schizoid: Moderate
Schizotypal: High
Antisocial: High
Borderline: Moderate
Histrionic: Very High
Narcissistic: Very High
Avoidant: High
Dependent: Moderate
Obsessive-Compulsive: High

http://www.4degreez.com/misc/personality_disorder_test.mv

wtf. bananas. wtf. who cares?!?!?!

wt chicken. bio is disgustingly a lot n sian. half way thru cell bio n i hav used 2 hrs on it. n it is onli a read thru. omg. tonite cant slp liao. wah piang.

cell bio
membranes today

enzyme n microscopy tomolo. wat the hell...die...how?

chem test ok. but made some stupid mistake. cos i did too slowly. den had to rush. could not tink st. haha. hope for an A. but not really satisfied. can do better.

cd is sold out. unbelievable. had to go somewhere else to get. n it is not even for mi. haha

pe play floorball. played ok. quite shuang. mr tan is getter nicer n nicer. dunno y. tomolo hav pe also. haha

i hav to do gp rewrite. wth. quite sick of dis shit liao. plus got bio test to mug.

bz day. exciting. at least chem is out of the way. haha. gonna cheong bye

stressed. too stressed. tomolo will sux. tues will sux. wed will sux less. thrus rox. fri i like. but i still it might sux. hopefully not.

wo shou gou le

die liao..confirm plus guarantee kenna screw. worrying wouldnt help matters. but i am screwed. so i hav to be thick skin n beg pple to help mi. wth.

i hav to do gp qn 8
mug chem test
mug bio test
yfc
pp...oh gosh.

and make specs. wth. i can go ask my mentor. or i can ask ql. but i dun feel lyk asking both. shit. but i must ask rite. or i will die. i hate asking. damn. watever. to make this seemingly chaotic situation clearer, i shall try write it out.

1.
even though gp suxs lyk shit n no matter how many rewrites i still die i hav to do it so tt i can pass up tomolo. besides it is onli one qn. i shall call zm for help.

2.
chem test is tomolo. i tink i shall just read thru everything. i am quite sick of it. plus i dun tink i will die. hoping for an A

3.
bio is on tues. so i can slack a bit on dis. i shall cheong bio on mon n tues. should be able to settle it. shall try finishing microscopy tonite to lessen load on mon n tues.

4.
yfc. i shall call everyday to make sure tt i noe when i am flying. i tink earliest should be fri. but better be safe den sorry. hope to ask pple b4 mi how is it. n i shall mug it on wed n thurs since wed no evening training for fencing i tink n thurs is free. i shall make specs on mon.

5.
pp must c hav time a not. anyway i did it yesterday so not so urgent.

i am gonna print dis out. i feel more organized now.

i cant stand gp any longer. wth. n i hav bio n chem test. wth.

wth wth wth. i quite the bu shuang now. slept just now. too shag. wth

still hav to do the gp shit.
still hav to mug for 2 test. shitz.

i just wish my mama happy mama's day. shall buy her a cd. i plan to mug some bio n do 2 gp compre question. i cant stand the teacher. was talking to zm on thurs. said something to the tune of expecting sacrifices. n talked abt a really funny topic. how much should u change urself to make frens. tt how cool. i was telling him tt if u change to make frens tt kinda fake rite? tt not even you n tt just proves tt pple lyk pple who fits their bill. n tt is how sad. haha. but being gandhi, he had a lot of da dao li to tell mi. we dun call him gandhi for no reason. haha. but i still tink i am correct. shouldnt change too much. tt disgusting. haha.

i am si bei busy. shall cheong. argh. bye. n i simply love my title. it is short sweet n way way cool. argh. ahah

wat the chicken man. i am chao tired. just came back from 8 hrs of yfc. 8 lar!!! excluding transport time. n as usual kenna screwed. haha. bo chap lar. the exam i think should pass. made a few mistakes but i can make a max of 13 wat rite. haha. the drop out rate for yfc is 80% sia. n all my mentors tell mi to take 1 cca. which means quiting fencing. never. haha. wat if i quite fencing n i kenna phase out. i will be totally screwed. plus i bought the equipment liao n i quite like fencing. i will try coping wif both or die trying. haha. but for the past few days really damn shag. sleep so early. wah lan. but really damn tired n drained. hiaz.

yesterday...

lessons were ok. my teacher say my grp the pw not veri pro. but personally i tink my grp is lyk quite fun lar, so i dun really care. lessons ok lar. nothing much. except must mug for test and got hw. AND I HAV TO FRIGGIN HELL SEE THE FRIGGIN GP TEACHER FOR FRIGGIN WRITING RUBBISH FOR COMPRE. tt ass actually wrote wat rubbish on my paper. thanks. i dun give a damn. after sch went to watch vball. it was quite interesting. fulfilled my sort of promise. haha. really. it was quite interesting. but the idoitc 156 bustop is so darn far away. i meet a pri sch mate who is now in tpjc. pai seh. couldnt recognize her. hahaha. i said...should i noe u. hahaha. wah piang. quite sia suay. li hui. watever. but i tink she change a lot. haha. after tt i went back to sch to play floorball lar. ray is super zai. i played like a fag as usual. gonna go on fri to redeem myself. but i dunno if it will clash wif yfc. shitz. BTW...i tink i passed. so I START FLYING A FRIGGIN PLANE NEXT WK. WAT THE HELL. i am si bei excited. but den confirm kenna screwed. i forgot the reporting procedures. shit must go ask someone. i actually wanted to make friday a floorball day. but now. shit lar. i much rather skip gp on tues to fly n play on fri. wth. nvm. i hope to get ppl.

i hav to..
mug chem test
mug bio test
rewrite gp compre
physics tutorial 9
maths tutorial 10a

i am si bei busy recently. everyday got stuff to do. hiaz. but i quite like dis type of life. no time to think abt the nonsense i usually tink. k bye. got to cheong. GD LUCK TO MYSELF.....HAHA

2day is quite shuang. i slpe at 10 last nite. super tired. but den today i slept in chem lect too. wah lan. disgusting. my fren ask mi to pay more attention in lect. it will do mi gd. i guess so lar. i always day dream in lect shit. frm tomolo i shall pay attention in lect.

anyway, today civics was ok. got my chem test. nto bad. physics prac had to do the stupid catapult. waste time. boring. time was running out. tempers flared. kao bei kao bei. stupid. lame. maths lect was chim. shall go read the formula once i hav the time. math tutorial ken kena screwed lyk siao lar. i mean really lyk siao. haha. i hav to copy chem lect notes. shitz. gp passed amazingly fast. n pe, the class kena whipped in handball again. handball seriously is not my class forte. haha. thye r quite pro in bball though. haha. den i waited for 1/2hr for zm. haha. we chaoz together n i asked him if he wanna stone at my house. he actually agreed. but den we decided to cheong macs to mug n eat. but his sis call n kao bei. n his sis is si bei terrifying. wah piang. scary sia. ended up in compass pt bk n mugged n eat. quite pro. i did bio n chem prac n copied bio notes in lyk 2.5 hrs! ok lar. quite not bad. half way there was dis woman wif 3 kids. oldest is p1. she is illiterate n poor. can tell. ask mi to help check maths. i tell u tt boy is in some serious shit. he doesnt know how to minus n he cant understand the question. his mum cant understand english. so i spend some time teaching him how to minus. i hope he gets it. he is in 1/Hope. hiaz. tan something. didnt catch his name. gd luck. i feel quite disturbed. zm n i talked a lot of stuff today. i wunt use crap cos they aint crap. talked abt stuff tt i wanted to know too. it was quite nice hanging together. compass pt is seriously quite big. quite nice. n i found out 89 can take also. never knew tt. how loseristic. haha

wat is the moon between half n crescent? remind mi to go ask astro pple. still hav to mug yfc n shower n pack bag. i tink i hav lost my spec case. wth.

busy bye.

sad sad day. i tink it might repeat itself. but i cant afford to let tt happen u noe a not. tt y, i am gonna cheong liao. but wat if cant cheong over? plus i hav a quite a bit of stuff to do. hiaz. bye bye.

go on n on n on n on. life is simply so exciting.

A STUPID ANT IN CRAWLING IN N OUT OF MY $880 LCD MONITOR.....WTH!

was complaining to someone. haha. how lame. shall quit thinking of it. shall go shower n den mug for yfc. ah man. life sux. shall stop the whining. i drank coffee. lots of it just now. coffee dun hav must effect on mi leh. i still dun feel energetic. but hopefully i dun fall asleep too soon. today going OT. haha. shall hav to sit down n mug tt stupid yfc shitz. wah lau. wanna flying lar not mug. dick.

oh. btw. dick called mi 7 times in the morning cos he never lock his phone. i was preparing to kill him. haha. but i didnt. in the morning somemore. haha. btw i found out the last train i can take. at 6 40. haha. shiok man. btw hav u ever noticed tt last means at the veri end of something but lastest can mean the first....haha. wat crap

mr zm having syf tomolo gd luck. i womder how is syf lyk. i never been to one. but i not veri musically inclined so too bad. go also dunno how to listen. haha. oh n he told mi tt his teacher pull out some string frm a girls blouse or something. dunno wat he talking. but she did tt in the canteen n she cried. wah kao. ok, according to him, it was damn super ultra humiliating. hiaz. as i hav said b4, teachers ah. spare a thought for students lar. 1. one day they might exact revenge on u. 2. a nut case might kill u if gun laws werent tt strict here. but they aint tt strict rite. haha. go fig. better go shower b4 my mum comes in n kills mi.

i tink mama's day is coming soon. i tink.

i suddenly hav to urge to play ps2.

i wanna finish xenosaga n start ffx soon hehe.
must buy metal gear solid 2:substance, but sons of liberty sounds much cooler rite.

speaking of cool, they tok cock abt cool in gp today. wat cock. cool is when u r doing wat u lyk when u lyk. tt cool. crappy. they say being vulgar is not cool tho. n the things pple do dis days r disgusting. oh but ther ending part of the show where they show how ironic stuff can be is super cool! haha. cos i was tinkinh abt wat the crap pple say in all those gp lessons. go figure. haha.

wth. i just wanna enjoy the plot of xenosaga. byebye

wah lau. physics is a disappointment. it wasnt as smooth sailing as i expected it to be. but actually know everything except one careless mistake. should get a gd score. hoping 24 at least. but i tink should hav been higher. should not hav make tt stupid mistake. n i just wrote the ans for a 3 mark question! can u believe it. a one liner for 3 marks. it is correct though. i did draw a pathetic little diagram at the side, but tt was only rough working. haha. i thot the question was very st forward. so i give just the ans. partly cos i wanted to go back n do the other qn. but den. due to the careless mistake, could not get the ans. plus i did not elaborate on my working on the 3 mark qn. haha. damn it. rats. i am pissed. at the same time, i am amused at tt i actually onli wrote the ans. wth. i am so screwed. pissed. haha.

today is quite ok tho. i got 35 for gp compo rewrite. down by 2 marks. wat nonsense. might as else not write at all!!!! btw, ray is si bei mug. haha. ok.

i hav to...
mug for yfc
sign giro form!!!
mug chem
mug bio
do pp

no time to waste. hiaz.

today is how suay.

forgot all abt the giro form lar. never pass up today. the teacher eye mi while i was explaining. shit. den i 4get to ask my father to sign b4 he go to work lar. n now i hav the form but no signature. die liao. kenna screw tomolo. I HOP HE FORGETS. yar rite. shit lar. wah piang. i am damn pissed. wth

physics is damn difficult too. wth. gonna f. but i really dun care cos i am more occupied by the fact tt i hav a signatureless giro form. i am tinking of excuses. maybe i should just sms my teacher now n tell him. say lyk, my dad not home lar. or should i wait til tomolo. wah piang. wth wth.

chao unlucky day, wah lan.

1. head hurts lyk shit
2. lost pen
3. lost mechanical pencil
4. shoes hav 4 holes
5. cuts all over palm
6. gp lesson 1hr long
7. gp lesson extended by 1.5hrs for compre test
8. falied compre test
9. got damn a lot of test 4 in all.

seige mentality. how exciting. gonna mug for physics. hope i do well. yfc exam n do w. tt all. but. haha i found my mechanical pencil. ok off to my plan bye

lalalalala...tt is so gay. but but but schumi won. hahaha. back to back victories. i told u to watch out for the f2003-ga. hahaha. but alonso is chao pro. considering the piece of crap he is driving. rubens is a disappointment. how come not 2nd. hiaz. mclaren died haha
renault is getting damn pro. better not get too pro u suckers. or else. haha

happy. slacking is so shuang man

terrible. money can probably solve it. spent 50 liao. 49.90 to be exact. but still not solved. wth. i am pissed. 400 would solve it just fine. but i dun wanna spend so much. n i am pissed off cos i am being made use of. again. feel lyk just putting tt person off. is it mi being selfish. but come on lar. no brain meh? cant think yourself? hey, i never bothered u wot. actually, i dun even need to. besides, i hate bothering other pple. n i much expect the same frm u. give mi some money n i might reconsider. no. in fact, i dun even want u to disturb mi. screw off. tt being said, i dunno if tt person will noe how to start. 4got, shant waste time on idiots.

was mugging the yfc stuff. tired sia. got a lot of stuff to mug. but den the guy onli went thru a bit. so i guess i will focus more on wat he brought up. esp those tt he said was impt. i hope to ace it. hehe. n i was tinking abt going for physics tuition so tt i dun need to study myself. haha. but i dun want those stupid tuition where they teach again. wat i want is a teacher for lyk 2 hrs n let mi ask all the qn i want to ask. haha. tt will be chao shuang. n pls. give gd ans can. haha. but tt cant be happening. but mark wee is damn pro. haha.

i saw poor pple on the news today. i feel quite sad for dem.

i tink i am slacking today. tt a first in a few wks. watever. dis few days hav been quite terrible. shit

nothing to say except wtf. cos day is getting fucked up.

omg. i realised i havent use fuck for a long time. wtf.

shit pissed. n dissed

the guy at yfc is terrible. ap. terrible. n he kop lunch break so i had no lunch n tt fag said dun faint on mi. but on the bright side, yfc ended at 2 instead of 4. haha. but still, i tink fencing would be more fun. haha. went home wif my pri sch fren. haha. quite fun. n they were toking abt all the shit today which everyone noe except mi. wth. anyway exam is on sat. hav to get 70% to pass. i will mug thru out dis wk. hiaz sian si

feeling veri sleepy. argh. crap. hav alreadi plan out wat today u day on paper. haha. oh bother. i hav physics test on tues. dis sux. n gp common test is terrifying. ARGHHHHHHH. i dun wanna take. i wanna cry. dun wanna lar. shit. as if i cant dun take. i tink i will shower n go slp a while. cant tahan.

bye

i hav to
pack bag
wait for call
find out some stuff

might try mugging a little. haha

today is eventful.

woke up at 6 after slping 4 hrs. it was raining so instead of walking, i took a bus to mrt. but den i missed 2 buses. cos i walked really slowly. i was damn shag. haha. i saw the bus go by. could hav caught it if i wanted to but. haha. waited dem long. n took a damn late train. reach sch just in time. next time i tink i can slp even later. haha

sch was ok. but i got work for pw. the teacher walking abt was freaky. u noe the girl i said was damn hyper. she is some sort of leader of the grp lar. cos she coordinates all the stuff. i tink tt gd lar. at least someone is steering the grp in the right direction. or else we would be screwed. n since it is an exam thingy, i dun tink i wanna be screwed. haha. yup, she is quite pro lar. so at least i wouldnt die. haha. i tink tt quite selfish rite. haha

ended up not watching the soccer match. it was stupid. i wanted to go after sch wif ken. he refused n suggest go library first. since no one was willing to go wif mi i went to library to do hw. den in library he wanted to go. but i couldnt do a sum. so i was pissed n didnt wanna go. den 10 mins later, i solved it n i ask him to go. den he dun want. n in the end never go. wth. hate it lar. so i went to do pp played soccer n watch magic. haha. shit lar.

floorball was fun. but i am tired now. something happened n i was quite freaked out. said sorry twice. hiaz. i tink i am a bastard. nvm tt. so playing was cool. for tt 2 hrs plus, i forgot everything. thought of wining n playing onli. yup. not a single other foreign thought got into my mind. it was lyk being free for 2 hrs. i lyk tt. abt to go home tt time, i saw the gp teacher. i ran man. scary. haha. i heard a lot of cheering. they were having the camp thingy. i wonder wat r they suppose to learn? haha. i tink it is the sorta ting i dun lyk.

anyway, tomolo got yfc. sian lar. 8-4! i much rather go fencing. tho fencing is physically 100 times more tiring den yfc. but 1. it is onli 2 hrs or 3 hrs long. 2. got new coach i wanna c his face. 3. i got more frens there. 4. it is more fun. 5. i lyk it more too. 6. the coach cant be as fierce as the yfc person! but den. yfc is compulsory. anyway prob last morning yfc. but all the other yfc stuff is sat afternoon. shit lar. tt means i hav to cheong down to seletar immediately after fencing. clash lyk shit. I AM DAMN PISS. i wanna go both leh! shit lar. fag. will c how it goes.

an overall quite ok day

wth am i doing. oh man. i will be so shag today. wth. i just had an early breakfast. omg. i am seriously screwed. haha. i still am pondering whether to go to watch the match. should i? i would if there is someone going wif mi n if i feel ok. but i told them i would be going liao. i shouldnt back out rite. maybe they dun even give a damn. i will c how it goes. rite now i need slp. but i aint tired. shitz. i am gonna be so dead. tomolo hav pw. wah piang. the teacher chose the grp. my grp is quite ok. but tt is dis girl. super ultra duper watever not hyper. wat drives her. omg. haha. i remember in xenogears there is dis thing called drive. haha. its a steroid. alters the personality. haha. watever crap.

yesterday something interesting happened. i was asking pple to go wif mi to watch the match n dis girl thought tt it was a real match in a stadium n got really excited. i asked her y. she said she wanted to go so tt she can use all the swear words she had just learnt. omg. pple dis days. haha. i dun tink girls should swear a whole lot. but tt just mi. n for all i noe, times might hav changed. oh well. i better go slp now

i am quite afraid of getting sars.

i hav just read something insanely stupid n received the stupidest email of my life. pple dis days r stupid. not tt werent b4. but it seems to be a worsening condition. u c stupid pple everywhere, doing stupid things, thinking of stupid things, saying stupid things, n thinking other pple r stupid. how stupid. plus by being so stupid, they hurt pple. mi included. dis is so stupid.

i suddenly feel lyk a loser. i little sad, little confused, a little pathetic. got to do wif wat i hav been reading. n maybe a little wif being home alone. maybe it is cos of all the quietness. quietness has saddness. i am still waiting. hiaz. it seems, history is repeating itself. omg. tt real bad. i hope it doesnt. if it does, i am real jinx. oh well. watever. i am toking nonsense again. my frens say i tok too much thrash. but wat i tell dem is happy thrash. not the thrash i tell to myself. crap.

wth. i did physics just now. i am quite sick of myself n physics. i shall torture myself later. but tt a job. so i dun hav a choice. bye.