wow.......i tink they r gonna make a sequel to ff 7.........wow......i AM GOING CRAZY WIF EXCITMENT.......ff7 was the game i spent the most hours on.......suddenly remind myself of how mcuh xenosaga sux....i dun really lyk it....but i tink i will finish it to satisfy myself......and probably by the sequel too.......but it really has ruin the xenogears story.....i tink only squaresoft makes gd rpg......n konami for mgs...but mgs2 sux....a bit......hiazzz........SQUARE N FF ROCKS.......haha

i wanna play ff7 sequel.......darn cant read the damn jap.........maybe i should get someone to help mi......hmmmmmm

getting slacker by the moment.......just chatted wif the ultra genius matthew.....i wonder if he needs to mug at all......haha.....how is it to be so pro......hmmm....i will never noe.....hahah..but tt besides the pt.......i am just feeling happy today despite being a screw up.......sleep at 12 noon.......who does tt.....haha

anyway it is amazing how u can look at something and not understand it and a day later look at the same thing again n go ahhhh.....yes.......ahhaah......tt just happened to mi......

i hope tt will happen more often.......wow......

time to rethink.....

still got photosynthesis to go....did bio respiration mcq.....amazing....first tutorial in ages....haha i tink i must go study physics definitions too....havent touch tt for a long time.......after tt all forget liao FUCK IT.....haha bye!

todays training session was crap...tired n fag.....noticed still a big big big big gulf between me and the pros...hiazz when can i shorten it.....i must consider tt when i have the time.....den worst still......to increase my spd i am thrashing up my posture......must really push myself after the promos...i promise.

on another note......i hav to see pereira and gp essay rewrite.....FUCK.....
n i should be a more careful mugger.......k bye

respiration
physics 2002
try questions for interference
chem 2002 sect b
organic + tutorial

i am positively crazy...nvm tt......
decided on wat to do after promos.......the day after bio tt is.......the whole great gang of us will go eat n eat n eat and hopfully stayover at my house playing the darn under utilized ps2....a break frm the traditional soccer n soccer and lan lan lan until dead tired.......hmmm.....exciting

todays floorball was terrible......haha

n i hate treacherous bastards.......i am gonna kill all of them

after promos i will just fuck myself silly.......haha.....

17 more days.......i tink i am really lucky to get a gd pw grp.....thank god....

trng tomolo well done........fag.....

i feel lk a damn big ultra bastard....i tink i am degrading.....as usual all my life.......fuck crap.....

training was ok.......tho i just switch off half way thru the last bout.......dunno why.........cock lar......must imrpove mental concentration........ok on the whole.......i tink i can win more......

going to mug......bye bye........got fucked a bit......haha........FUCK OFF hahahah

bye shit man.........

shit lar tomolo coach will screw mi alive fuck it.it is 5.10.should i go training..NO fuck u thanks.......

gonna do work slack n watch tv.......n pon oct training for the first 2 wks............shit....cant degrade any further rite.....fuck...u better not forget wat happened last time u moron...............bastard........wake up ur idea thanks.....

die liao.......damn fucking scared......my writing style really so cock meh? crap haha

terrible bio
terrible day
terrible choice....

how terrible.....damn it......a miscalculation...shitty...promos is in 24 days....shit i must mug enzymes n membrane 2 nite.......

n i want the past yr papers hurry n return them to mi!!!!! argh

slipper sandals day tomolo fuck sch.......in fact.....fuck everyone at sch.....

something interesting.......was complaining to pple about how fuck sch was......so i said in chinese.......wo yao jie shu....which means i am gonna end it.....n the pple i was talking to thought i was gonna kill myself...hahaah.....how lame......wat i meant was to blow sch up wif all the people n teachers......why cant pple think differently sometimes.......crappy......haha.....k bye.......BIO BECKONS

i bought a physics text for 17.90......how ex.....damn it.....shall read it for leisure........hehe....

going nuts.......fuck
going to study bio for the first time....gd luck
going training tomorrow......nuts and fuck

cut my hair liao......wasted an hour....i tink i am dead meat

the ps2 is rotting away fuck

bye

oh i tink quite a feel pple treat mi rather nicely....some dun....but lots do......but i am nasty to most of them....hahaha

damn it........i still havent got down to mugging bio yet n still havent buy my books yet.....apart from tt today is moms birthday...so happy bday to her......n the night will be burnt cos going out for dinner tt means no bio today again....

sometimes the most obvoius things are the things tt u miss....how cliche but happened to mi today......bloody hell.......

newcastle drew fuck........schumi is on pole great....time to wrap up the championship hahahaha.......

i did chem energetics questions, read solubility equilibria, did tutorial qn, did 3d trigo

i still hav to do waves tutorial n ex, maths paper, chem tys, BIO....fuck....but i am happy.....i love mugging.....it is great fun......

no fencing for one 2 days straight.....i am really happy...a bit sick of it liao......i cant stand the sight of clementi.....yucks.....but i wanna go buy textbks there hehe......

i dunno y the world is so unfair..........i tell u the pple i see succeed these days are the pple i hate.....n the pple i see succeeding in the future are the pple i hate now. the things they do are damn disgusting

i am slacking about quite a bit today cos i am freer than other days.the past wk has been crazy....training on tues on thrus on friday twice n on sat........i did say i tink he hates mi n keep picking on mi rite....i tink so.but i dun fuck care.....never mind cos i am such a bastard anyway.haha.....so i tink i should be slacking now but den i am whihc shows tt i hav quite a bit of time aint i or maybe it is cos i dunno wat is impt..i tink haha.i tink studying in the national library is quite nice...but the fucking place lcosed at 4 today fuck.........i dun actually mug........i tink u cant learn stuff outside....i do problems n stuff n it is quite quiet n i wouldnt muck abt......

did some maths physics n chem questions sick of studying the notes......i tink they r useless i shall adopt a do and refer approach.........since i tink i noe the gist of stuff pretty ok....n try expose myself to the standard questions n the special ones too......fuck it.......

saw cj at the library.tt crazy dick.........haha........i still havent touch bio..........i should be mugging now....wat the fuck i am really fucked plus how do u fucking study for gp hahahaha

hey i tink i shouldnt be stingy n buy some bks........would lyk to get a physics textbk or 2......n the tyss from redspot yearly ones wif all the nice answers i love dem haha.........n i just realised the chem dept takes a lot of questions from the tys..........cheaters but the tys is quite high standard...not bad at all.....a happy day today.....

i shall go make phyiscs n bio notes later............i shouldnt hav taken bio FUCK waste my life.........

i need a haircut badly.....but i dun wanna waste time but i am now fuck fuck fuck i am a fucker fucker haha..it is getting damn damn bloody irritating.........DAMN IT HHAAHAHHAHAHAHAH

i tink he hates mi...

i tink i shall write a bit b4 i go back to mugging....ps i havent touch bio when i am suppose to do some 5 days ago...32 days to promos.....fuck...no it is 31 fuck more...

i hav been thinking the reason y i am so stressed.....it is cos of mugging......i really wanna do well u noe.....as in to satisfy myself.....i hate feeling stupid...i noe i am quite dumb.....so tt means i hav to work extra hard....i tink it is no gd thinking this way.....ok i am damn fucking smart.....haha.....yeah man.....i am damn fucking smart.......so i hav to get the results to prove to myself tt i am damn fucking smart.......haha.....how twisted.....i read abt the article in the yfc mag......when was the last time i typed these words......haha long time........anyway, my instructor wrote an article abt the learning attitudes of students n the kinds of students.....it was a v gd article.....but i chucked it in the bin after reading it.....i got a feeling he was writing to mi.....but i dun tink i am such a big deal to warrent an essay.....haha....

i am desperated........i hav waited too long.....denied my place.....where tt those words come frm.....from ffviii i tink.....anyway........yes......i hav been waiting.....n if i dun take this chance i will fail......but i am not gonna scarifice u too....i am gonna do my best to keep u....i promise....



a loner fighting a lone battle....with no one

10th grade

As I sat there in English class, I stared at the girl next to me. She
was my so called "best friend". I stared at her long, silky hair, and wished she was mine. But she didn't notice me like that, and I knew it. After class, she walked up to me and asked me for the notes she had missed the day before and handed them to her. She said "thanks" and gave me a kiss on the cheek. I wanted to tell her, I want her to know that I don't want to be just friends, I love her but I'm just too shy, and I don't know why.

11th grade

The phone rang. On the other end, it was her. She was in tears, mumbling on and on about how her love had broke her heart. She asked me to come over because she didn't want to be alone, so I did. As I sat next to her on the sofa, I stared at her soft eyes, wishing she was mine. After 2 hours, one Drew Barrymore movie, and three bags of chips, she decided to go to sleep. She
looked at me, said "thanks" and gave me a kiss on the cheek. I want to tell her, I want her to know that I don't want to be just friends, I love her but I'm just too shy, and I don't know why.

Senior year

The day before prom she walked to my locker. "My date is sick" she said; he's not going to go well, I didn't have a date, and in 7th grade, we made a promise that if neither of us had dates, we would go together just as "best friends". So we did. Prom night, after everything was over, I was standing at her front door step! I stared at her as she smiled at me and stared at me with her crystal eyes. I want her to be mine, but she isn't think of me like that, and I know it. Then she said "I had the best time, thanks!" and gave me a kiss on the cheek. I want to tell her, I want her to know that I don't want to be just friends, I love her but I'm just too shy, and I don't know why.

Graduation Day

A day passed, then a week, then a month. Before I could blink, it was graduation day. I watched as her perfect body floated like an angel up on stage to get her diploma. I wanted her to be mine, but she didn't notice me like that, and I knew it. Before everyone went home, she came to me in her smock and hat, and cried as I hugged her. Then she lifted her head from my shoulder and said, "you're my best friend, thanks" and gave me a kiss on the cheek. I want to tell her, I want her to know that I don't want to be just friends, I love her but I'm just too shy, and I don't know why.

A Few Years Later

Now I sit in the pews of the church. That girl is getting married now. I watched her say "I do" and drive off to her new life, married to another man. I wanted her to be mine, but she didn`t see me like that, and I knew it. But before she drove away, she came to me and said "you came!". She said "thanks" and kissed me on the cheek. I want to tell her, I want her to know that I don't want to be just friends, I love her but I'm just too shy, and I don't know why.

Funeral

Years passed, I looked down at the coffin of a girl who used to be my "best friend". At the service, they read a diary entry she had wrote in her high school years. This is what it read:
I stare at him wishing he was mine, but he doesn't notice me like that, and I know it. I want to tell him, I want him to know that I don't want to be just friends, I love him but I'm just too shy, and I don't know why. I wish he would tell me he loved me!
I wish I did too... I thought to myself, and I cried.

realised tt b4 this.......i was blogging every single day for since ever...no one to....

just popping in....really dun wanna write much cos there isnt anything worth talking abt now......i am damn stressed......mugging but still dunno every sum i do.....shit......

i had my best training yester nite in many many days......i hav training tomolo.....i dun wanna die.....help mi.....if u can...

the second reason why i dun wanna write is cos i dun wanna be hooked n waste time doing something unproductive......i need all the time i hav......the hols aint hols.....can someone see that i am breaking up.......can u? no u can........

shit i hav written quite a bit......til nxt time......bye

lotsa stuff happening......said not to but i did only for a while........i am moving house

using broadband.........haha
screwed up days fuck....i am taking 50 days leave........bye.........fuck my life