hopefully everything goes well tomolo...hiazz....kill it....den thrus physcis fri bio....mati...mati..confirm die......den FREE....rox man......haha.....bye bye....wat a boring day.....
Monday, June 30, 2003
sian sian sian.....drifting in n out of slp....shall mug physics n chem....n when i turn on the com at 4...hopefully yfc too....tts it rite...start mug chem at 5...n yfc.....
hopefully everything goes well tomolo...hiazz....kill it....den thrus physcis fri bio....mati...mati..confirm die......den FREE....rox man......haha.....bye bye....wat a boring day.....
hopefully everything goes well tomolo...hiazz....kill it....den thrus physcis fri bio....mati...mati..confirm die......den FREE....rox man......haha.....bye bye....wat a boring day.....
wah piang......schumi.....kena screwed....by montoya...wth....wth....disgusting.....at least he extended the lead....but den...i got a feeling he isnt as fast as kimi.....argh...rats.....
dreaming of wat to do when ct r over...hiazz..so shaung......
in addition to the 2 operations......n fencing n sch.....i shall compete zoe n xenosaga...start FFX.......finally......after 2yrs plus......buy games.....n slack........ahh....haha......left 3 sciences....come on hurry up....!!!!! argh.......dun wanna wait anymore.......haha
a little jumpy......
shall mug chem n physics n bio....n yfc....rats...not veri prepared for all...esp the last one....haha
dreaming of wat to do when ct r over...hiazz..so shaung......
in addition to the 2 operations......n fencing n sch.....i shall compete zoe n xenosaga...start FFX.......finally......after 2yrs plus......buy games.....n slack........ahh....haha......left 3 sciences....come on hurry up....!!!!! argh.......dun wanna wait anymore.......haha
a little jumpy......
shall mug chem n physics n bio....n yfc....rats...not veri prepared for all...esp the last one....haha
Sunday, June 29, 2003
aiya.....too careless today.....shit man....n my trigo quite lan.....lucky in the last 5 min i manage to prove the 2 stupid eqn...haha.....heng sia....i tink max minus 15.... 12 frm careless mistake....n i even draw graph wrongly.....haha....wth man.....disugsting...the graph so easy lor...also screw up....i tink must be more careful for next papers....must relax more....A should be can get.....i tink.......should be or else will be damn disappointed.....
so maths is finish.....gd chance of A....tho marks isnt has high as i wan it to be..crap......6/10 performance,,,but still veri happy..i dunno y.....maybe cos it is over..n at least i should be getting A....lol
3 to go.....den 2......den last one liao haha
so maths is finish.....gd chance of A....tho marks isnt has high as i wan it to be..crap......6/10 performance,,,but still veri happy..i dunno y.....maybe cos it is over..n at least i should be getting A....lol
3 to go.....den 2......den last one liao haha
ahh..haha..tomolo is ct....woah...yo...all way mate...
n sch really hav to go.....i am sorry....
tt all...today.......c u tomorrow after maths....hope it is smooth sailing all the way......i can do it...obviously...haha
n 1 will bring all the rest back...
n sch really hav to go.....i am sorry....
tt all...today.......c u tomorrow after maths....hope it is smooth sailing all the way......i can do it...obviously...haha
n 1 will bring all the rest back...
Saturday, June 28, 2003
last day of hols...wat did i do in 3 wks.....dunno...but it was gd....just tt having a lot of worries here n there.....some totally out of my control.....hiazz.....is wearing me down...argh...i need to escape reality.....somehow...common test in lyk 32 hrs....it will be over b4 i noe it.....cos it is just mon.....den there is break on tues.....wed i willbe preoccupied wif yfc....even if i dun hav flight...obviously i hope i do fly on wed.....den thrus would be second last day.....n fri will be the last day.....so who cares.......haha......
my fren in mjc has onli 2 days of ct.....cos taking 2 paper a day....how shiok.....envious....packing my bag tomolo.....just read thru the whole maths cirriculum....do the test papers.....might do the revision exercises too..den study trigo...n tt will be it.....ready to go.....haha...how exciting........
went to watch finding nemo just now..sux big time...waste time waste money...wats the fuss abt it.....
n certain pple r getting disgusting dis days...but maybe they tink i am disgusting too...so wth.....i will just try avoid.....so as not to upset myself.....
my fren in mjc has onli 2 days of ct.....cos taking 2 paper a day....how shiok.....envious....packing my bag tomolo.....just read thru the whole maths cirriculum....do the test papers.....might do the revision exercises too..den study trigo...n tt will be it.....ready to go.....haha...how exciting........
went to watch finding nemo just now..sux big time...waste time waste money...wats the fuss abt it.....
n certain pple r getting disgusting dis days...but maybe they tink i am disgusting too...so wth.....i will just try avoid.....so as not to upset myself.....
now the is
operation "save myself"..commence after common test
operation "fight back"..commence 2/7/2003 if i get my wed flight....fuck u....i wan it..give it to mi.or i will burn the place down
operation "HE MAN"..commence after common test
full of operations.....gives some structure to life.....
operation "save myself"..commence after common test
operation "fight back"..commence 2/7/2003 if i get my wed flight....fuck u....i wan it..give it to mi.or i will burn the place down
operation "HE MAN"..commence after common test
full of operations.....gives some structure to life.....
screwed up the yfc bookings again..wah lan when can i stop screwing up.....let a nice tues go.....shit....realised tt i hav to fly twice every wk frm now to 21/7...if i am to avoid being kicked out....fag..not gonna go wifout a fight....i hav decided to book during common test....wed fri sat n sun next wk..hopefully dey let mi fly dis wed.pls...i realise need to fly dis wed n during the wkend....i dun wanna be kicked out after my gd performance for being unable to complete in time...the new courses also starting soon.....go to hell....give mi my flights first.......argh.....
so i hav decided tt lessons will taking a backseat for a while.....shall book during sch time also.....n if i hav to pon i hav to pon.....might bk every single day shall see how it goes.....but rite now i shall bk on tues n wed n fri.....missing gp n pe lessons....big deal.....blue slips needed....PLEASE I WANNA FLY ON WED......2/7/2003.....screw common test....if i am crazy shall fly b4 the physics paper too....
tt all for yfc....it is a high stressing place...but i lyk it.....n i dun wanna leave so fast......gd luck for my bkings.....i wonder y pple get to fly all the time.....I REALLY SHOULDNT HAV LET TUES GO.....EVERYONE IS FLYING TT DAY....WTF......THOSE BEHIND MI R CATCHING UP....THOSE IN FRONT R PULLING AWAY.....WAT THE FUCK IS WRONG WIF MI.....i am disgusted wif my fucking self....worthless scum......
mug microscopy....go out...rv maths n other stuff...i am sick.....disgusted.....at my inability to progress fast enough in the stupid yfc course.......
so i hav decided tt lessons will taking a backseat for a while.....shall book during sch time also.....n if i hav to pon i hav to pon.....might bk every single day shall see how it goes.....but rite now i shall bk on tues n wed n fri.....missing gp n pe lessons....big deal.....blue slips needed....PLEASE I WANNA FLY ON WED......2/7/2003.....screw common test....if i am crazy shall fly b4 the physics paper too....
tt all for yfc....it is a high stressing place...but i lyk it.....n i dun wanna leave so fast......gd luck for my bkings.....i wonder y pple get to fly all the time.....I REALLY SHOULDNT HAV LET TUES GO.....EVERYONE IS FLYING TT DAY....WTF......THOSE BEHIND MI R CATCHING UP....THOSE IN FRONT R PULLING AWAY.....WAT THE FUCK IS WRONG WIF MI.....i am disgusted wif my fucking self....worthless scum......
mug microscopy....go out...rv maths n other stuff...i am sick.....disgusted.....at my inability to progress fast enough in the stupid yfc course.......
Friday, June 27, 2003
i am a very unhappy person.....sums it all up right.....after that....i will start operation "save myself"
just spent 4 hrs on a physics qn...finally solved it....common test....cant wait fot it to end....i hav enough of nosense....i feel tt i am losing it....gonna lose it really soon.....need to escape frm dis place....just had a mood swing.......frm one extreme to the other...hiaz...going nuts soon...sian....feeling a little dizzy...drowsy....wth....
i need to feel alive......try n finish bio tomolo...den tt it lar....after common test shall consider my life again....n think of wat to do.....drastic situation requires drastic actions....hmmm....knee a little pain.......it will never be the same again.....the nagging feeling is still there......argh...sian si.....
forget it.....need a proper end to things.......ct shall be one.....
should i go to sleep....wth......i feel lyk swearing....at the wall....got dis really sick feeling inside...must hav been the conversation...in fact.....it has to be.....wat u call it.....empty.....walking zombie......watever.....just a feeling lyk gasping for air when you suck in there is nothing at all..argh.....ah.....
i need to feel alive......try n finish bio tomolo...den tt it lar....after common test shall consider my life again....n think of wat to do.....drastic situation requires drastic actions....hmmm....knee a little pain.......it will never be the same again.....the nagging feeling is still there......argh...sian si.....
forget it.....need a proper end to things.......ct shall be one.....
should i go to sleep....wth......i feel lyk swearing....at the wall....got dis really sick feeling inside...must hav been the conversation...in fact.....it has to be.....wat u call it.....empty.....walking zombie......watever.....just a feeling lyk gasping for air when you suck in there is nothing at all..argh.....ah.....
nxt yfc is on friday after bio..if u exclude tomolo briefing....tt means i hav to mug yfc thru the common test...wth....but the briefings are also gonna end soon....going to get my saturdays back...at least part of it.....haha....common test in 3 days...i hope it comes n goes lyk the wind....
something else...just got hit by the fridge door.my back hurts...awwwww....argh..while taking ice cream out....omg....n i know y my glasses are disappearing.....cos they keep on breaking....3 broke recently....eating out of mugs/cups now.....how fag.....
ohh...n how weird.i just read something too weird....coincidental if u lyk..omg....
mitosis
physics rv
chem rv
maths rv
boring day...rainy day...oh..n i wanna go to the creative sale.....but it is way too crowded......i will freak out.....hope schumi n nufc give pple good thrashings...haha....sux.....sian....wth....hate dis...argh....
sometimes....things are so true....but u refuse to believe them..instead wasting away in a fantasy
something else...just got hit by the fridge door.my back hurts...awwwww....argh..while taking ice cream out....omg....n i know y my glasses are disappearing.....cos they keep on breaking....3 broke recently....eating out of mugs/cups now.....how fag.....
ohh...n how weird.i just read something too weird....coincidental if u lyk..omg....
mitosis
physics rv
chem rv
maths rv
boring day...rainy day...oh..n i wanna go to the creative sale.....but it is way too crowded......i will freak out.....hope schumi n nufc give pple good thrashings...haha....sux.....sian....wth....hate dis...argh....
sometimes....things are so true....but u refuse to believe them..instead wasting away in a fantasy
Thursday, June 26, 2003
kinda high now....long time never so happy liao...wow..actually i get happy quite easily...according to pork....i hav to recall wat i did right today n work on frm there....gd advice bro....must recollect before slept....it is time for more 6s.....haha.....hav to shelf this happiness abt yfc til b4 sleep....must get down to serious stuff....lyk mugging....argh...one last think......today after cat 1 warning...the sky was quite clear...the clearest so far......I SAW UNTIL KALLANG! wth.....see the shears bridge....haha.shall hunt for more landmarks next time..
today home alone.....so i hav to put in more mugging hours...heres the plan
chem topic 1 n 2 n the practise paper
bio cell membrane n cell bio n dna
phyiscs tys kinematics n dynamics
maths trigo n binomial
wah....damn a lot....shitz....doubt i can finish..but must try....do or die...but right now.....i am talking to 2 person.....one is a guy who seems veri depressed.....the other is a girl who seems hyper...see the contrast.....hiazz.....finish talking n it is time to mug....lol......7....7....7.....double meaning
yfc ops skylark 94 coms check....wat is the fag freq man....
seletar ground skylark 94
skylark 94 yankee request taxy 2pob for area alpha
skylark 94 whiskey 1 runway 21 qnh 1009
today home alone.....so i hav to put in more mugging hours...heres the plan
chem topic 1 n 2 n the practise paper
bio cell membrane n cell bio n dna
phyiscs tys kinematics n dynamics
maths trigo n binomial
wah....damn a lot....shitz....doubt i can finish..but must try....do or die...but right now.....i am talking to 2 person.....one is a guy who seems veri depressed.....the other is a girl who seems hyper...see the contrast.....hiazz.....finish talking n it is time to mug....lol......7....7....7.....double meaning
yfc ops skylark 94 coms check....wat is the fag freq man....
seletar ground skylark 94
skylark 94 yankee request taxy 2pob for area alpha
skylark 94 whiskey 1 runway 21 qnh 1009
wth.......my flying.....is so DAMN PRO TODAY...lost count of how many gds he told mi on the plane n in the debrief.....y i also dunno..i tink i damn kelong. half the time i am how blur....bo chap my way to pro-ess......ahhh......n he asked mi if my flying is gd do i hav the interest to continue....n wat abt fencing.......ahhhh......taking both....taking both......n pls..dun change my instructor...he rox.....pls dun change.....i got 3 6s......n the rest 5....no
stuff to revise......all checks...taxy-power n brakes coordination....r/t......s/l 1....s/l 2...cnd 1.....d2.....attitude...etc
mug common test hiaz
stuff to revise......all checks...taxy-power n brakes coordination....r/t......s/l 1....s/l 2...cnd 1.....d2.....attitude...etc
mug common test hiaz
Wednesday, June 25, 2003
new courses starting soon at yfc..might be on my way out soon.....hiazz.....but i enjoy seeing all the new people.....i dunno y...like seeing them going for the joyrides n stuff....i really dunno y...
why are you here..?
nothing.....bored....stone out......i guess
really....don't you have better things to do?
yeah..obviously...
like?
mugging...have yfc tomorrow...loads to mug...n common test...
then....?
what....dunno.....will go mug soon....just for a while.....talk
you are thinking of that again..?
yeah....damn it......
why? it is a waste of time.....
i know...someone reminded me....i didnt want to be reminded......
doesnt do any good does it.....doesnt help you....nor does it help anyone else..
i guess so....helping people is secondary though....
typical....
yeah..maybe i am just thrash....wasting my time right....i think so.....
i agree..spend your time on better things...
yup...i should.....
you want to think of it right....
i dont know....it just came back...thats all!
yes....you want to
a part.....yes....but i am trying to stop....
good luck with that....
thanks......need it....done it before....doesnt really take a lot you know...
then you better wake up and get to senses
ok.....i will....
weird day.....physics bio yfc.....hiaz...
nothing.....bored....stone out......i guess
really....don't you have better things to do?
yeah..obviously...
like?
mugging...have yfc tomorrow...loads to mug...n common test...
then....?
what....dunno.....will go mug soon....just for a while.....talk
you are thinking of that again..?
yeah....damn it......
why? it is a waste of time.....
i know...someone reminded me....i didnt want to be reminded......
doesnt do any good does it.....doesnt help you....nor does it help anyone else..
i guess so....helping people is secondary though....
typical....
yeah..maybe i am just thrash....wasting my time right....i think so.....
i agree..spend your time on better things...
yup...i should.....
you want to think of it right....
i dont know....it just came back...thats all!
yes....you want to
a part.....yes....but i am trying to stop....
good luck with that....
thanks......need it....done it before....doesnt really take a lot you know...
then you better wake up and get to senses
ok.....i will....
weird day.....physics bio yfc.....hiaz...
Tuesday, June 24, 2003
n now.....back to the real world...it is 5 days more to the first paper..freaky..amazingly not...surprising calm..not tt i hav prepared well...so i shall start n attempt to lift myself out of some of the shit...."operation survivor"...which means stop wasting anymore time n start hard core mugging...also not gonna post in the near future....havent been in my senses lately...u noe.....not studying hard as i should be....which is something bad.....so someone pls knock some sense into mi.....but i kinda lyk dis pressure...esp studying late into the night excites mi..tt porno...haha...as yeh says...u dun seem to be afraid of any exams....oh nervous yes...certainly but not afraid....as yl would definitely agree...u go in doing battle wif a wretch piece of paper...n y should u feel scare of a friggin piece of paper....besides...u go in wif 0 marks....anything u get is a bonus....hahaha....
i really feel lyk hecking dis..but the moment i tink of someone...tt particular someone....whose rightful place is always n forever always behind mi....it makes mi just wanna give tt someone a gd thrashing....n besides..i am superior to tt someone....most definitely...always....in the end it will be mi who hav the last laugh.....its a different someone everytime....n this year it's u.....die sucker....die.....i swear i would kill u personally
i really feel lyk hecking dis..but the moment i tink of someone...tt particular someone....whose rightful place is always n forever always behind mi....it makes mi just wanna give tt someone a gd thrashing....n besides..i am superior to tt someone....most definitely...always....in the end it will be mi who hav the last laugh.....its a different someone everytime....n this year it's u.....die sucker....die.....i swear i would kill u personally
done if harry potter..phew...a fantastic bk...to mi....it was just great....cant really differentiate a gd bk n a bad one...just tt anything i lyk means its gd. really not veri gd at lit u c...wasnt a keen student of the subject....but i hav pretty decent marks for it as far as i can remember...but nvm...i still wouldnt forget how i mistook the playground for a nazi concentration camp in a fag poem...wth...anyway...really lyk reading it..spend the whole day on it...professor mcgonagall is my favourite teacher....how nice....reminds mi of kmk...really...even the actress in the movie also looked similar..wow...hate hagrid....it is mighty irritating.....n cho chang is a bitch.....disgusting little fag....the ending's really gd cos harry sorta forgets abt her.....gd on him...n the bk did took me way frm the real world....or rather the shit place i am presently in....my dad said tt i was smiling too much as i was reading...asked mi if i was tickling myself..omg...lame......
on n fred n geroge...boy oh boy oh boy....the way they left sch..omg...."i think we've outgrown full time education"....sped out of the open front doors into the glorious sunset...omg...how insanely cool is tt..omg..omg...omg...if only i can do tt...a gun would settle it nicely but nvm...tt is way way too too cool...way too cool...argh...man....darn cool
on n fred n geroge...boy oh boy oh boy....the way they left sch..omg...."i think we've outgrown full time education"....sped out of the open front doors into the glorious sunset...omg...how insanely cool is tt..omg..omg...omg...if only i can do tt...a gun would settle it nicely but nvm...tt is way way too too cool...way too cool...argh...man....darn cool
Monday, June 23, 2003
the day has brighten....literally....n cos i am probably flying on thrus...not wed....haha....or so says the lady at yfc....just need to confirm with the website later..but anxiety has dropped approx 80%......cos there still might be a chance she said wrongly....n she said something lyk u r probably flying on thrus tt means they noe n y how earth dun they post it on the website. argh.
shall do some rv...den go outing....den rv den potter n yfc.....proabably more potter...
shall do some rv...den go outing....den rv den potter n yfc.....proabably more potter...
oh boy oh boy...potter is amazingly addictive..damn it....dark wet gloomy day...damn potter....but.argh...too nice to stop reading...already looking forward to bk 6...a long wait...darn it.
no yfc pls....i got dis bad bad feeling....
rotten day...freaking out at any moment..n someone didnt particularly help to make today nice.....
no yfc pls....i got dis bad bad feeling....
rotten day...freaking out at any moment..n someone didnt particularly help to make today nice.....
shower bio potter slp
long day ahead tomolo...exciting...no yfc on wed pls pls pls.....if god is really present....pls no yfc tomolo
long day ahead tomolo...exciting...no yfc on wed pls pls pls.....if god is really present....pls no yfc tomolo
den dinner n talk abt how scandalous fencing is lol......n something else.....the scandal stuff was ok....but the stuff someone told mi was..erm...i didnt lyk it.so i told him tt was enough...didnt want to hear more....tt would be lyk...wrong for mi to let him continue....correct...besides i didnt lyk it.....lol....too...argh...nvm....i am just a scum anyway
3 things amazing today
1. how small the world is
2. how pt of views can differ...not totally but a bit lyk 30%...tt lame nvm
3. how little i noe of stuff happening in sch....not tt i really noe.....but the stuff they say they must always explain more to mi....lol
3 things amazing today
1. how small the world is
2. how pt of views can differ...not totally but a bit lyk 30%...tt lame nvm
3. how little i noe of stuff happening in sch....not tt i really noe.....but the stuff they say they must always explain more to mi....lol
sorry ass back home frm fencing camp....no 1...i PRAYING bloody hard to hav NO YFC on wed...pls pls pls...i dun wan..fri can..NO YFC....PLS I BEG YOU PLS PLS PLS....no use...i hav an uncanny feeling tt i will get it on wed...fag..i still cannot understand y they cannot publish the whole wks schedule..y must day by day...it total freaks mi out to noe tt i am flying the day before...fag.....no use complaining.....
spk of luck...fencing camp..
won dis running cun scissor paper stone thingy.....beat 3 pple cheated once n den beat one more person....how lucky...amazing....i didnt really cheat..i sorta talked the person into letting mi win...nice guy..haha thanx mate..den get to stone n watch the other pple run up n down 100m....haha
how they daytona...essentially a running exercise...veri confusing..but wanst interested in the game....wanted to run n let if my knees and ankle were still up to it...no bad.....1 07 n 1 06....not bad...felt gd after the run....a controlled run they call...at lest nothing is locking up....thank god
n the harry potter fiasco...omg...i always say the wrong stuff to the wrong people at the wrong time.....felt quite bad....rats.....but i am wronged...wat the hell..sorry lar...
den they went to lt2 for some jap show..battle royal...in short dey put a class in an island..give dem a weapon each.they kill each other til 1 survives....they say it is violent n gory.....but i tink it is ok...not as if i really will kill after tt. but den u say those supposedly gd fren start killing each other...tt kinda sad cos they suspected tt one of them would suddenly try kill off the rest....hiaz..n they said....trusting someone is a hard thing to do.....betrayals sux big time totally.
n soccer...dey say i was pissed..andrew to be exact....omg...is it tt obvious....i tink i was a little....but julian n co say i look piss all the time...ok...yeah...maybe..well sometimes not...but most of the time yes.....cos when do they see mi......in sch....lol..oh shit.....am i...do i.....cant help it lar...so i always say...one day i would porbably be beat n strip n bashed 2 a pulp with everyone clapping n laughing......not deceiving myself..lol
n they say jason is dam n polite.....personally i dun hav anything against him lar...but....i tink....people dun really lyk him..hiazz...nvm tt...
spk of luck...fencing camp..
won dis running cun scissor paper stone thingy.....beat 3 pple cheated once n den beat one more person....how lucky...amazing....i didnt really cheat..i sorta talked the person into letting mi win...nice guy..haha thanx mate..den get to stone n watch the other pple run up n down 100m....haha
how they daytona...essentially a running exercise...veri confusing..but wanst interested in the game....wanted to run n let if my knees and ankle were still up to it...no bad.....1 07 n 1 06....not bad...felt gd after the run....a controlled run they call...at lest nothing is locking up....thank god
n the harry potter fiasco...omg...i always say the wrong stuff to the wrong people at the wrong time.....felt quite bad....rats.....but i am wronged...wat the hell..sorry lar...
den they went to lt2 for some jap show..battle royal...in short dey put a class in an island..give dem a weapon each.they kill each other til 1 survives....they say it is violent n gory.....but i tink it is ok...not as if i really will kill after tt. but den u say those supposedly gd fren start killing each other...tt kinda sad cos they suspected tt one of them would suddenly try kill off the rest....hiaz..n they said....trusting someone is a hard thing to do.....betrayals sux big time totally.
n soccer...dey say i was pissed..andrew to be exact....omg...is it tt obvious....i tink i was a little....but julian n co say i look piss all the time...ok...yeah...maybe..well sometimes not...but most of the time yes.....cos when do they see mi......in sch....lol..oh shit.....am i...do i.....cant help it lar...so i always say...one day i would porbably be beat n strip n bashed 2 a pulp with everyone clapping n laughing......not deceiving myself..lol
n they say jason is dam n polite.....personally i dun hav anything against him lar...but....i tink....people dun really lyk him..hiazz...nvm tt...
Sunday, June 22, 2003
did i read abt miracles are not suppose to be waited for..u r suppose to go make one happen....tt in his case....for mi....bo chap lar.....things are meant to be the way they r...so can relax....obviously not all things r suppose to be the way they r.....cos if tt was the case....i wouldnt find myself in sch....but den again.....u onli hav a limited amt of energy n time....so do wat is most impt for u i guess....for mi tts tt n tt n tt....yeah..so relax.....
sidenote..just had a shouting match....abt door key n locking up....hiaz.....shall ignore everyone until tomolo....where i will be at fencing camp for the home day......it is a pt camp organised by the j3s....y dun they let us do blade work......hmmm....the capt say it is gonna be torture....haha...interested to know wat it will be lyk...hope tt it will be fun......hey the is fun in pt too k....even in running which i detest....lyk run to somewhere different can...not on the track.....lol....but tt not for mi to decide.....anyway...looking forward to the camp.....haha......
250pg of potter.....1/3 gone......shitz....tt means 1/3 less enjoyment....hiazzz....really hope it never ends....
aim to study mitosis n meiosis tonite...it is lyk 14 pg of campbell or less.....must finish tt.....den onli genetics left......genetics is the most fun part of sucky bio.....i kinda like it...i dunno y....got a feeling tt common test will die...but never mind tt one....not up to me to decide either....
speaking of which.....a lot of stuff isnt up to me to decide....so is it my life....or urs....hmm....
shower..
mitosis n meiosis..
pack up....long long time since someone have said tt......
potter
slp
n i am afraid i am....but i am trying not too.....can do it...let it be...tt just 1 more regret to the bag...cos tt not that impt....more impt stuff...
sidenote..just had a shouting match....abt door key n locking up....hiaz.....shall ignore everyone until tomolo....where i will be at fencing camp for the home day......it is a pt camp organised by the j3s....y dun they let us do blade work......hmmm....the capt say it is gonna be torture....haha...interested to know wat it will be lyk...hope tt it will be fun......hey the is fun in pt too k....even in running which i detest....lyk run to somewhere different can...not on the track.....lol....but tt not for mi to decide.....anyway...looking forward to the camp.....haha......
250pg of potter.....1/3 gone......shitz....tt means 1/3 less enjoyment....hiazzz....really hope it never ends....
aim to study mitosis n meiosis tonite...it is lyk 14 pg of campbell or less.....must finish tt.....den onli genetics left......genetics is the most fun part of sucky bio.....i kinda like it...i dunno y....got a feeling tt common test will die...but never mind tt one....not up to me to decide either....
speaking of which.....a lot of stuff isnt up to me to decide....so is it my life....or urs....hmm....
shower..
mitosis n meiosis..
pack up....long long time since someone have said tt......
potter
slp
n i am afraid i am....but i am trying not too.....can do it...let it be...tt just 1 more regret to the bag...cos tt not that impt....more impt stuff...
Saturday, June 21, 2003
blah....wth.fell asleep at lik 9 plus yester.....the onli thing i accomplished.....was to read harry potter.....hiazz..but it is damn interesting.....didnt even bathe.....which means......i didnt bathe....the whole day......lol......haha..got to get my ass down to clementi to watch some competition....hiazz....hopefully...i can finish 8 qn of mathsn the chem mcq n read dna....b4 i go to clementi....
oh n the yfc thingy...some pple told mi tt they r afraid tt they might be axed....me too! if they axe mi...wah lan..lyk wasted all my time....10hrs flight.....30 hrs prep 30 hrs briefing..70 hours of my time!!!! u cant do this too mi......but so far so got.....2 5s in a row.time for a 6 baby!
oh n the yfc thingy...some pple told mi tt they r afraid tt they might be axed....me too! if they axe mi...wah lan..lyk wasted all my time....10hrs flight.....30 hrs prep 30 hrs briefing..70 hours of my time!!!! u cant do this too mi......but so far so got.....2 5s in a row.time for a 6 baby!
blah....wth.fell asleep at lik 9 plus yester.....the onli thing i accomplished.....was to read harry potter.....hiazz..but it is damn interesting.....didnt even bathe.....which means......i didnt bathe....the whole day......lol......haha..got to get my ass down to clementi to watch some competition....hiazz....hopefully...i can finish 8 qn of mathsn the chem mcq n read dna....b4 i go to clementi....
oh n the yfc thingy...some pple told mi tt they r afraid tt they might be axed....me too! if they axe mi...wah lan..lyk wasted all my time....10hrs flight.....30 hrs prep 30 hrs briefing..70 hours of my time!!!! u cant do this too mi......but so far so got.....2 5s in a row.time for a 6 baby!
oh n the yfc thingy...some pple told mi tt they r afraid tt they might be axed....me too! if they axe mi...wah lan..lyk wasted all my time....10hrs flight.....30 hrs prep 30 hrs briefing..70 hours of my time!!!! u cant do this too mi......but so far so got.....2 5s in a row.time for a 6 baby!
did i say tt the bk came with a nice paper bag tt has the harry potter cover on it....wahhh.....they even put "this bag is not for sale" at the bottom lol.
lets see shall go read now
do chem n bio later..haha
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lets see shall go read now
do chem n bio later..haha
f
Friday, June 20, 2003
disaster....due to some bloody crap up reason which i am too ashame of writing, unable to go for fencing today..but tt is after i woke up bloody early drag my stuff blade +mask+others to clementi just for mi to turn right back home......damn pissed.....to think tt dis happens just after that poem i got. too disaster to say more or even swear.....
hope yfc dun turn out to be a disaster...i hav to go there at 130 n leave at 6...pls no more disasters....
sidenote...bought harry potter bk 5 for 37.....didnt even order....lol.....n i need to rest up for yfc...pls let everything go smoothly...shall training extra 2hrs on mon to make up....
hope yfc dun turn out to be a disaster...i hav to go there at 130 n leave at 6...pls no more disasters....
sidenote...bought harry potter bk 5 for 37.....didnt even order....lol.....n i need to rest up for yfc...pls let everything go smoothly...shall training extra 2hrs on mon to make up....
audit culture my boy....haha....gp has its uses..at times...tho more often thn not it is just a burden...lol
n i should really watch amazing race 4....damnit....miss it so many times liao...but it aint never to late to start watching tv....tonite 10pm...still remember last yr....watched the whole series except for once...tho it was 8 when it was 9...and miss the fag show.....even had to rush thru shower...hahaha.....those were the days....
anyway..seem a crisis coming up soon...i am really getting bored wif life..everyday seems so aimless...apart for mugging which i reminds mi tt there is maths n bio to do later...
oh n i see.....now i know...ok dis is wat i will do...u will die....soon....omg....hmmm....
slack. shit. die. jian. keep. start. never. one word day hiaz
n i should really watch amazing race 4....damnit....miss it so many times liao...but it aint never to late to start watching tv....tonite 10pm...still remember last yr....watched the whole series except for once...tho it was 8 when it was 9...and miss the fag show.....even had to rush thru shower...hahaha.....those were the days....
anyway..seem a crisis coming up soon...i am really getting bored wif life..everyday seems so aimless...apart for mugging which i reminds mi tt there is maths n bio to do later...
oh n i see.....now i know...ok dis is wat i will do...u will die....soon....omg....hmmm....
slack. shit. die. jian. keep. start. never. one word day hiaz
hohoho...flying tomolo.....expected tt...how die..no time tomolo......9-11 fencing......hopefully start n end on time.. 1 30 to 4 30 yfc briefing....and omg...4 30 take off.....how smart rite....how screw up.....how am i suppose to do all the friggin checks....argh.....n dunno which instructor gonna assess mi...wah lan..super pressured....hiaz....must go mug tt later....wat a life....i pity myself seriously.....n now i hav to think of a way to get frm clementi to seletar fitting in lunch...maybe dun go home...but tt means lunging all the fencing stuff everywhere......shit...i praying tt tomolo end on time...hiazzz....oh still got fencing stuff to do...wat a porno day....
f
yfc
mug bio
do maths
i kinda feel sad for the life i have....i tink some people's life are way much better than my....hiazz.....lyk..dunno...hiaz hiaz hiaz. i am feeling depress...hopefully the shower will do the trick...hiaz hiaz hiaz..shit man. dis sux. sux. rotten.. n some people hav.....watever...i used to...but now...no...i dunno y also....maybe its me...yeah i tink so...too bad...i sux...
f
yfc
mug bio
do maths
i kinda feel sad for the life i have....i tink some people's life are way much better than my....hiazz.....lyk..dunno...hiaz hiaz hiaz. i am feeling depress...hopefully the shower will do the trick...hiaz hiaz hiaz..shit man. dis sux. sux. rotten.. n some people hav.....watever...i used to...but now...no...i dunno y also....maybe its me...yeah i tink so...too bad...i sux...
Thursday, June 19, 2003
argh...wat a fuck up life
fuck it. fuck u. fuck u n u n u..n all the fuckers out there
n fuck tt n tt ntt
oh n sch.....can u going fuck yourself pls???
fuck it. fuck u. fuck u n u n u..n all the fuckers out there
n fuck tt n tt ntt
oh n sch.....can u going fuck yourself pls???
"dun get angry" hahaha..here goes nothing.....
life is like a show
cos of fate we meet
living til a ripe old age aint easy
shouldnt u cherish it more
getting angry over small matters
is it worth it
others get angry i not angry
angry until sick no one cry
if i angry who benefit
waste money waste energy waste time
dun compare with neighbours relatives n friends
son grandson and small matters let it go
suffering n enjoying go together
gods wish for gd partners
wth....wat pro english......hahaha
life is like a show
cos of fate we meet
living til a ripe old age aint easy
shouldnt u cherish it more
getting angry over small matters
is it worth it
others get angry i not angry
angry until sick no one cry
if i angry who benefit
waste money waste energy waste time
dun compare with neighbours relatives n friends
son grandson and small matters let it go
suffering n enjoying go together
gods wish for gd partners
wth....wat pro english......hahaha
no flight again. sickening..meaning tomolo probably burnt. uncle n aunt called frm australia dis morning..haha...cos of the sia retrenchment thingy. screw it. n my uncle gave my a chinese poem...how cool...shall translate it later..n got a new bag frm some free gift thingy..should be useful...later must go measure for some fencing thingy......hiaz..today is the first day i am gonna be at home all day dis hols...slept at 11 yester..wanted to do bio today..hiaz..quite stressed out by common test...n yfc......cos if i have flight tomolo tt means whole day is gone...shit...quite dead....fencing tomolo...looking foward to it! yeah! oh n i suspect there is some spy prog in my com...unknown stuff keep on getting dl...tt veri weird..
got my o level cert n cheque for 100 frm ri....see that fricking b3..knn...damn disgusting...throw it aside liao.....100 bucks work out to be be little over 11 for each a1......haha....shall mug cytology...dna n do the chem paper....heard it is damn difficult...haha die...n mug yfc....hiazz
got my o level cert n cheque for 100 frm ri....see that fricking b3..knn...damn disgusting...throw it aside liao.....100 bucks work out to be be little over 11 for each a1......haha....shall mug cytology...dna n do the chem paper....heard it is damn difficult...haha die...n mug yfc....hiazz
Wednesday, June 18, 2003
glad i went for training....quite fun..but den...found out how troublesome it is to be lh. the blades keep on get tangled......onli when wif the coach den wouldnt lol..the coach a litttle angry today....dunno y....hm. yeah....but training was fun. den when for fencing movie outing..juon sold out! watched the in laws instead. how bloody gay the show. lol. but quite fun too! tomolo got physics makeup lyk in 8 hrs......shoot mi...but fun ending to a quite gd day...i think might hav yfc on fri...never mug....shoot......bath n go mug liao.....scary......trembling.....heard some people got kan....damn.
3/4 moon tonite.....i should taking photos of the moon everytime i c it......quite often recently......
shower pack mug yfc.
3/4 moon tonite.....i should taking photos of the moon everytime i c it......quite often recently......
shower pack mug yfc.
last nite...i broke a glass....and while picking up the pieces...n walking to the bin, i dropped it again...and it broke again. fag. the ankle is quite swollen. worse den expected. shit. still pondering whether to go training later... cant even stand straight. argh..wonder how long to heal...regrets....everything is quite cock these days. also gp floating around in my mind. f gp.
pple sometimes hav too much time tt they do stupid stuff. lol. shall study 1 chap of bio n 1 chap of phyiscs..trigo hav to wait since it is so chim...
should i go training...i cant move properly. damn. go there n stone..but i hav to go myslef which means leaving at 6 for clementi n plus the outing and all would get back at onli lyk 12? home alone tonite...so there isnt anyone at home. remember keys... but the pt is.....should i go...damn it...if it werent for the ankle. dis wouldnt hav been a question.
pple sometimes hav too much time tt they do stupid stuff. lol. shall study 1 chap of bio n 1 chap of phyiscs..trigo hav to wait since it is so chim...
should i go training...i cant move properly. damn. go there n stone..but i hav to go myslef which means leaving at 6 for clementi n plus the outing and all would get back at onli lyk 12? home alone tonite...so there isnt anyone at home. remember keys... but the pt is.....should i go...damn it...if it werent for the ankle. dis wouldnt hav been a question.
Tuesday, June 17, 2003
wat am i doing here. fag
no need to slp liao shit
oh saw edwin while on the way to soccer. do u noe how diff it is to meet someone u noe on the streets? i could hav went out of home later....could hav not walked tt path n choose a longer one. could hav talked to yq longer. could have walked slower could hav stand at another place. he could hav not board tt train. he could hav shop longer. he could hav not use the stairs. he could hav not accompany his mum...so many could havs n could hav nots...so u see....how do u explain it....some pple will use god n fate....but no....it is just the way it is.....rite or wrong....den again.....could hav avoided dis all just by looking at him n treating him as transparent rite....wat the hell am i toking abt...haha....
should really go mug now
no need to slp liao shit
oh saw edwin while on the way to soccer. do u noe how diff it is to meet someone u noe on the streets? i could hav went out of home later....could hav not walked tt path n choose a longer one. could hav talked to yq longer. could have walked slower could hav stand at another place. he could hav not board tt train. he could hav shop longer. he could hav not use the stairs. he could hav not accompany his mum...so many could havs n could hav nots...so u see....how do u explain it....some pple will use god n fate....but no....it is just the way it is.....rite or wrong....den again.....could hav avoided dis all just by looking at him n treating him as transparent rite....wat the hell am i toking abt...haha....
should really go mug now
just got home. hiaz muck around for 5 hours plus. soccer was disaster. kenna thrash by muds. shit. must take revenge next wk...die die die haha. got 3 cuts...and a damn swollen ankle. damn it. didnt wanna get injured. oh well...den talk cock n had dinner. quite shuang..sitting at the coffee shop, doing nothing n talking. just remembered abt the fencing camp nxt wk. shit..no time to mug. argh. fag YFC too.
bloody lame man haha
John and Mary had never met. They were like two hummingbirds who had also never met.
He was as lame as a duck. Not the metaphorical lame duck, either, but a real duck that was actually lame. Maybe from
stepping on a land mine or something.
1 chap of bio n 1 chap of physics...just realised tt i forgot quite a bit of stuff tt i mugged...fag man. die liao shit. cltrl mkh
bloody lame man haha
John and Mary had never met. They were like two hummingbirds who had also never met.
He was as lame as a duck. Not the metaphorical lame duck, either, but a real duck that was actually lame. Maybe from
stepping on a land mine or something.
1 chap of bio n 1 chap of physics...just realised tt i forgot quite a bit of stuff tt i mugged...fag man. die liao shit. cltrl mkh
the water pipe at the oppo block burst. second time this yr. fag. YFC NEVER GIVE MI BOOKING FOR TOMOLO. FAG..i tink cos tt time planned cycling trip den cancelled t17 n 18...n when i changed the booking too last liao. f lar. FAG FAG FAG..thrus never book...tt leaves onli fri n sat....PLS GIVE MI ALL ON BOTH DAYS......common test cant go fly rite....or maybe i should book during common test cos no one going...better chance...shall discuss dis wif dad...f...go play ps2 n soccer liao bye fag
ZOE ROX....shit xenosaga hav to wait again...lol....sorry
ZOE ROX....shit xenosaga hav to wait again...lol....sorry
Monday, June 16, 2003
amazing...im actually awake...drifting in n out of slp constantly...hmm. must be the heat n crap. ohh. today kinda slack. didnt do much. hmm..attempting to study proteins later...haha...yeah n should really mug some yfc stuff slp at 3...anyway, pw reached a dead end. no one seems interested in meeting to do something. tt weird. cos b4 i suggested a time, everyone was lyk "when do we meet" n after proposing a time, everyone became silent. hmm. did i say something wrong...might be...dunno. bo chap...
n to a certain someone...there isnt much of a pt hating the education system in singapore. cos u cant change it...so y waste time hating it? oh but i really hate sch. it is a major waste of time. besides, wat i hope to be doing next time, doesnt exactly hav to be learnt in sch. but den again, tt the way it is...n tt why i am spending abt half my life up til now doing sch stuff..pathetic 8.5 yrs doing sch stuff. maybe plus a few years going to sleeping, wat hav i done wif the rest of it? dunno. yeah. dunno. just wasted time i guess...lyk wat i am doing now...hiazz...
i need something interesting to happen.....lyk ufo or something...just to break the monotony of life...
n to a certain someone...there isnt much of a pt hating the education system in singapore. cos u cant change it...so y waste time hating it? oh but i really hate sch. it is a major waste of time. besides, wat i hope to be doing next time, doesnt exactly hav to be learnt in sch. but den again, tt the way it is...n tt why i am spending abt half my life up til now doing sch stuff..pathetic 8.5 yrs doing sch stuff. maybe plus a few years going to sleeping, wat hav i done wif the rest of it? dunno. yeah. dunno. just wasted time i guess...lyk wat i am doing now...hiazz...
i need something interesting to happen.....lyk ufo or something...just to break the monotony of life...
com almost died. it is acting up. got a feeling tt it is gonna spoilt soon. oh shit. fag lar. anyway after fencing today, went to hav lunch wif some pple. den there was dis salegirl...wah lan. how despo...as if i was gonna buy perfume frm her...den she started high pressure tactics....haha....no use on mi...adrian was lyk so pai seh....haha...but i totally bo chap her. wah piang..tt was how funny...must see adrians face when the rest of us started leaving n left him n the salegirl behind. KAO. si bei funny. realised tt he was a ps2 2!!!! haha
mug was quite shit today. got home quite shag. slept. onli finish 1 chap of chem. shall study 1 chap of physics...2 chap of bio...1 chap of maths..haha...on wed the fencers r gonna watch ju-on...yj say si bei scary....i shall go see how scary it is...actually i dun tink i will be afraid. but i quite hum at times..haha...haaaa wat a cock day....shall go mug. fag
mug was quite shit today. got home quite shag. slept. onli finish 1 chap of chem. shall study 1 chap of physics...2 chap of bio...1 chap of maths..haha...on wed the fencers r gonna watch ju-on...yj say si bei scary....i shall go see how scary it is...actually i dun tink i will be afraid. but i quite hum at times..haha...haaaa wat a cock day....shall go mug. fag
Sunday, June 15, 2003
schumi is THE MAN. haha. rite at the top now. his rightful position. who says it is lonely at the top...havent been there..so i dunno. fag lol.
got a plan to start today. hehehe... porno. haha
tt it..n ok day so far..n i fell aslp mugging bio last nite fag
got a plan to start today. hehehe... porno. haha
tt it..n ok day so far..n i fell aslp mugging bio last nite fag
it never pays to hav a religion...hahaha...heathen rulez. rox. hoohoohoo.
we r in a society tt is too weak to stand on its own. PATHETIC FAGS...haha...
it is time to di deep n get real ....i am suddenly happy LOL
we r in a society tt is too weak to stand on its own. PATHETIC FAGS...haha...
it is time to di deep n get real ....i am suddenly happy LOL
someday...one day...thats my motivation...
but then again, if it is gonna be earlier...tt would definitely be better. yah. yayaya.
on a separate note, todays papa day. n i hav 4 chap of bio left. still. bought zoe 2. looks gd. plays out not bad. hopefully a sad story. the game shop in tampines closed down. WTH. ARGH. must look for one more. again. tomolo training. but no coach. i hope not wasting my time. again. ok. actually i tink i am quite free if i am stoning around now. lol.
sian. i really HATE BIO. f..but still hav to study..no pt hating it. I LOVE IT. tt porno. haha. odac pple no training screw them. haha
tues going to play soccer. lol. how fun. but my little toe the nail kena busted. again. gonna hav to rip the whole damn thing out. again. but dis yr not bad. only came out 1 time during orientation..nows the second. lol. n my other toe is swollen frm some nail prob. hope it is not in growing. shall try not to slp tonite since tomolo there is onli training..n as mentioned..no coach=slack=waste time=might else well slp n training together. lol. haha.
n i thought of a fantastic gift to give papa. but didnt buy. fag. but i tink i am quite skilled in buying gifts. yeah pro sia. haha. u dun ask wat they wan must listen out n buy wat they wan. tt pro rite or wrong. haha. ego. crap. fag lar. shall go shower den its ME VS BIO...exciting....haha
but then again, if it is gonna be earlier...tt would definitely be better. yah. yayaya.
on a separate note, todays papa day. n i hav 4 chap of bio left. still. bought zoe 2. looks gd. plays out not bad. hopefully a sad story. the game shop in tampines closed down. WTH. ARGH. must look for one more. again. tomolo training. but no coach. i hope not wasting my time. again. ok. actually i tink i am quite free if i am stoning around now. lol.
sian. i really HATE BIO. f..but still hav to study..no pt hating it. I LOVE IT. tt porno. haha. odac pple no training screw them. haha
tues going to play soccer. lol. how fun. but my little toe the nail kena busted. again. gonna hav to rip the whole damn thing out. again. but dis yr not bad. only came out 1 time during orientation..nows the second. lol. n my other toe is swollen frm some nail prob. hope it is not in growing. shall try not to slp tonite since tomolo there is onli training..n as mentioned..no coach=slack=waste time=might else well slp n training together. lol. haha.
n i thought of a fantastic gift to give papa. but didnt buy. fag. but i tink i am quite skilled in buying gifts. yeah pro sia. haha. u dun ask wat they wan must listen out n buy wat they wan. tt pro rite or wrong. haha. ego. crap. fag lar. shall go shower den its ME VS BIO...exciting....haha
Saturday, June 14, 2003
oh man...sleep the minute i mug bio shit......now i hav 4 topics to do today plus chem bonding....i tink can finish lar...fag...if i start now..wonder wats the prob wif bio and sleeping.should really start to love bio...haha
realised tt i never divert from rpgs or action games...quite pathetic...but there aint many nice stuff around anyway...hiazzz
wanna buy zoe2, suiko 3, dark cloud 2..should try finish xenosaga first..but onli abt 1/2 way thru...hiazz....haha
bio really wrecks ur day fag.
realised tt i never divert from rpgs or action games...quite pathetic...but there aint many nice stuff around anyway...hiazzz
wanna buy zoe2, suiko 3, dark cloud 2..should try finish xenosaga first..but onli abt 1/2 way thru...hiazz....haha
bio really wrecks ur day fag.
fag.just one last ting to complain b4 i go mug bio
you bloody fat shit...piece of living lard...i am gonna beat the daylight out of u...u slow fat blob of shit...go to hell...asshole...not to mention run circles around u....
oh n u 2 u dick.....gonna split your nut head into half...bloody moron....
tt it...hav 1.5hrs to finish 2 chap of stinking bio. f the bio dept.
you bloody fat shit...piece of living lard...i am gonna beat the daylight out of u...u slow fat blob of shit...go to hell...asshole...not to mention run circles around u....
oh n u 2 u dick.....gonna split your nut head into half...bloody moron....
tt it...hav 1.5hrs to finish 2 chap of stinking bio. f the bio dept.
am seeing stars after doing physics for half an hour. no actually just wanna slack a while b4 i am forced to study stupid fag bio. yet so complain a little bit abt how faggorty bio is. and how it is such a waste of time cos i am sure wif the time spend studying bio i can study everything for physics n chem put together. what a waste of time. n realised tt i am actually not tt busy. cos i am slacking rite now. still got quite a bit of time to slack. onli busy when there is meeting of frens cos tt often takes up the whole day plus travelling n eating n blah blah. lol
carbo n lipids...f u man. n i am to do gp file. f tt too. in fact f common test, f sch, f the whole world. SCH SUX. it stinks. i should be doing something more worthwhile den rot in a shit hole...haha...
carbo n lipids...f u man. n i am to do gp file. f tt too. in fact f common test, f sch, f the whole world. SCH SUX. it stinks. i should be doing something more worthwhile den rot in a shit hole...haha...
today is a fucking fucked up day
no thanx to yfc and its screwed up booking system which leaves mi way behind and free for sun mon and tues..n..watever
and no thanx 2 something else
and no thanx to pw, of which i hav no idea when is the meeting. first it's on then off den on den off. omg. lyk make up ur mind k?
wondering y pple do so much cip..hmm i tink it is for the hours. seriously. no one i hav seen seems doing it for the saking of doing it. disgusting. and i hav no time to do any too. not tt i hav very much interest getting the hours. but tt sorta of requirement isnt it. would lyk to try tuition. sounds pretty fun...always enjoyed teaching pple work anyway...hmm...maybe i should go wif ziming.
i wish...to hav more flights...
i wish...hmmm presently nothing else...haha
considering i am relatively free for the next 3 days..must mug more. or else die. shall finish maths chap 6, dynamics, carbo and lipids today. tomolo do protein and water n MI.
hiaz sad.
no thanx to yfc and its screwed up booking system which leaves mi way behind and free for sun mon and tues..n..watever
and no thanx 2 something else
and no thanx to pw, of which i hav no idea when is the meeting. first it's on then off den on den off. omg. lyk make up ur mind k?
wondering y pple do so much cip..hmm i tink it is for the hours. seriously. no one i hav seen seems doing it for the saking of doing it. disgusting. and i hav no time to do any too. not tt i hav very much interest getting the hours. but tt sorta of requirement isnt it. would lyk to try tuition. sounds pretty fun...always enjoyed teaching pple work anyway...hmm...maybe i should go wif ziming.
i wish...to hav more flights...
i wish...hmmm presently nothing else...haha
considering i am relatively free for the next 3 days..must mug more. or else die. shall finish maths chap 6, dynamics, carbo and lipids today. tomolo do protein and water n MI.
hiaz sad.
Friday, June 13, 2003
knn. totally burnt today. fencing was porno, no one went. wth. waste my time. den stoning the rest of the day at jy house. the piano the guitar the com and soccer. soccer was quite fun. but a little rusty. den got some guy bloody brute. quite pro. but fagging brute. crazy nut case. odac having a bbq at ecp. haha. actually ken ask us to go help eat food. but den too pai seh. meet jacob! he say vj is total no fight. he was damn respected there. haha. saw siva buayaing at bus stop at marine parade. lol. haha. jacob said veri rpo stuff today haha. den say dis rj person at pp also. wah lan so much time. hiaz. knnbccb. i knew going to jy house confirm burn day one. but den still went. at least i got the bio notes. shall try and save the rest of the day.
btw..got pple go 5th sortie alreadi. n i am stuck at 2. WTF. NOT FAIR!!!!! training tomolo + yfc= day burnt. shit man. I WANNA MUG. cock. skip dinner. lol. am a little hungry noe shitz.
mug maths tutorial 5 and assignment 5
mug dynamics
mug carbo, lipids, proteins
mug chem bonding
not going cycling anymore...haha...must save time...having a lot of blisters...shall slp at 3 tomolo..hmmmm
btw..got pple go 5th sortie alreadi. n i am stuck at 2. WTF. NOT FAIR!!!!! training tomolo + yfc= day burnt. shit man. I WANNA MUG. cock. skip dinner. lol. am a little hungry noe shitz.
mug maths tutorial 5 and assignment 5
mug dynamics
mug carbo, lipids, proteins
mug chem bonding
not going cycling anymore...haha...must save time...having a lot of blisters...shall slp at 3 tomolo..hmmmm
Thursday, June 12, 2003
how come i am slacking..now i know what time went to lol...
metal gear solid 3: snake eater...rox....i cant wait for it to come out. mgs rox the house down. WOAH...give mi snake anytime...
oh yeah, did i say tt ss is bloody cool. omg....how shen...
metal gear solid 3: snake eater...rox....i cant wait for it to come out. mgs rox the house down. WOAH...give mi snake anytime...
oh yeah, did i say tt ss is bloody cool. omg....how shen...
life without school...simply rox big time...
i can get used to this anytime man...anytime at all...how shiok..off to slack den mug
should i play xenosaga????
i can get used to this anytime man...anytime at all...how shiok..off to slack den mug
should i play xenosaga????
just got back frm adrenaline rush. yfc is damn fun today. but again got to mug the pre start checks improve on taxying n mug the eoc 2 must also get new shoes....couldnt feel the rudders today. hahahaa. but my taxying is lousy lyk shit man. cant follow the line. think i shall take it lyk a com game n use more instinct instead of being so kan cheong. yeah relax n perform. got 5 out of 7. not too bad. hmm
ok must mug yfc.
n do tutorial 4 maths
study carbo and lipids
study atomic structure
wat a busy day. trying to figure out where i hav been flying. the onli place i see is yishun avenue 6...n semb airbase and bke and all the stupid trees and reservoirs can see a little of changi. lotsa of other buildings i dunno n just mayflower shit. WHERE IS PASIR RIS...ARGH... damnit. and soo cloudy. cant see shit. damn damn. but i saw lotsa of copters n planes. haha.
k bye. oh fag tomolo got fencing. oh shit. i no time to slp!
ok must mug yfc.
n do tutorial 4 maths
study carbo and lipids
study atomic structure
wat a busy day. trying to figure out where i hav been flying. the onli place i see is yishun avenue 6...n semb airbase and bke and all the stupid trees and reservoirs can see a little of changi. lotsa of other buildings i dunno n just mayflower shit. WHERE IS PASIR RIS...ARGH... damnit. and soo cloudy. cant see shit. damn damn. but i saw lotsa of copters n planes. haha.
k bye. oh fag tomolo got fencing. oh shit. i no time to slp!
Wednesday, June 11, 2003
2am. omg. i should hav slept earlier. feeling a little high now. had a nice supper. rox man. tink i shall mug for yfc tomolo morning just in case..dun wanna get kan again. anyway, looks like sunday might be burnt too doing pw. oh shit. fridays training is gonna be condducted by a gp teacher. oh shit. i got a feeling he is out to kill mi. pay back time for floorball. sucker shit. die liao. i got no time sia. how how how. shit. n my fren just hao lian he is si bei free. but i kinda lyk mi life now. except tt it is really too busy. maybe a slower life would do more gd.
hope tt tomolo will be nice. remind mi to hav early lunch n get a pen. knn. i am seriously lacking in time. dun plan to go out for the rest of the hols...i tink...no tt crazy. haha. I WANNA SLEEP
hope tt tomolo will be nice. remind mi to hav early lunch n get a pen. knn. i am seriously lacking in time. dun plan to go out for the rest of the hols...i tink...no tt crazy. haha. I WANNA SLEEP
tomorrow...hav yfc. n i hav to mug tt shit by tonite plus loads of other stuff. n it is loads. n i hate trying my best. yes tt sux too.
tonite...mug yfc..how am i suppose to finish all tt...hiaz.
..do assignment 3
..do chem tutorial 1 n 2
ahh yes...wasting time complaining when it doesnt help one bit. shall shower n put things in order. bye.
n i hav ipw. rox. life fucking rox. serious. i am happy. busy busy mi. bye
tonite...mug yfc..how am i suppose to finish all tt...hiaz.
..do assignment 3
..do chem tutorial 1 n 2
ahh yes...wasting time complaining when it doesnt help one bit. shall shower n put things in order. bye.
n i hav ipw. rox. life fucking rox. serious. i am happy. busy busy mi. bye
Tuesday, June 10, 2003
maybe i should start FFX...feel like playing something really heart wretching..or maybe play mgs and let meryl die...i need to see something sad now and maybe cry a little. but alas, i cant cry. been a while. 2 years. maybe. but on the other hand, maybe mugging would take my mind of things. i need to have some time to myself. locked up in a room and just have myself again.
under the moon
i cycled alone...
and the lights just went past one by one...and they never end...one after the other...
the road was long
passed many people, heard much laughter, but strangely felt unable to connect to the world...
just a general dissatisfaction with life
something is missing...i think i know what it is.
but the problem is...too much craving for that might make me less a human than i am already
but i think that is what i need
just stay focus and pull it through
it has been a long time since i tasted blood
and it makes me want it even more
i want blood by the gallons. ahh yes. that will bring happiness.
i just need to be happy and content with life. and i am missing blood
and it starts now. it has to be now.
I WANT THE WORLD RED WITH BLOOD
ARGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH
under the moon
i cycled alone...
and the lights just went past one by one...and they never end...one after the other...
the road was long
passed many people, heard much laughter, but strangely felt unable to connect to the world...
just a general dissatisfaction with life
something is missing...i think i know what it is.
but the problem is...too much craving for that might make me less a human than i am already
but i think that is what i need
just stay focus and pull it through
it has been a long time since i tasted blood
and it makes me want it even more
i want blood by the gallons. ahh yes. that will bring happiness.
i just need to be happy and content with life. and i am missing blood
and it starts now. it has to be now.
I WANT THE WORLD RED WITH BLOOD
ARGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH
today is damn unlucky
1. crashed wif yq. he got injured quite bad
2. smashed up his bike
3. on the way to pp nearly got killed by a car
4. the key broke in the lock
5. got thrown in the sea
6. the brakes died
7. it rained
8. broke rayners toenail
9. just got home
10. might hav to change yfc bookings. AGAIN WTF WTF WAT THE FUCK IS THE FUCKING PROBLEM
on the way home, i felt i am losing my little sanity tt i possess. i cant take it anymore. i probably should cancel the cycling trip and just fuck the wall at home. fuck it. total piss. n even tho now is just 9pm, i feel it is damn late n i will veri fuck up. you get it a not. i needed lights n there were none. so i just scream all the way home. scream n scream n scream. n i lied tt i was at pasir ris when i was at bedok. n i lied when i was at tampines tt i was at the bike shop. wat the fuck I NEED TO FEEL ALIVE...going in a DAMN BLOODY FUCKING CIRCLE trapped in my own double helix. i wan to be the 'son of liberty'. i need an aim. where am i going. and how am i suppose to get there when i dunno where am i going. and tt means i am heading to hell. hell. hell. i need a compass now
help help
dun wait until it is too late...i dun wanna regret anymore.
1. crashed wif yq. he got injured quite bad
2. smashed up his bike
3. on the way to pp nearly got killed by a car
4. the key broke in the lock
5. got thrown in the sea
6. the brakes died
7. it rained
8. broke rayners toenail
9. just got home
10. might hav to change yfc bookings. AGAIN WTF WTF WAT THE FUCK IS THE FUCKING PROBLEM
on the way home, i felt i am losing my little sanity tt i possess. i cant take it anymore. i probably should cancel the cycling trip and just fuck the wall at home. fuck it. total piss. n even tho now is just 9pm, i feel it is damn late n i will veri fuck up. you get it a not. i needed lights n there were none. so i just scream all the way home. scream n scream n scream. n i lied tt i was at pasir ris when i was at bedok. n i lied when i was at tampines tt i was at the bike shop. wat the fuck I NEED TO FEEL ALIVE...going in a DAMN BLOODY FUCKING CIRCLE trapped in my own double helix. i wan to be the 'son of liberty'. i need an aim. where am i going. and how am i suppose to get there when i dunno where am i going. and tt means i am heading to hell. hell. hell. i need a compass now
help help
dun wait until it is too late...i dun wanna regret anymore.
Monday, June 09, 2003
i kinda pity some pple.and probably myself too. not tt i need much pity cos in the end it is still my life but den again, argh. dunno wat to say. maybe i should stop coming here. just to see if it is really control you know. ya. maybe. like towards the end of mgs 2, it started becoming very weird. but tt was when the true story start. ya. u hav to fight for wat you believe in. tt is veri true. but den, it can be veri tiring. oh well, there was dis little scandal in the game. emma is hal's step sis. she like him but hal has an affair with emma's mum, forgot her name, n hal's dad killed himself cos of that. omg. incest. tt shocked mi. n all the talk abt living a legacy and be remembered...kinda reminds mi of FFVIII...squall said tt once you die you become a was..and they go he was this and he was tt. the past tense. n he didnt want tt. but tt inevitable isnt it?
oh well....shall slp. tomolo shall be a new day wif a fresh beginning..actually it is today. who cares
bye
oh well....shall slp. tomolo shall be a new day wif a fresh beginning..actually it is today. who cares
bye
this is so much more thought provoking den gp...the game played out lyk one long book. but it is kinda depressing at times. the first mgs was to look at how muc one is controlled by the genes, the second is how much one is controlled by information. so exactly how controlled by wat is still veri much unknown rite. at least i noe watever i am doing noe is not done of free will. kinda lyk sch. n mugging. but den again, how am i to noe tt not mugging is free will. wahh. i am crazy.
hideo kojima is a great man. the whole series is gd.
ok. back to the reality...maybe not....shall call it back to..hmm dunno wat. yeah anyway..it is really time to start studying. shall start tomolo
hideo kojima is a great man. the whole series is gd.
ok. back to the reality...maybe not....shall call it back to..hmm dunno wat. yeah anyway..it is really time to start studying. shall start tomolo
Sunday, June 08, 2003
just got back frm training. got to mug later
cycling trip is going on quite smoothly. tomolo is beach day for fencing. they r gonna go ecp to play or something. shall make use of tt to clock some bike hours n service it too. hehe.
recently hav been crazy...sat fencing n yfc sun yfc mon fencing tues fencing outing...tomolo hav to get my ass to bedok via bike at 12..den to ecp...den maybe go test the road to west coast. hmm. got to mug a lot to make up for lost time. no coach today again. but i did the drills. training was ok.
decided to change my yfc bookings via phone to hum ji to tell them face to face. haha shall do tt tomolo. hmm. pray wed no flight so can go fencing den thur n fri have. hehe
k bye. shall go shower. i love u. u love mi. we love each other. haha spastic. busy life. but quite enjoyable.
cycling trip is going on quite smoothly. tomolo is beach day for fencing. they r gonna go ecp to play or something. shall make use of tt to clock some bike hours n service it too. hehe.
recently hav been crazy...sat fencing n yfc sun yfc mon fencing tues fencing outing...tomolo hav to get my ass to bedok via bike at 12..den to ecp...den maybe go test the road to west coast. hmm. got to mug a lot to make up for lost time. no coach today again. but i did the drills. training was ok.
decided to change my yfc bookings via phone to hum ji to tell them face to face. haha shall do tt tomolo. hmm. pray wed no flight so can go fencing den thur n fri have. hehe
k bye. shall go shower. i love u. u love mi. we love each other. haha spastic. busy life. but quite enjoyable.
Saturday, June 07, 2003
just came back frm flying. wanna puke. second wave sux. but it is one heck of an experience. but i hav info overload. got to mug all the checks n taxying. n remember the landmarks. omg.
back to mgs2...shit i skip the cutscene quite pissed.
back to mgs2...shit i skip the cutscene quite pissed.
phew just got back frm yfc. kenna screw cos i was late. shit. tho was early at first. wth. haha but nvm. COS..I AM FLYING TOMOLO MUAHHHAHAHHA...n so i decided to be on n stay back n went to the hanger to rape the bloody plane upside down. did all the checks seen all the controls. pretty confident abt tomolo. probably mug a little at nite for yfc. n ETD tomolo will be 1105. hahaha.
really quite busy dis hols. hmm. n i made extra booking for yfc. yfc doesnt open on mon n sun. i booked whole of tues...thurs...fri..forgot which time i book...n wed...i tink she booked for mi. shit. must go clarify the booking. forgot when i made the bookings liao. lol. how screwed. confirm kenna scolding again. but if u seem damn timid n pepper watever u say wif sorry mdm n sir, they kinda become nicer. lol.
k BACK TO MGS 2....i must start mugging for ct too. haha. so happy.
really quite busy dis hols. hmm. n i made extra booking for yfc. yfc doesnt open on mon n sun. i booked whole of tues...thurs...fri..forgot which time i book...n wed...i tink she booked for mi. shit. must go clarify the booking. forgot when i made the bookings liao. lol. how screwed. confirm kenna scolding again. but if u seem damn timid n pepper watever u say wif sorry mdm n sir, they kinda become nicer. lol.
k BACK TO MGS 2....i must start mugging for ct too. haha. so happy.
Friday, June 06, 2003
yes! heard the best thing in a few wks...excused frm sch training cos it is a pure waste of time. fantastic. brilliant. wonderful. now on weds...i shall just hav to reach clementi at 7, instead of 2 30 n waste time until 7.
oh n screw u n u n u.
hungry. gtg eat. bye.
oh n screw u n u n u.
hungry. gtg eat. bye.
just read something really really gd. plain fantastic. wish i could write something lyk tt. but den again wif my trashy eng, no hope. but it is really damn gd. but one thing to add, losing is not winning, tt derrida, n running out of time is as gd as losing cos u cant win when u run out of time.
there is an alarming number of people wif fever dis days...abt 10 at least..offhand...sars revenge
n i hav read something tt was torn to shreds my some other thing. wow. anyway, was pondering abt wat my fren said. he said tt in the end studies is still the most impt. agreed tt y i am gonna study hard for the ct. but tt doesnt mean i am gonna let yfc kick mi out wifout a fight. after the time n effort spent, no way i am gonna let tt happen. no way.
and if many wrongs make a right...or if along the way to a right, i make many wrongs, it doesnt really matter, does it? in the end, if it is a right, yeah, i tink i will be satisfied. n i tink if i am satisfied, den tt enough. kinda selfish. but tt the way the world works.
so in the depths of the sixth night of the sixth month...i determine my priorities in life...
1. studies
2. fencing
3. yfc
4. preparing myself to achieve my ambition
...the rest shall...have to wait. n wait they shall. until such a time, where i hav either achieved my goals or hav given up on them.
there is an alarming number of people wif fever dis days...abt 10 at least..offhand...sars revenge
n i hav read something tt was torn to shreds my some other thing. wow. anyway, was pondering abt wat my fren said. he said tt in the end studies is still the most impt. agreed tt y i am gonna study hard for the ct. but tt doesnt mean i am gonna let yfc kick mi out wifout a fight. after the time n effort spent, no way i am gonna let tt happen. no way.
and if many wrongs make a right...or if along the way to a right, i make many wrongs, it doesnt really matter, does it? in the end, if it is a right, yeah, i tink i will be satisfied. n i tink if i am satisfied, den tt enough. kinda selfish. but tt the way the world works.
so in the depths of the sixth night of the sixth month...i determine my priorities in life...
1. studies
2. fencing
3. yfc
4. preparing myself to achieve my ambition
...the rest shall...have to wait. n wait they shall. until such a time, where i hav either achieved my goals or hav given up on them.
fencing capt said something really sensible. i am in support of tt. rite now. shall go bath den file stuff n make hols plan n plan on how to carry all the fencing stuff from clementi to seletar in 1hr 20min including time for lunch n showering. hmm. PROVIDED...training ends at 12. i tink it might be earlier. but u never noe. if it is later, i am pretty much screwed. but as always, being used to screw ups...i dun really hav a prob wif tt. haha
off to continue my pitiful n meaningless existence. right now, i havent found a reason for my being. n maybe there never will be...
he shut out the real world and enetered a fiction where others gave him instant recognition... ahh yes. how true.
off to continue my pitiful n meaningless existence. right now, i havent found a reason for my being. n maybe there never will be...
he shut out the real world and enetered a fiction where others gave him instant recognition... ahh yes. how true.
living a lie...the shield has become a shroud...just spent 6 hrs in a make belive world. n i feel lyk vomiting now. argh.
missed floorball twice in a row. hiaz. it sux to be sick. but i tink i can go for training tomorrow.
yfc will steal another 3hrs of my life tomolo. again. i got a feeling i will be kicked out cos i am not getting any of my bookings. so i tink it is a rather waste of time attending lectures n briefings if i kenna kick out halfway. some dead. havent even started on the first sortie yet. really gonner. got to make the most out of the hols to catch up.
slept at 8 yester in a bid to recover. tink tt it was a gd choice. but i am still kinda tired n hav block nose which makes mi unfit for flying. wth. being sick sux. i never ever wanna be sick anymore. hoping tt nothing will happen on tues the 17. i hav big stuff going on on tt day. pls. thanx
i tink i will file up on the papers i hav tonite. den start making a holiday plan. cant afford to waste anymore time. n speaking of time, fatman's thinking mirror mine pretty well i guess. but tt really kinda sad n pathetic. i would even consider it bordering on being weird.
laugh and grow fat
i will die here and my legend will start...too bad you wouldnt live to see the movies...
missed floorball twice in a row. hiaz. it sux to be sick. but i tink i can go for training tomorrow.
yfc will steal another 3hrs of my life tomolo. again. i got a feeling i will be kicked out cos i am not getting any of my bookings. so i tink it is a rather waste of time attending lectures n briefings if i kenna kick out halfway. some dead. havent even started on the first sortie yet. really gonner. got to make the most out of the hols to catch up.
slept at 8 yester in a bid to recover. tink tt it was a gd choice. but i am still kinda tired n hav block nose which makes mi unfit for flying. wth. being sick sux. i never ever wanna be sick anymore. hoping tt nothing will happen on tues the 17. i hav big stuff going on on tt day. pls. thanx
i tink i will file up on the papers i hav tonite. den start making a holiday plan. cant afford to waste anymore time. n speaking of time, fatman's thinking mirror mine pretty well i guess. but tt really kinda sad n pathetic. i would even consider it bordering on being weird.
laugh and grow fat
i will die here and my legend will start...too bad you wouldnt live to see the movies...
Thursday, June 05, 2003
argh. sick. fever a little sore throat. a little flu. 37.4. i dun tink it is a big issue. but must get better by tomorrow. cos 2molo is last day of sch. n got yfc n fencing on sat. cant miss tt. n on mon got fencing n going back to ri for soccer n planning the cycling trip for tues or the next. so there is no way i can fall ill now. tink i got it frm a friend shit. hiaz. n i am way behind in hw. missed quite a few lectures n dunno wat the hell is going on. n now mr body here decides to act up n piss mi off. feeling veri tired. joints r aching. gotta miss floorball tomorrow. shit. tt lyk totally pisses mi off. FUCK MAN. I WANNA PLAY.
just finished copying all the shit tt i missed. shall give mr body a rest today. go read something light n den slp. hopefully, i will feel gd tomorrow. n wif mi sacrificing floorball, expect to be fit for training on sat n mon. ipw is so dead btw. fuck. i am fucking tired n in a fucking bad mood.
go to hell fucker. go look at a mirror.
just finished copying all the shit tt i missed. shall give mr body a rest today. go read something light n den slp. hopefully, i will feel gd tomorrow. n wif mi sacrificing floorball, expect to be fit for training on sat n mon. ipw is so dead btw. fuck. i am fucking tired n in a fucking bad mood.
go to hell fucker. go look at a mirror.
Wednesday, June 04, 2003
should i do a comparision or write my own editorial?
in any case, i should go shower first. shall tink in the shower. hiaz. i really hate gp
btw just drank dis cup of chinese cold medicine. quite effective. my nose is less block. pro! but dis, i feel lyk shit. but i am quite happy tt i went for both trainings today. a sense of satisfaction. k bye. hopefully the next time i write will be on the completion of gp! lyk in 3 hrs time!!! gogogogogo
in any case, i should go shower first. shall tink in the shower. hiaz. i really hate gp
btw just drank dis cup of chinese cold medicine. quite effective. my nose is less block. pro! but dis, i feel lyk shit. but i am quite happy tt i went for both trainings today. a sense of satisfaction. k bye. hopefully the next time i write will be on the completion of gp! lyk in 3 hrs time!!! gogogogogo
crescent moon tonight. just got home frm fencing. sch training was a pure waste of time. it is getting worse cos they were doing nothing at all. haha. den some of them decided to mug. omg. disgusting. i was damn damn tired. kenna dis irritating flu. felt veri sleepy. just shag. but thankfully no fever. anyway, actually wanted to skip training today. but decided to go for both cos of wat rayner said n plus getting equipment n plus i dun lyk skipping stuff. anyway, coach training was fun cos got to do blade work. yeah. tt abt it. the irritating flu is making mi veri xing gu. help pls.
n i got lotsa of sutff to be completed.
in order of urgency n importance
1.gp editorial...must hand up by tomolo. tonite must do
2. copy chem n physics notes n return to ray tonite must do
3. copy maths notes frm someone. tomolo must do
4. gp file..wth
my nose. help. i am very xing gu. i tink shall hav to miss pe tomolo but but but, pe is now soccer. argh argh WTH!
n i got lotsa of sutff to be completed.
in order of urgency n importance
1.gp editorial...must hand up by tomolo. tonite must do
2. copy chem n physics notes n return to ray tonite must do
3. copy maths notes frm someone. tomolo must do
4. gp file..wth
my nose. help. i am very xing gu. i tink shall hav to miss pe tomolo but but but, pe is now soccer. argh argh WTH!
Tuesday, June 03, 2003
today's founders day is very very gd. fantastic. the ceremony was nice. n i got to see a lot of old fren, sing the batch song..tt was real touching..just lyk grad nite n grad ceremony. hmm. remembrance. took class photos n stuff. n just acted lyk my normal self. i was very very happy there. talked cock, n basically hang out n enjoyed the brotherliness. we reached at 9am n i just got home at 11pm. i really loved dis day. talked to many pple n teachers frm long ago. miss wong, mr tan, mr lee, mr wee, miss heng, mdm leong, mrs kua...those tt hated mi n those tt rather lyk mi...all the same...it wad really nice talking to them. miss wong said tt i always hav a gu gua lian. tt means a sad face. n salty soup. haha. later on tt. den went out to lan n dinner. had a lot of fun
on a side note, john truly is a remarkable person. i totally give him all my respect. n i believe 427 others do too. can see frm the number of times we stand during the valedictory speech. he is really gd. n i believe he will achieve a lot in the future be it scholarships or ccas or leadership stuff. fantastic guy.
but after the initial high, i hav dis sickening feeling. it is the feeling of emptiness. it was present in the begining of the yr. n subsided a while but now it is back. n worst. wat ri has given mi i always take frm granted. n now i guess i am shock at not finding tt in rj. it is back to the friends prob n just the general environment. it is just lyk a pressure cooker, the pressure just keep on increasing n increasing n increasing. n there isnt anyone out there to share the pressure wif you. not tt there aint any ri pple out there tt i can count on. but everyone seems to change once they r in sch. n change once they r out of sch. as such, u cant hardly rely on anyone. hiaz. n worst still, i find it exceedingly difficult to talk to newly meet pple. wat exactly am i to tell them? never liked pple to burden mi wif there probs. unless they r pple tt i know, n vice versa. tt makes sorta a wall between mi n all those new pple i meet. n i doubt i can ever make another real fren in rj. n tt sad. they say dis is the prime of ur life u noe. n u shoud be enjoying every moment of it. but i am not. tt y it shows in the gu gua lian. or rather as derrida says lacking of happiness is sadness. i am almost a walking zombie deviod of feelings. no frens in class. maybe 1. no frens in cca. onli old ones. no frens in yfc. no frens nowhere.
mdm leong talked to mi abt career n stuff
miss heng talked to mi abt long term investments...how she cant believe i was monitor n how rotten i was. n still. she is getting married in 2005 i tink. not going. hiaz. n still i felt happy talking to them cos they were memories of a happy past.
on a side note, john truly is a remarkable person. i totally give him all my respect. n i believe 427 others do too. can see frm the number of times we stand during the valedictory speech. he is really gd. n i believe he will achieve a lot in the future be it scholarships or ccas or leadership stuff. fantastic guy.
but after the initial high, i hav dis sickening feeling. it is the feeling of emptiness. it was present in the begining of the yr. n subsided a while but now it is back. n worst. wat ri has given mi i always take frm granted. n now i guess i am shock at not finding tt in rj. it is back to the friends prob n just the general environment. it is just lyk a pressure cooker, the pressure just keep on increasing n increasing n increasing. n there isnt anyone out there to share the pressure wif you. not tt there aint any ri pple out there tt i can count on. but everyone seems to change once they r in sch. n change once they r out of sch. as such, u cant hardly rely on anyone. hiaz. n worst still, i find it exceedingly difficult to talk to newly meet pple. wat exactly am i to tell them? never liked pple to burden mi wif there probs. unless they r pple tt i know, n vice versa. tt makes sorta a wall between mi n all those new pple i meet. n i doubt i can ever make another real fren in rj. n tt sad. they say dis is the prime of ur life u noe. n u shoud be enjoying every moment of it. but i am not. tt y it shows in the gu gua lian. or rather as derrida says lacking of happiness is sadness. i am almost a walking zombie deviod of feelings. no frens in class. maybe 1. no frens in cca. onli old ones. no frens in yfc. no frens nowhere.
mdm leong talked to mi abt career n stuff
miss heng talked to mi abt long term investments...how she cant believe i was monitor n how rotten i was. n still. she is getting married in 2005 i tink. not going. hiaz. n still i felt happy talking to them cos they were memories of a happy past.
Monday, June 02, 2003
must start managing time better n mug for common test n fencing n yfc. phew busy. and certain things hav to be sacrificed.
just read something....tt i shouldnt hav read.
you hav turned the tables. for u tt gd. but in the process..u broke many hearts. u stole the will n determination of many. u destroyed 2 yrs of pple's lives. u dismantled a team. u destoryed a tradition. u leave scars in all. n u banished us to mockery forever.
unlike a fairy tale...it just went down n down n down. there wasnt a fairy tale ending. n never will be.
you hav turned the tables. for u tt gd. but in the process..u broke many hearts. u stole the will n determination of many. u destroyed 2 yrs of pple's lives. u dismantled a team. u destoryed a tradition. u leave scars in all. n u banished us to mockery forever.
unlike a fairy tale...it just went down n down n down. there wasnt a fairy tale ending. n never will be.
today is happy day.
pe was great. played soccer lyk crazy. scored hat trick today haha. 2 headers n 1 grounder. haha. quite shuang. never scored so many headers in my life. haha. but it is cos of sx delivery. his cross all damn accurate. damn pro. den got one he cross but ivan miss just by 1 cm onli. he is super shen i just had to bend a little to head. first glanced to far post. quite cool. second was pure power. rite past the keeper. den the grouder is cos ray n i mis time the run. but so happen the ball fell to mi. haha. but den my passing horrible n crossing too. tried one corner. hit it out. wah lau. damn xia suay. passing must really improve. it is lyk shit. caused 2 goals cause of my poor n slack passing. n always mis pass. shit lar. must improve. tackling ok. dribbling not much.
ray's dribbling is shen. jasmeet is shen at everything. sx is also pro. must learn from them. tt y they in soccer team. n i am not. hmm.
i tink i should play for the class instead of against the class. they lyk quite piss wif mi. but i am not soccer shen wat. hiaz. i just wanna enjoy the game. so worked up for wat??
lessons were ok lor. gp thing said gl stuff. the new bio teacher lyk quite nice. but the best of all...tomolo no sch! but tomolo got a lot of lecture. shit man. must mug myself. n i got to write a gp editorial. hiaz. fencing wans 45 dollars for mi. wth. i dun care abt them liao. i just wanna go training n train hard n well. tt all. sch is stressful. cos to mi, sch is not fun at all. tt wat i wrote is some survey today. played a little floorball in class today. veri fun. training how to shoot wif more power. not bad. hmm. hope no yfc on fri so can play floorball. n pls let mi fly can?
stuff to do
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go look at diary haha.
bye. happy happy mi..!
pe was great. played soccer lyk crazy. scored hat trick today haha. 2 headers n 1 grounder. haha. quite shuang. never scored so many headers in my life. haha. but it is cos of sx delivery. his cross all damn accurate. damn pro. den got one he cross but ivan miss just by 1 cm onli. he is super shen i just had to bend a little to head. first glanced to far post. quite cool. second was pure power. rite past the keeper. den the grouder is cos ray n i mis time the run. but so happen the ball fell to mi. haha. but den my passing horrible n crossing too. tried one corner. hit it out. wah lau. damn xia suay. passing must really improve. it is lyk shit. caused 2 goals cause of my poor n slack passing. n always mis pass. shit lar. must improve. tackling ok. dribbling not much.
ray's dribbling is shen. jasmeet is shen at everything. sx is also pro. must learn from them. tt y they in soccer team. n i am not. hmm.
i tink i should play for the class instead of against the class. they lyk quite piss wif mi. but i am not soccer shen wat. hiaz. i just wanna enjoy the game. so worked up for wat??
lessons were ok lor. gp thing said gl stuff. the new bio teacher lyk quite nice. but the best of all...tomolo no sch! but tomolo got a lot of lecture. shit man. must mug myself. n i got to write a gp editorial. hiaz. fencing wans 45 dollars for mi. wth. i dun care abt them liao. i just wanna go training n train hard n well. tt all. sch is stressful. cos to mi, sch is not fun at all. tt wat i wrote is some survey today. played a little floorball in class today. veri fun. training how to shoot wif more power. not bad. hmm. hope no yfc on fri so can play floorball. n pls let mi fly can?
stuff to do
w
go look at diary haha.
bye. happy happy mi..!
