i am bored.....shit....n dirty n sticky....n tired....arghhhhh.....PW

was suppose to meet at 8 am for soccer......at AMK wth.....haha....then no people no ball no jb....went to hav a gd breakfast.....den play a bit wif yq ball....3 v 2.....how gay....specs kena smash...nick ankle sprain......i kena cheated by the shop uncle....can write most unlucky day compo liao.......challengers can....i think we were quite rpo n should hav won...but slacked at the end....should hav whacked damn hard n smash them....aiya.....nxt time......they quite fluke..but 7 not bad...that is the end of 1 wk trng wif out coach.nxt wk kena tekan liao.....die man.....maddness.....i hum ji liao....lol....

must wait for pw n play game.......quite slpy now.....haha....

on the topic of futures....i was talking abt uni with someone...i want to do wat i like....but i lack to courage to do it...wat i want is to design games....their storyline to be exact....their gameplay...i want to create the best fantasy worlds for pple to escape and enjoy for that few hours..n how i wish all this can come through now....i dun like the world i am in....it is too fucked up....too dishonest......too fake.....too undirect...too restricting......i wanna get out of here.......fast.....i dun want to be a normal person......i dun lyk.....i want to live my dream

interest is everything?..i guess so......revenge is everything too.....same for pride n fame....

pw is terrible.....gonna do it later.......

today is slack..trng was slack...erm...really slack..so i spend time talking to my senior to try understand more about their life and other stuff....know a great deal more now....hmm...tomolo trng is soccer at 8 am...lol....man..this is nuts...haha..but a bad omen...jb told mi there would not be hols for mi....trng will be MAD......shit.....ok i will take it as it comes.....train hard...nothing to lose anyway.....must start mugging soon too...the sats n the post promos stuff...

i tink i am complain a lot..but some pple complain even more than mi.....those pple should really die...dunno why julian look so piss today...n i feel tt my batch dun really hav a gd attitude at trng..hiaz...y so like that...anyway...today was spent on dc2 slp and trng.....did the basics.....must remember tt my knee dun over extend......is dead...n talk a bit of cock......ok i am not making any sense.......


jia you jia you..go there and thrash everyone

tt the first encouragement i got in ages....from an unexpected source.....but then tt nice....nxt week coach come back liao......si le...haha...

i am piss wif a lot of pple for a lot of reasons......i tink they can tell.....

i will make u eat back all ur words u dog.....bastardly bitch........today pe was soccer..how fun hey! but i sux lol!!!.....den i totally lyk fuck abt in all the lect.....man.......how slack....just not listening and cocking abt.......lyk tying the tape to gin ways bag.....wtf hahahahaha

shit hav to shower n pia pw..or else die......havent touch dc2 in a long time.......gin way talk cock abt fencing today...lyk wat the hell.....the clinic was spas.....but ok.....but still spas........n i hav nto studied anything tt is not in the promos not done any work.....basically........just fuck care sch for now........wtf.....i dunno power series....p n c..alkene physics prac....transport in animals or wat shit....ok

stuff to do tonite:
shower pw

k bye

bloody toenail.......damn pain........bloody tin cans......bloody life.......bloody hell.......this SUX

pissed.......today many things happened....n things just got worse....but some parts of today was wonderful.....but then some was crazy.....i am too darn fucking tired frm fencing to write wtf

pissed n angry for no reason......hahaha...i am screwed......trng is painful blister.....

tomolo got.....havent touch any work.....i just want fucking sch to end fucking NOW fuck it fuck pw fuck myself bye

i sign up some job shadowing.....fuck clash wif training fuck must beg coach..........so i shall be more on until 24 to make up n please him........might not get in anyway

wat s paper to take hmmmmmmmm.......physics? chemistry? mathematics? biology? hmmm wat the hell go eat SHIT!

oh n gangster lyk is not gangster lor.....wth......i am a nice person....if u dunno tt u r stupid........lol.......no maybe not........lol

reading abt people wanna die is no fun at all......darn...crazy

oh shit i got bashed up in dc2....wah lau......sian keep on game over.....shall try again tonite....

nearly got hp confiscasted today....got the contacts..still havent mug for sats nor pack my room

n today.......i felt the same feeling.....i cant really share happiness with people around mi.....how do u do it......n i steer clear of comforting pple cos i sux at tt too......sometimes it isnt my fault tt i cant really be a gd talker....but then again....i am a bastard......watever......i dun bother people much with my troubles anyway......speaking of which i jus hav 1 major problem........no time liao........fuck it n get moving!

weird day with ups and downs.......for one i am really please with my result......i never thought that i would do so well.....so yup.....grateful.....but i think some of it flunk one...so i better put in more hard work next time......

n hav to move on to more upsetting stuff.....i noe we sux n i sux....but i tink wif determination, nothing is impossible......if not......i alone will prove u wrong...it affected mi a great deal.....i had tt feeling all the time.....but this is really it.......i will hav to face it.......n conquer......i cant be beaten...no where.....if they can i can too.......FUCK IT. pysche up.....everyday every second every minute......until success is achieved.....i cant hardly imagine the way he said it.....it must have been horrible.....yes i am sad n disappointed......amazingly i dun feel the usual angry......there isnt any fire...but a fierce intense pride in myself will drive mi onwards to defend the evils of earth....

most hopeful of them....but all still hopeless
most potential....but all still fucking lousy like shit....fucking loseristic pathetic fucks

fuck i need to tidy my sch stuff n get ready for sch FUCK

the world sure is changing......never in my entire life did i imgaine i will be up at 12 15am on a day monday getting back my results.....on the wed searching more tin cans for flag day..........lyk wtf pls........lol

i cut myself wif the nail clipper.....damn it.....painful......

i can get use to my present life of stoning abt.......how nice..........i need some time for myself ok.......darn......lol........

anyway.....i was trying very hard to think abt some stuff........hiazz

oh n i tink team sports are great......fencing is very individualistic......did i get the fucking spelling rite......darn......fuck u lar.....sian leh.....kao bei kao bei

i dun wanna go back to sch tomolo..darn.....

i hav lost 2 long post consecutively......i am pissed n shall not type anymore WTF

i am feeling a little unsettled too cos results coming back on mon........pray pls.....lol.......n my room is STILL untouched..........shit.......how to pack so darn messy....i need a maid man.....HELP.........

n today, i used a pen to write something....n i couldnt really control my hand......it always happen.......after exams cos i slack to much....lol..........

wats so worth it? wats so pro abt tt? u know...in the past....i was probably in ur shoes.......think it would be great.....but then...the price might be too high to pay.......besides.....u will get lonely....n it is the pressure to maintain.....not tt i dun enjoy it.....but sometimes.......maybe u should appreciate your life more.......i am trying to do tt noe........i tink i am really lucky yes.......but when i tink of my ultimate aim and my reasons.....i feel it disgustingly foolish.......but tt the way i am....n at least i hav satisfied myself......

i tink my life is a continuous cycle of revenge.........lol........i need to get away frm all this n do wat i lyk most........

sian ma........it is so dangerous out there......argh....scary.......

yester trng was weird....lol......but on the way home it was even more weird......cos i saw double helix tattoo........lyk wat the fuck........3 girls 3 double helix.......wat the hell.....the world is changing.....

when home n went t o sleep....wat the hell.......

today did pw....at least the report is done........den.......went home....i tink i am a more homely person these days probably cos of the ps2........planning a cycling trip tt was cancel.....n i just broke one more toe nail.........yeah man great

n how loser can i get........i am more winner than u.....die sucker haha......

my mama is trying to get mi out of the house.......she suggested going taka.....but no way man........i am too tired too sian too slack and too stone........

n tomolo i need to go ps lyk wtf..........i need to run away from gays n gay friends.......i need some normal company pls......thanx

fucking haha........

oh shit results on mon pw.......wat the fuck.....i will pia game tonite......n pia pw tomolo....

damn blister is 131423453345 more painful now..............pain lar

yo noe i hav dis disgusting sinking feeling tt i am gonna sink n sink n sink n drown.........WTF WTF WTF CHEE BY............u noe? u dunno........u bloody moron fuck off...........stupid useless piece of shit wif no brains no sense no heart no eyes........u dick head.......i will chop of ur head n ur balls n every other choppable part u fuck.............

u just watch...........ahahahhahahahahaha lol

wat the hell am i cocking abt?

just sign up sats fuck so fucking troublesome........fuck it.....useless cock.....pw is worse crap.........

oh n it is so gay to go around saying bro here n bro there lyk......hey tom BRO....hey nick BRO......say wtf fuck it man..........so gay........go eat shit thanks.........

oh man......training tomolo........my blister is terrible lol hahaahahah......hiazzz rotting away.....shall go shower.......n go play n then think next wk........fuck must be thinking soon..cant stop the degeneration......but i lyk to play.....hahahaha wtf am i talking abt fuck it

okokok.........go eat shit haha

wah seh....training was tiring today...wah i am tired........oh n got smashed up damn terrible....chee by.......fuck lost to everyone........after n ok start........yq julian nick......wah lan.....5-4 leh wat a fuck........hahahaha

oh on a separate note........i must get back all tt i lost.....n more....time to pull away for the pack seh.......

pw sux......waste time in sch....fuck u
went to lan......wah lan...i am pathetic n there is training tomolo yeah.

can everyone if not all fuck off n die.......chee by

i must rather piss people of than having people screw my life..fuck u pls

day 2 after promos......i feel lyk a free person again.......ahh....i should treasure dis feeling more.......2 days of fun......is great........i cant really describe it.....

and i skipped lunch today to play dc2........hahahaha....i am damn hungry now....but too tired to cook......shit i should hav a wife to cook for mi hahahaha

and did i mention tt pple in sch always feel pain n hurt.......hahaha.....

n i suddenly remember tt i used to love collecting piggy banks....haha.......

n i suddenly remember tt at the age of 9 or 10.........i got bullied by my relatives n got chuck out of their house.......i will never forget tt.......u pple will pay....retribution my friends.....die....

pw on mon die
tues die
wed die

fuck u n die

went to watch infernal affairs 2.........either i was darn tired........or the show was darn boring fall asleep at the last part.....8 50 leh ahaha........got home by the last train......wah lan......almost thot i couldnt make it ahahha.....

bought dark cloud 2 by a stroke of luck........HAHAHAHAH damn fun.....i have been playing it for approx lyk 4 hours? haha tired n sian

i dun tink i will go play soccer later...........................................PW sux

seen true power n got some advise......i tink they like mi.......no

disgusting

5-4
0-5
2-5
2-5
4-5
7-15 wat the fuck........wat a first day after promos

plus diaoing fuck

u wan break i wan break......but no wan wan to give break.......fuck

fucckkkkk.........die bastards........HAHAHAHAHHA......die die die..........

my life is terrible.............

go eat shit

damn fucking jumpy....damn fuck

hiazz down down down the drain.....fuck u...scaring myself....hahahaha.....go eat shit sucker....

wow.....i dun make any sense....as usual....haha

actually could cheat during physics but i didnt......as usual ....but i didnt so proud of myself........but if i dun get an A tt will be a different story ahha touch wood......

physics ok...should get a

dissed wif the calculation n time restriction on mcq...fuck.......haha

1 down...4 to go....argh...actually quite happy now a little scare compo out of point....but i dun tink so....hahaa just worried....damn

yester....i was so deep in thought...i walked across a road n nearly got killed by a darn car....n today...i was so deep in thought...i forgot to cross the road when the green man was flashing.....great

i just bought mum a present....i just bought myself a trip to hell

and nick finishes his promos tomorrow...i start mine tomorrow....yeah...fuck

i hate sleeping early...but i always do...fuck...i shall sleep at 11 today...for gp tomolo..HAHAHAHAH i shall go read my post during CT to relive ahhaah

still feeling fucked......slept the day away yester...cos i screwed the fucking alarm clock...n played fifa today...ok...

treacherous bastard.....s.....damn.....argh.....

scenairo 1

i want 2 s papers...thanks....
tt will cost you 4509383045 hours of mugging....
ermm i didnt bring enough.....
ahhh....how abt taking one?
fuck....go to hell.....*whips out a double barrel shotgun n blow him/her into pieces* hahahahahaha
now can i hav 2? hahaahahaa

scenairo 2


i want 2 s papers...thanks....
tt will cost you 4509383045 hours of mugging....
ermm i didnt bring enough.....
ahhh....how abt taking one?
ok....buy 1.....fuck it....

i prefer scenairo 1.....anytime...

just thought of something.....if u are a taekwando black belt second dun....who u announce it to the world? i wouldnt..but i am not one....hahahaha

the world is getting very dark n cold n lonely...but soon it would be....fuck bye....

wat a wonderfully fuck up day......chee by

a little happy and lot sad........

fuck.....wat was right seemed right i seemed wrong n nothing seems correct. u dun understand.....help....

its is gonna rain soon..i am sitting in front of the window.afar......lightning.n clouds.....the wind is nicely strong......in fact lotsa lightning but no thunder.....n there seems to be a spotlight in the sky somewhere.....hmmm......i lyk the weather........tomolo nothing much....see coach......hmmm.......tt all.slacking.....havent touch a thing yet.......in time i might regret....yeah maybe.....haha.....n i read a gd article abt the education system in system.very gd indeed should use it for gp..but i really lyk the why it was written.....hmmm tt besides the pt though

last nite......i was listening to the radio....n i heard some very ironical n nice n sad stuff.......oh well......a lot of lightning now....home alone for now..but not for long....yes the only thing tt disrupted my education was schooling.....i should have just done something different in the past....hmm...listening the radio again....wow...amazing story.....wow.....but i tell u....never be the best friend...hahaha.....n dun be irresponsible.........hahahaha

messy messy.....haha...anyway i really enjoy the time i spend wif my friends...or the gay gang tt according to jasmeet haah....but hey man....sch life is more bearable cos of u pple.....btw the wind is consistently v strong now......nice n cooling...sailing ahhh...nvm

sometimes.....time should really be turned back...den maybe i will do things differently...hahaha.....but then again tt wouldnt be mi....oh in the end i will be the onli one left....

the story on the radio is yong gan shou ai ni....tt means say i love u bravely...haha oh man.....haha

the wind is damn strong 20knots at least.....will hav to hike out fully

k bye sad sad day......

you know wat....fuck it......haha

after 18 oct.....i shall go plunge myself into developing my project n den send it for a competition where hopefully i might win something n all the companies come look for mi.....ok thanx.......wat a dream......but first promos

so i shall now go do so maths n read fucking bio
but even more first......i shall watch some tv......

fuck.........wat fucking english am i using.......singlish........oh what the fuck....so logically speaking.....i dun think gp would be a bearer of gd news....lets hope that i dun screw up to badly ok? yeah baby........fuck it......

hiazz.....i feel so fucked up...hiazz must be the screw up today....read something abt binary oppositions.....n i thought of a gd intro to my essay...but it never materialize into words......oh my.......never do gp......die lar........n feeling the heat for the coach and co. n the exams too.......u noe......i was wondering wat if i screw up......seems lyk a high chance lar......so basically i tink i will be upset....maybe.....i wonder if wat other pple will say.....probably laugh.....no way.....i dun wan to be laughed at.....NOOOOOOOO......i dun want to be a he was......to be history........NOOOO....the world is evil.........it is me....vs the evil world.......hey.....my and the world.......everyone is out to get me........but i wont let them........i will kill all the evil bastards....HAHAHAHAHA.......die die die die die....maybe the end of the road was come......the end...........as julian put it.....retrenched.....i am 17......it is time to stand up for my own rights.......i will negotiate to win...if i dun, then i can only think of wat might wat can.....n wat was....i am not making any sense.....i tink i am senseless.......i feel lyk crying......haha...i dunno y.......pent up inside.......the evil evil evil world.....but i dun hav any tears left.........they sort of dried up as i grew up........haha.....one day......i will kill all those hav wronged mi.....yes....

i must admit.....the road..the journey....the dream might be ending soon.......or has it already ended.....but i will try to save it......to make it last tt bit longer......hey....remember the 4 years......u cant let go now........yes....go for it....no excuses......no failures....no regrets.........

it has been tooo long.......n once it is gone....so will all of the rest.....dun let it go....

bye.

sian lar......i today feeling veri bu shuang shit........n i keep on making dumb mistakes........shit lar......xin bu zai yan.....fuck fuck fuck

CHEEEEEEEEEEBYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY I M GONNA KILL ALL OF U BASTARDS

how badly fucked can i get.........fucked for both promos n fencing fuck.

i hav been sleeping at 10 30 wtf.......shit mugging form is damn poor.....maths keep on doing wrongly n screwing up in lect....pe was fun today.....ljb go n eat shit pls...thanks....ken's bday...HAPPY BIRTHDAY..i hope today will be a long long day.........i need to start peaking soon

skip training for the 3rd day.....fuck it...

today i just need something.....thanks pple.....

ok i just go fuck a wall...........bye!

i will be a tiger HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHA......tt was damn funny n spas....k bye fuck pls...thanx

skipped bio lect wow
skipped two trainings and many more wow....wat a fucking bastard
slacking wow
fuck wow....

oh n a lot of my relatives tink i sound lyk my dad
oh n a lot of my classmates tink i am happy
oh fuck it is really noise all of a sudden....

a lion dance troupe is downstairs...there are a few guys n girls my age........ i always wonder how did they join such a thing...how is their life lyk.hmmmmm