i have seen it....indeed, a long yr of trying ahead...gd luck to myself...it is time to live the dream...n the price will just be hard work...wouldnt let myself down in anyway...

u n i..we are the same.....

for pride, honour and myself.......

on a separate note...i forgot my password...i am quite sure it is somewhere....miw.com.sg is really screwed up...despite answering my secret question correctly, i dun get any email......dun tell mi i screwed it up myself man....troublesome....

2 recommendations today...

www.ofoto.com

pls do urselves a favour....this is a very gd...i would say best if i knew of more image hosting sites, but i dun...site to store pics and photos....clean layout, little restrictions on file size except everything has to be JPEG i tink..but tt easy rite....A FABULOUS EXPERIENCE...

A tale of 2 quakes.....1/1/2004 Straits Times...

this is a very good atricle for secondary sch geog students oh the effects of earthquakes...prevention etc...use it as EXAMPLES....forget those old ancient examples in M. Chong...this is geography at its best! a major plus would be the names of the place are so darn short....which will be certainly an advantage during exams....LIKE BAM EARHTQUAKE LOL...BAM MAN....tt the ultimate time saver!

i dunno how to do gp...how....in the end.it doesnt really matter..cos i will get it done

i think i will go read the newspapers first....and do some DIY home imrpovement....k

i am feeling an overwhelming sense of saddness. sch is reopening. n i hate tt.

The Turtles
Imagine me and you, I do
I think about you day and night, it's only right
To think about the girl you love and hold her tight
So happy together

If I should call you up, invest a dime
And you say you belong to me and ease my mind
Imagine how the world could be, so very fine
So happy together

I can't see me lovin' nobody but you
For all my life
When you're with me, baby the skies'll be blue
For all my life

Me and you and you and me
No matter how they toss the dice, it has to be
The only one for me is you, and you for me
So happy together

I can't see me lovin' nobody but you
For all my life
When you're with me, baby the skies'll be blue
For all my life

Me and you and you and me
No matter how they toss the dice, it has to be
The only one for me is you, and you for me
So happy together

Ba-ba-ba-ba ba-ba-ba-ba ba-ba-ba ba-ba-ba-ba
Ba-ba-ba-ba ba-ba-ba-ba ba-ba-ba ba-ba-ba-ba

Me and you and you and me
No matter how they toss the dice, it has to be
The only one for me is you, and you for me
So happy together

So happy together
How is the weather
So happy together
We're happy together
So happy together
Happy together
So happy together
So happy together (ba-ba-ba-ba ba-ba-ba-ba)

read the lyrics, hear the song, and you will know the commercial...

woah...she is really really really pretty and cute...lucky brad pitt.....LOL

woah...tonight the moon is half and the sky is filled wif stars.....i can see all these from my room..woah!...so 2003 has passed n here comes 2004...gonna be a heck of a yr...a long one indeed....hiazz

GUNDAM is so similar to ZOE...i dun think it was a wise decision to buy it....but since i am rather interested in the story and the mechs are kinda cool..i will be playing....and finishing mobile suit gundam....will give my after thoughts...but first......DARK CLOUD 2.....XENOSAGA...which unfortunately doesnt not live up to the billing...but i will still finish it LOL....

5. will improve both spoken and written language....

this is the first yr....i tink, i spent a new yr away frm home...at yf's house tt is...wif jy julian n pork...it was a great party..the food was good and so was the company...yf's mougs beads bear is really nice...i recommend it to any and everyone...i tink i hav said this in earlier post but at yf's insistence...a lot of his relatives came too...n his two rafflesian cousins..played bridge in 3047207123 yrs and won all except 2 games..i wonder y bridge is so addictive..i think it is absolutely boring....but we missed the countdown while watching flares released by the ships anchored along east coast...tt a first too...GAY....

2003 passed too fast....2004 will too...but tt will be for another post....

i wonder what are the boon lay pple doing now......was it fun?

i tink i still have to do 40 hours of cip.....hiazz...think of it makes mi sick.....i tink i will do 50 hrs next year to atone for all the sins....so

resolution 6. sing all for any and all cips i see.....TT A MUST....

really must write all these resolutions down in my diary...oh n b4 i forget, shoot i forgot alreadi.....oh no.....i have to go get one of those plastic mini drawers yf has, by the tons, to put in my stationary....the IDEAL STORAGE PLAN...

ok......here is something stupid i did today.......damn......anyway after exchanging the game for mobile suit gundam...i went to the library to return the books. at the library, i signed up for the library's internet crap then i saw a fricking timer whihc appeared out of no where......on it states grace period 30mins..GAYGAY..panic when i saw the darn timer, n the price of 3 cents per min...shut down the computer n scram to the coutner to ask th elady for some clarification...it seems...the 30 mins grace period is free n onli available for the first logon......so GAYED....

i onli used lyk 5 secs of the 30 mins available......DAMN IT.....n yf is now bugging mi abt how hokkiens are so vuglar....

i am awafully bored......n if when i get home the game doesnt work..i will be some damn pissed...tt y i plan to give the game away as i gift to someone i dun like LOL............gayyyyyyyy

hi.....i am currently at yf house...if this is not called wasting time....i dunno wat is....his keyboard keys are terribly small.......damn...

anyway, went down to tampines just now to change my game...according to the guy there, there is some prob wif a batch of freedom fighters....etc...etc...so i changed it to ahh MOBLIE SUIT GUNDAM: ENCOUNTERS IN SPACE....i tink it is very similar to ZOE..but not as gd.......i tink..the reviews are of extreme ends....so yeah..hard to say....i always prdie myself wif buying gd quality games....but now...hiazz...........hope tt it works tho....DARN freedom fighters.... I HATE EA....they are gay....

the freedom fighters worked there th......i am damn pissed........damn it...

yfs mogus bead bear is really not bad....but i wouldnt spend so much on a bear....hav loads of work to do...but i dunno how to start......damn.....

tomorrow will be the last day of the hols, so i think i will just camp at home lar...play some games...watch beauty and the beast do gp....sickening....sickening....

oh i am considering whether to do a year end review.....there is still 5 more hours....i tink not cos i am 1. lazy, 2. n the year passed, 3. i will regret many things which doesnt make sense..as it has passed 4. it JUST SUX

so i think i will make some new year resolutions.....

1. train for napfa test.....esp 2.4km n pp.....
2. try to go for an overseas competition for fencing
3. mug like a total fag for a scholarship
4. be a nice person...esp to my frens n my teachers.....esp gp....LOL

n i wish for world peace LOL.......great.........

went to changed the game.......they didnt hav a set to test......i suspected the whole batch of freedom fighters is SPOILT...........COS MY IS SPOILT AGAIN......WAT THE HELL.....gonna waste another trip down......this time i definitely am not gonna leave without testing or changing a different game........GAY...THE FAMILY MUST THINK I AM CRAZY GO DOWN TWICE..........WTF fucking hell......

DAMN PISSED.....

talked to an old fren today......n my right arm is damn numb....i tink i should amputate it.....

4. mug lyk shit....scholarshit....LOL

n singaporeans are fucking unhelpful....today i have many things to do.....shant waste time here....bye.....screw gp....

i shall publish a full version soon....meanwhile...here are my 2004 new year resolutions

1. train 2.4km run
2. train pp
3. bamsif

....more to come.....my wrist is damn mother pain now.....damn it

this will be one heck of a post....be prepared...

anyway..today is day 11 living in the west...and so was my house warming....almost all came except for mug seng...n i received very useful presents.....woah..thanks guys...will keep the wrappers and stuff....really appreciated it....yf was first...den came julian n gang..n alvin ong n wk n nick tsao.....who sadly didnt get to go to my house..sorry tsao....

so the day was spend eating the catered food..which looked good n tasted ok......but not really worth 300 bucks.....could have bought fast food or something which would have be better if not for the sake of some class n a nice experience as i hav never catered b4....lol..but on the whole food was ok...loads for everyone to eat n service was gd..except tt due to taste...thou shall not cater forever...bye bye 300 dollars...lol

eating n playing the ps2 n catching up n messing up MY ROOM.....i found prawn shells n cups in my room....omg! n the cds were messed up! lol..den we decided to go play soccer.....we were spying the court using the bino....lol...reached there abt 6? n played first to reach 100 or first to 5 st. goals kinda of sadistic lame rules....lol....tsao came...n by some crappy luck.....TEAM IVAN...scored 5 consecutive goals....gay...n bought a drink.....n den we resumed after some crap talk.....

event of the day.....

midway thru the game....yl was ogling n some pretty girl playing bball....when he saw someone causually walk by and take something from the stone platform tt we placed our bags....i saw him too....i dun think anyone else did..i was thinking whether he was a thief.....as i couldnt see clearly without my specs....but i just sorta stand there..wif many thoughts running through my mind.....den yl said check all ur stuff....something tt i wanted but didnt said...someone den said check hps! n i checked n found mine.....n didnt bother abt my WALLET...n den someone again...yl i think said follow him...so i jo out through TEAM IVAN'S goal towards the male subject...den he turned back....presumbly hearing our concerns n saw me.....n bolted......i didnt know tt he stole anything.....n at tt instance i thought..ok thief here....n i ran after him....tt bastard had a 20m lead....i chased past the block...n couldnt see him....den i saw a white flash running to my 2 o'clock...n i chased......halfway through... i was damn tired due to the soccer session n i was FUCKING SCREAMING throughout saying something lyk catch the thief..run past a couple of pple......NOT A FUCKING BASTARD CHEE BY SELFISH FUCKED UP SINGAPOREAN DID A FUCKING THING.....N THERE WAS DIS BASTARD YOUNG MAN TALKING AWAY ON HIS HP LOOKING ONE.......BASTARD FAG....CHEE BY.DAMN PISSING......ok.....meanwhile jian yuan placed his 100PLUS bottle down b4 chasing......jp n porko chased for 10m...couldnt see us n doubled back to ziming who was imoblisied by a blister to call the polic....yl n tsao was guarding the bags.....afang n ken give chase.....they said they couldnt see but could hear mi... ken asked an indian in chinese where are my friends LOL...n he said he was swearing KNN throughout...LOL.....julian asked a guy who said dun whack the thief if u catch him...gayness....BASTARD SINGAPOREANS.....

ran past a carpark n through block 102 or 103 n through some grass b4 the thief stopped..i was dead tired....might have stopped lol...thank god he stopped wat alousy thief....no stamina no spd no brains to hid behind corners,cars,up the HDB blocks DAMN DUMB BASTARD....n i grabbed him....n i had the intention...a little....to let him going...after he handed me the wallet...things changed..cos it was my wallet...i actually told him go say sorry to my friends as i thot he stole their stuff...I AM DAMN BLUR TODAY....i wanted him to be outnumbered..didnt lyk 1v1....was worried he had a knife or something....n i saw my wallet......n he was going to the police.....ken n fang arrived 30sec? later...n jian yuan....n the rest....i was afraid he would run n grabbed him by the shirt......he swear at mi a few times....n said paiseh sorry etc many times......but no use one lar...i was raving according to the others...i thrashed talked him for a while as he tried to pry personal information like school and house address from me...he knows them noe....thanx to the lousy police.....the police came 20 mins LATER......handcuffed tt bitch....n started a lenghty process of paperwork.....they even joke with the thief....OMG.....THEY SHOULD BE FUCKING HIM!.....n he peep at all my details and stuff..n from the looks of it...he is hardcore.....not even afraid of the police...my dad tried to get him some leniency.....mt wrist his hurting from this typing.....anyway yl did great n should get his award....if he does..wat will chelsea say? n thanx all bros who helped......they den went to treat me to a drink...n the bloody FUCKER thief was given water to drink by us! fucking bastard.....if it was mi alone....he would have been tortured......n the gang walked mi home......

we did led the police to the crime scene n was afraid tt we might get booked for soccering illegaly.....LOL......damn gay...n everyone noes the thief......omg....i shall hide in my house forever...............

eventful day...too bad tt bastard stopped b4 i get him....trying to worm his way out of the situation i think.....sly cunning bitch...or else i would hav tackled him so hard i will break his back......there is a damn mosquito flying abt....GAY.......

actually this post doesnt do any justice to the event....it could have been a book....now i am wondering whether i leaked out my pin to the police and thief who will take my wallet for a month for investigations!!! FUCK.......

today....yf wasted my 1 hr......to hell wif u

anyway, i went to get presents for myself...lol......
I BOUGHT A BOOK.....lol.....my first since harry potter bk 5.....it is called street boys.....not bad quite nice.....but it wasnt the book i intended to buy....i wanted to get these 2 books but one my fren has.....n the other the library has.....LOL.....so i got this book.....but if the library has it......den i tink i hav wasted my money......i hope tt.......y buy n u can borrow...LOL......anyway i got it at a dirt cheap price of 4.15 bucks.....cos of 15% discount at borders n the 10 dollars voucher.....any i wonder if everyone read the books there......who buys them....borders was swarming if people......NUTS.......

den i trained ALLLLLLLL the bloody way to tampines to buy 3 ps2 games........tt shop is really my favourite......den hav everything n is cheaper den tt pathetic crappy roadside stall at jurong which has no variety n so x......spend 25 there on ffx-2, freedom fighters and ace combat 4....but FREEDOM FIGHTERS is spoilt.......damn lar........it better not be my sets problem...i actually wanted to check the damn disc b4 i left......hiazzz


GAY GAY GAY..........

omg..i totally forgot abt.....change rhythm...step lunge jump lunge.....etc....etc......all i did was lunge............N FUCKING MISS.........wah damn piss....last one.....onli hit once on the lunge.......gayness...fuck.......must train the speed liao......

gay day..10 cuts on my hand......cheated a silver back...but i dun feel very satisfied with my personal performance...5-9 jay...should try n not miss so much? hi! i tink i onli hit once? den the nxt bout really flat liao....cant move.....hiaz hiaz......must do my best for next yr man....onli abt 1 yr left? wth......at least i must try beat the seniors? they r all damn damn damn zai......so pro.......yeah....n my batch is fucked up.....or at least most of the pple r......damn it........

damn tired.......hand damn man.........hiaz i dunno wat to feel.....gayness.....f f f f f ......lol......my idols r all too fucking pro.....lol

lets get some sleep now.....adrenaline....but nothing can be compared to those two days in sec 3....nothing.......

damn the dumb right knee..of all times....now painful...argh...u noe....i wonder when will it be my turn to become them......watever

anyway...gd luck to newcastle......they BETTER WIN.......THOSE BASTARDS........n gd luck to myself...n my team.......

long day tomorrow......it can be a happy one or a totally fucked up one........i cant believe i got over pesta.........revenge.......

my brother spends too much on unecessary stuff....moron....27th....at least a silver man....at least....time to get a job done.....in 24 hours time.....we will know....i will be back here....n a happy man i shall be

my right hand seems to have some nerve problem......it is so numb and weak everyday......a porbable cause might be over-usage of the computer..

gp indeed is a troublesome subject...

soak the pressure.......soak soak.......time to fuck spiders.......

christmas is over.....i am feeling sad...hiazz......had this seafood dinner today.....was it considered a christmas dinner? i dunno n i dun care.....in the car with my brother driving is a distressing experience....

i tink i have seen the FF X ending........wtf.....i havent even finish it....
i watched a little of billy elliot....
i loved tt jap serial.....too bad ending nxt thrus......

bloody hell gb a little......27th.....strong men.......we are....

its a cult....i am so darn sure of tt......but they will think i am nuts..so i better just shut up and say nothing....aiya......the sad people of the world..unfortunately...tt includes mi....

omg omg omg 27th....hiazz....n the darn select people still havent called yet..wanna let them earn some money also cannot.....hiazz....anyway i thought of plan B......which is to order fast food.....BUT THE PROBLEM IS.....

1...unhealthy
2...the taste is too common
3...expensive and definitely not worth the money
4...no class
5...failure on my part to honour

woah......christmas day......someone stole my brother's ID and appiled for a phone.....identity thief here......i hope tt culprit gets caught

after a wks absence frm gb......i played wif some seniors 2v2.....n julian n i got ahh.....thrashed........damn it......time to revenge n train again.....man.......i tot i can chuck tt game away for good......

zhafri just wished........surprising.....hope rj bball reach their goal/gold......

good luck guys.......gd luck to myself too

MERRY CHRISTMAS!!!!!

go down to orchard road now...

you didnt wait for me to answer...i wanted to go.......wif u......

so christmas eve ends in 39mins...really boring....i drank some alcohol thingy which i bought when i was out just now to explore the surrondings..it is not nice at all...but i am trying to get myself drunk.....n just sleep.....so far it is not working.....n alcohol tastes disgusting n is very expensive....

i rather go shopping for presents for myself........the only time i like alcohol is when it is organic chem......other then tt....pls........f o........it is a waste of money drinking.....YUCKS...

n i did something terrible today.......hiaz

U R A BASTARD...........bye.....off to shower n savour the remainding moments of this year this christmas eve this hols...bye....

christmas eve........i went to clementi to FUCK abt.......seriously......was so bored tt i went to clementi to fuck abt.....rotten trng session.......just got back.....had dinner.....christmas eve dinner is better than usual......watever......n i am fucking abt now........

BORING.......i tried not to swear...but i just couldnt help it........fuck lar bitch.....

27th

i have always thought of something......

what will those pple who say.....the process is more important than the end.....say when they reach the end in mind....

for christmas........i hope to be on fire on the 27th... tt all.....

great fantastically gay.........damn it.......i am pissed off......ARGH......i dun even want nxt year to come......i like today a lot........i hope everyday on.......will be like today.......but it wouldnt......u can bet it wouldnt...

u wanna run away?

i dunno!!!! i am terribly confused.......help me.....

i cant....help yourself

hahaha........just do it....somehow......just do it.......

have a ps2.....but dunno where to get games....dunno what games to buy....u are a loser indeed....wat is the bloody world becoming too......still on the topic of ps2.....it is in my room now......i am playing overtime........resulting in a puking feeling..nauseous...would be the perfect word......i am still undecided wif darn SATs.....damn it......GAY indeed....

just to add........i hate HATE insects in my room.........i HAVE TO BLOODY MOTHS IN MY ROOM NOW........die........u bitches have to die now!

i was so tired last nite........tt i onli woke up at 1030 today.....LOL......jurong point is the only place i consider civilisation around this area.....so i think i will go there whenever i need to find some human spirit.....LOL......have been living on a few dollars this few days.....i am so darn broke........today is the best.....i left house with no money......n went to explore jurong point.......took a look and some nice shoes.....but i ahave a feeling they are for girls.....didnt bother to ask since i wouldnt buy anyway....heard a nice song but i dunno wats the title......n i saw the vcd for infernal affairs at 9.90......ARGHHHHH......but i have no money........

suddenly thought of trng cos my coach was saying we should go shopping since prices are low now.....wat a gay....spoil my mood only....i did some chem which was so chim to me......quite pissed of tt i forgot n dunno so much....i did the internet......YAH....the connection is quite good now..will try to imrpove on it.....

tonight i shall
do pp 50...
do chem
play dark cloud 2.....

the show singapore brainest teen......is terrible perverse...i felt a little sick watching it....n so much for doing work....i havent do any...n the night is slipping away rather fast.....

today has been a long day....

first i was screwed by mr righteous at christmas fun..for something tt i wasnt at fault...n then mr hum ji was too ashamed for to apologize to me personally n told a girl to do it for him....btw mr righteous and mr hum ji are one and the same....wah a fag....i didnt accept the insincere apology.......the least he could do was to do it personally.....

almost got banged down by a car cycling home

in a desperate attempt to save money...i left home with 1.60 lol.....n my lunch was the best tt 1.60 could buy...a large "pizza -dunno how to spell-" from some pastry shop at the bottom of j8....

and kids.....especially those english speaking mother fuckers 8 year old cant speak chinese bastards are damn bloody rude.

i am not sure whether it is the weather or not....but my room is an ice box....abnormal considering the fact that singapore lies 1 degree north of the equator

things to do today...
some hw...must...cant put it off anymore
job attachment report

things to do in the near future
look for missing items
gp hw....bloody hell
see pereira
house warming dark cloud 2


a lot of stuff to do man..........n play gunbound perhaps.....hohoho......n i cant forget to train a bit for the 27th.....tt is a dilemma.....someone pls help mi.....how do i juggle both?!?!?!?!

trng is over for the yr......but i hav a competition on 27th....so i cant slack too much....hope the finger heals....might should get down to doing some pp's...wonder if the bar is installed yet....

i got back my sats scores......1520....i told myself tt i wouldnt retake if i get more than 1500...but i belive my ability exceeds 1520....n i didnt study much for sats anyway....seriousy.....so now i am thinking whether i am gonna be retaking..

recently, time has been spent on class gatherings, cip slacking?? i dunno...just tt i didnt do any work....n yesterday i was so tired tt i fall asleep watching band of bros....DAMN...waited for it for 1 WEEK......ARGH....n disgustingly..ken toh has a new computer too! like wat the hell

i have to get my sory ass to bishan j8 at 11am for the christmas fun thing....yawn....sian...tired man....

so the big shift ended.....n i am currently in my new room in my new house in new jurong...at least to mi....in familiar singapore.....but boy is this different...n at it for the worst....kinda feel a little sad...n maybe i need to change all the addresses of all the official stuff?

a few things have gone missing during the course of moving....i will have to go hunt them out today...looks lyk today is not a good day for doing working.....

on another note...the view for my room is quite good.....it overlooks the chinese garden...so there are lakes, tress, tose chinese pagodas..wow...n a slight mist is hanging over the whole area....so it looks quite surreal...but the problem is tt there are all those disgusting HDB flats as the backdrop of this whole view.....yucks....i think i should buy a binoculars or telescope soon.....WOW.....n did i mention tt this piece smells n totally sounds lyk australia.....i can hear cars zooming back every so often...i wonder if it irritates mi....my old house was very very very quite.....

n all my old frens...will be so far away from me....HIAZZZZZZZ.....hiaz....hiaz....hiaz...
i have lots of work to do man.....alkene n notes....bio read up....gp damn it...physcis 2 tut....maths promos.....this is the busiest hols in any thing except hw...n the slackest in terms of work....

n this month i am gonna spend 500 bucks......ARGH

so tomolo hav trng wat the gay.....i will grief later

anyway went for lck wedding.....sat away from the class man......but ok.....david chan was there......2 of my bro ex pri 6 classmates, a ri rugger, ken n other pple i dunno......lol matthew was despo for alcohol....n i got dc to get it for mi to pass it to dem.....for thy friends.....LOL....tt a good one.....damn gay lck saw LOL.....spoil my reputation man....even the j3 didnt ask for alcohol GAY.......den there was intro abt the same old story..i will gayed......gay is my favourite word now.....fcuk......damn sian.....cos.....yah.....i am not there yet so wat if i use a different hand no use...hmm n leaving tt time i screwed up by talking cock again....hiaz i tink i shouldnt hav quite a big joke n mistake for the ocassion....should hav just said never mind....but sometimes i just cant stop myself man......must diao...fcuk

spelling is screwed....n the mad rush home LOL......sleepy liao bye.....tomolo need to pack up.....n really get down to do some work.....no more gunbound.......quite sian anyway

i have degraded myself far more than i hav ever imagined......i am so bloody bored tt i went to catcha.com.sg to read about all those sad heart broken pple out there when I HAV BLOODY HELL packing and hw to do........argh.......wtfffff.......

interestingly........according to the website........a lot of students love their teachers.....LOL gayness......

my life is sad man.......i should do something more productive.....yeah i shall go mug n pack...btw my back hurts lyk shit n i am damn pissed off......

ok i was dying of hunger...cos on the way home from training....i didnt bother to get lunch...n when i got home...i was too tired to cook.....n then mum came home wif mee siam....n i asked her if she had taken lunch....n she said yes...tt extra.....so happy mi finish tt bowl of mee siam....n i just caught her cooking instant noodles in the kitchen....tt her lunch....she never ate.....she lied....i feel like a bastard now...FUCK....


ARGHHHHH
ARGHHHHH

FUCK FUCK FUCK...........

my back hurts like hell......and how to tell him wednesday not coming....i will get fucked man.....shall gb mug n pack up.....tt my day

12...trng...ok.....recently i have had manty interesting conversations wif frens....as exemplified by today's classic...

hi, i am at medical checkup, where are you
i am at the morgue looking for you body
fuck you

i onli did 11 pp.....shit........4 more!!!! drop 1 frm 12......must be all the slacking DAMNT IT

it is amazingly how pple can complain abt the education system....n still obey it...for the record...i tink this education system rox....just tt i hate sch...my sch to be exact...yeah..so my sch sux lyk hmmm SHIT......YEAH like SHIT.........

i hate u......i really really hate you.....u took me away from me

i need to do pp soon

oh man...raymond left for india this morning...despite me trying not to be too much of a gay...i think i miss him a bit and kinda sad cos the hols seems to get more lifeless by the day...recently i hav just been gbing the whole day away...i feel like mugging...lol...currently packing up my room in anticipating for the BIG MOVE...as i tidy up...nostalgia hit me so hard man...was reading some of the words the teachers said....

you are a very good boy in class. Continue to be one ok. Also study hard. Going to miss you! God bless you! Love, Ms Goh 11/3/94 Pri 2/3

tt is 9 years ago...i don't have the least idea who she is now...hiazz...on a separate note...i have a lot of christian stuff...cos a lot of my friends are christians...the above was written on a christiany thingy...n i had many many invitations to go to this church camp n that....hiazz...maybe it is my calling....n someone...maybe u are the one...told me that i havent get my calling....

n there are letters, cards and articles...that once held my dreams...but they were dashed in 1999 term 2....so great....i didnt know why....i didnt know....i think i will get them all framed up n put them in my room to serve as a constant reminder....n i cant remember where i got this from....i do not wish to go on...for i do not want a past to regret......actually i know now...lol

and ten years from now....i will probably regret what i have done...now...

hiazz i cant seem to throw anything away...even the 2 badly damaged models of tbattleships..maybe she was right...i am a sentimential person...what a joke of the word

bye....

ok just let mi see....the hols is almost gone..tt damn sad....cos i havent done anything productive YET..lol......2 more weeks or so.....nxt wk will be terribly busy cos trng isnt stopping...i guess tt much.....u cheater!!!! so i will be training on monday tuesday.......after trng i will hav to rush down to com chest to count money...wednesday will be spend trng in the morning n attending a wedding dinner at nite......if trng is in the morning...gd......if it is at nite.....bad......thrus will probably hav trng too...i hav to pack everything on thrus.....friday I AM MOVING TO JURONG.....trng perhaps too? saturday probably spent doing cip......woah so damn busy......

i hav been slacking on my pp....for 1.5wks? this is bad my trng.....hiazz i am in a dilemma..lol......hoping monday tuesday wednesday......i shall chiong on thrus or friday den....talked to a senior one day n she said tt she didnt like getting bonded to a company....actually...i dunno what i want to....LOL....

dark cloud 2 is nearing completion but i have left it aside for a while prefering to play gunbound since i probably can sell my account.....LOL......n i am getting ACE COMBAT 4, FREEDOM FIGHTERS N FINAL FANTASY X-2 as a christmas present for myself....den there is house warming to plan on friday...n christmas to look forward too.....

i dunno.....i dun celebrate christmas but....i just love public holidays...cos they hav a sort of relax mood....

yesterday was crazy......n i watched to crazy shows recently....n i am going crazy now.....the dang computer is so noisy.......i wonder wats wrong wif it?

btw dang is the american slang for damn

god damn it

fofofofofofofofoofofofofofofofofofofofofofofo............i lack sleep......damn hungry....bitten my mosquito.......ffffff..........sian.........shit...........hate u.........bye

wah u disgusting piggy.....damn bye!

hey hey........everything in my houe is break down for some reason or another....darn it

my 8250 hp....years of dropping have caused it to malfunction....its speaker isnt working
my 2 house phones...one is too soft....the other keeps acting up.......
the dvd player.....under usage...darn

but my hp is fixed........THANKS TO MY DAD.....he is v pro.....found out the problem even without looking at my hp.....rightly according got him, the speaker sort of pooped out.......so with a bit of cardboard the hp will working fine, just that the cover is not as tight as before.....

my whole body is aching like crap.....ouch......v painful
and if he can get it....so can i......
had a late night yesterday.......hangover......need to fet some work done.....hiazz....leaving the house at 4 30pm....not thinking of anyting....

my day shall be............work,play,work,play,trng.......do i have so much time?

if it was 24......now it is 27.5..........hiazz....n goals.....are meant to be achieved right? or wrong?

aiya........2 person asked mi to help them wif 5 n 7 hours of shift.....feel i little guilty tt i cant help............esp wif the second one.......alamak.....n the april shit......hiazz.....trng is taking too much of my time........or else i can do 24 hrs of cip this wk.....LOL.....

n wats wif the 2 wk trng camp..........damn pissing.......but i am in a not bad mood today.......not good but quite happy......i dunno why...lotsa of stuff to keep mi occupied.......hav to maximise the time cos my day ends at 4 20pm.......

lets see....watch the vcds.......i just borrowed a truckload of them LOL
do the hols hw.....pack up m room....play games......ok settled BYE

just played game n did some crappy chem

aiya........2 person asked mi to help them wif 5 n 7 hours of shift.....feel i little guilty tt i cant help............esp wif the second one.......alamak.....n the april shit......hiazz.....trng is taking too much of my time........or else i can do 24 hrs of cip this wk.....LOL.....

n wats wif the 2 wk trng camp..........damn pissing.......but i am in a not bad mood today.......not good but quite happy......i dunno why...lotsa of stuff to keep mi occupied.......hav to maximise the time cos my day ends at 4 20pm.......

lets see....watch the vcds.......i just borrowed a truckload of them LOL
do the hols hw.....pack up m room....play games......ok settled BYE

faster...faster.......FASTER..damn haha

today i hav been treated v well by all the others.....to porno calenders n porno stories.......wah lame........n diaoing........n being called a gay.......wah gay.......australia has change all of them.......gay.....

oh man.....i guessed right....alamak.....hiazz.....

btw.....her smile n the way her eye closes....reminds mi of a certain someone long long long ago.....haha....

was just having a conversation wif someone....n some news got mi really irritated...pple shouldnt be irresponsible......especially when it concerns other pple n their lives.....damn u.....n wat is all this shit about concentrating on a levels? studying is impt....very impt but wat the fick u wanna stidy n fucking study n do nothing but fucking study.....wat the fuck......

i am damn pissed...the pple around mi are screwed up n they drag mi down........fuck u all...i am not blaming them.....it is true

damn damn damn........the lack of information........

now i noe wat it means.........knowledge is power.....damn damn damn....screw u n screw it and screw up....hiaz

blooger was down last nite?!?!?!?!?....trng starts tomolo morn/nite......i think it is both......rats

anyway did the flag day yesterday.......it was quite fun.....amazingly....n i think i collected quite a bit...but there were many who just ended in soooo empty cans.......wah lan...disgusting......sitting at the table writing signs was extremely fun.......haha....i said the most donate n thank yous in my entire life yesterday........haha...

oh n u are crazy

hiaz...n n the kides corner thing......i hav to do 3 3.5 hr shifts...wat is so amazing is tt i can make it for every shift....lol tt very weird.......it looks quite shaung anyway when i was at j8....haha

i tink i shall do some work today......trng........might get my bike home.....hmmm

nice day marred by 2 events.......

dumb day......

oh if the sch is going back on its firm stand or watever fuck they call it.....they might as well go kiss my ass n fuck themselves.......so much for being firm........talk cock sing song oh......n if u r a teacher n happen to be seeing this.......quit now.......tt y sch sux...they cant even maintain standards......... so fuck it

cip tomolo.....hour hour hour......wat the hell......

trng on tues CHIONG SUAAAAAAAA

wah lau.......trng...sats money.........die liao..damn sian.......at least i settle stupid sats first....but den my score will be how sick...den must take again or some shit.......i am shitted...........................bloody hell

the person i said hated by others...just did a damn nice thing......damn dis world is weird

pro liao lor.......aiya....die liao....shit

never knew some pple hated some pple so much..wow....wow....WOW.....go on continue
hating each other......as if i care.......hahaha....spastic....DAMN BLOODY BORING......

a little nervous.......for wat.....i dunno.....actually i tink i know...damn it

just printed the darn entry proof.....what a waste of good pro HP ink.......wah lau....boring boring....tidied my room a little...just going about doing little things......quite effective....the whole place looks much neater.....but i am moving out soon..so i guess it doesnt really matter.....LOL.......my freedom is coming to an end.......i hope tt will be onli temporary.......hiazz....

how saddening......today is so cold n damp n wet n blah blah blah.....watever.....n CIP......i am so fucked.......pardon mi......LOL

thank god i never go attach myself to some doc........tt would be ultra sick n scary........i never wanna be a doc...but den again......never say never...huh.....but i just did....never?!?!?!?!?! neverland !

wah lan bro lost wallet.....sian diao.........da po cai.........lost big money....literal translation...i hope i can do well for sats u noe.....damn it......u wat am i doing here........btw..i just had a nightmare.......i consider tt a nightmare....LOL......save money lar......internet unlimited one......just use......stay at home......should i go meddle wif julians com? help him network.....but a little asking for trouble....his com new one leh....spoil i DIE.....might try wif he havent solve it after sats.......

day went crazy.........2 days never mug sats liao...fuck it.....pool cost quite a bit today...damn........i tink i stay n rot at home the best..no need to waste energy n money....just sleep eat shit.....do pp n go trng....should i do later......no tomolo do 50.....nite....fri do 30 can liao

i am positively bored....might go out later....but see how the mugging goes first..shall finish the sats.....damn it.....anyway...surfing around stoning.....no one is at home...i wonder y?

oh n i am a terrible user of the microwave oven.....according to instructions on the back of the darn garlic bread packaging, 45 secs on high heat....but after 45s, the bread was soft....but the garlic was not melted......n i pop it back for 2 mins......shit.....i knew it will remove all the moisture but didnt bother to put water in haha....n it was a bad mistake....the garlic melted.....the bread.....harden.......n i got garlic biscuits...but it was still very nice.......i tink i should check whether my oven is 600W cos the instructions specify a 600W oven......oh n i tink i will stick to a conventional oven nxt time....it browns the bread nicely....

tried to do 1pp.....tired lyk shit......must be the flu.....better but not well yet......n i just cant stand some people...dun ask mi to sit......tt is the most lame thing on earth.....

my dad is spendthrift.....currently talking to ken toh who is STUCK AT DSO doing consolidation of data...haahha.......LOL

lots of pple crying.........oh n i shall abstain frm fast food......esp kfc.....which is oppo trng place..wtf........it saves money n my health

muscle wasting majorly man.....my english sux FUCKING BIG TIME........wat is tt fucking prob wif it......fuck it......ahhaha.....now i noe.....btw....took some drugs...waiting for it to knock mi out.......i feel dizzy.....but the drug isnt as strong as it was b4.......

n i realised tt the time has come......to do it.......LOL

having a dreadful flu/cold/........watever....watdup wif the t cells man.....

i am really thinking abt eating all the time....shall amke a gd breakfast tomolo provided the flu goes away.......fuck.....wat the hell is wrong wif mi.....i am darn hungry.....i dun wanna be a obese shit.....lyk him when he was in dhs.......WAT THE FUCK.......i duno y.....i tink i better just hav 3 meals a day......maybe i am damn bored tt y......i feel lyk eating a cow now.........FUCK IT.......U WANNA BE A FAT PIG?

i hav been thinking n eating food ALL DAY LONG.......i guess tt how bored pple get fat.......terrifying.....i tink i am going on a DIET......LOL........wat the fuck is wrong wif mi?!?!?!?!

i can smell fried drumsticks......just lyk the ones sold at the malay store at ri canteen....or am i dreaming.....n dis morning some bastard was blasting the radio at 7 am in the morning?!?!?!?!

ok fuck it

i am down wif a nasty flu...damn..cos of cycling in the rain i guess....life is much more slack now.....i dun do pp regularly.....shall do them when i hav recovered.....12 now.....hehe ray....trng has stop for abt 11 days?!?! haha tt near to 2 wk then 1 wk haha.....so no fencing....i dunno dis is relieve or wat......i just cant imagine trng again for sometime.....even tho i will go when it starts again.....right now i wanna cherish the present.....but SATS have to fuck up all my plans......i should have taken it on the 24 JAN lar.....fucking miscalculation there........fuck it lar....tt would hav given mi ample time to mug.....n slack....n hav fun.......NOW......yeah.....been trying SATS questions all day long...so lyk i am pissed off now....damn.....but i wanna hit 1500.....hiazz......so far it has been bad.......fuck it.....hahaha....i will manage somehow

oh.....n not saying stuff doesnt mean lack of trust..or does it?....but maybe some stuff are better left the way it is....

been watching vcds......things to do.....

print SATS entry proof
trng run n pp
find out abt the appreciation lunch
mug SATS

after dec 6...i hav to embark on.....PROJECT FUTURE...LOL......y are there so many damn ants!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! fuck it.....n wat shall i bring to my new room......hmmm