旺旺！

My mother has been fascinated by 旺旺！recently. She just bought 'Cheese Biscuits' from NUTC for $2.40.

I really like the individual packaging of the biscuits. They look really sleek and classy.

I almost forgot that the aforementioned company is from Taiwan. Trying to be 'pseudo-jap'is a good way of increasing sales and image. I was acutally thinking it was a Japanese product until I confirmed my suspicions with a friend.

The biscuits were too cheesy though...I wonder if they are high in fat..hmmm.

Oh, the Japanese drama last night was fantastic. I need someone to help me record next week's episode!


Going high class...
[Maddog moments]


Chic packaging...'zen' style ?
[Maddog moments]


Didn't turn out really good...I mean the photo.
[Maddog moments]

Everything is so chim

Fuck la

Healthy chicken wings [WTH ?!?!?!]

I was reading the Life! section and there was this recipe on how to make healthy chicken wings. It is on the second last page if you are interested.

It intrigued me enough to ask my mother, who was going to make chicken wings for dinner anyway, to try out the new recipe.

The best part is each chicken wing is only about 59 calories!

According to very reliable resources, I need about 2550 kcal per day. Not very sure what the units kcal means...but I took it as 'kilo calories'.

2550000 / 59 = 4.3 x 10^4 chicken wings. !!! I am dead sure something is wrong with the calculation. =)

But for now, I am contented at the thought of having a very good dinner...guilt-free. =)

Forty three thousand chicken wings per day (2 s.f.)...you get to be kidding me....LOL

我和僵尸有个约会

Sian la, nothing to blog about recently...

Anyway, I have to pack my GP files tonight...so I have decided to catch the lastest Japanese darma offering on TV.

Multi-tasking. =)

But first, off to mug Chemistry!

Bad weather, stressed people.

It has been raining almost every single day.

I think the north-east monsoon has arrived. The monsoon, which originates from the north-east direction (duh) blows over the South China Sea absorbing moisture and depositing it over sunny island Singapore.

The wind blows this way from north to south because of the high pressure cool region in the northern latitudes as the sun, during this period of time, is overhead at the Tropic of Cancer (darn...or is it Capricorn) 23.5 degrees south of the equator.

WTF ?!?!

14 hours on a single maths question

and counting....

FUCKING HELL

I don't understand.

Still reeling from the horrendously easy Chemistry practical...which I managed to screw up.

The fact remains I am not worried about not getting an A but rather, feel pissed at making such idiotic errors.

I don't understand why people are so preoccupied with the A grade. I always believed that exams were a test of abilities and not how can one obtain a certain grade.

To me, getting a grade is a by-product of good preparation.

And which is why I am pissed at getting screwed up by stupid things like reading instructions wrongly! FUCK IT!

Especially since I know I am well capable of any grade I want....and my preparation had been so damn thorough.

FUCK
FUCK
FUCK

shit shit shit...praying

Out of touch...

In recent years, I haven't taken and developed very many photos.

So when I went to take some passport size photos last night, I was quite shocked that 'negatives' come in CDROMs now...haha

Seems like the digital age is really here...

But I think don't think it justifies the $13 price tag.

I went out yesterday with $55 dollars...I have $7 in my wallet now.

ARGH!

There is a new Japanese drama serial on Sundays 11 pm. Seriously, this is bad timing.

有前途，有前途 [14 months ago]

A slight drizzle today.

Went to school to get my CT to certify my documents. School was swarming with JC2s mugging away...yucks! Anyway, I managed to get the certification done, bought breakfast and get myself home all in the span of an hour or so...=)

After the euphoria of yesterday, it is time to dig in.

I shall refrain from more psyching up. Hahaha...too much of it will have negative effects.

Off to mug!

Respite

Did quite well for physics practical. That's nothing to rave about since it was a relatively easy paper...

My mind is still focused on the horrendous Biology....argh!

Went to LAN....again! This is crazy...especially in the mist of the MOST important examinations of my life.

But I got a couple of things done too. Had a chat with my GP teacher on my way out and as I have said before, she really is one of the most patient person I have ever meet. Will probably go visit her some day soon...haha.

Finally got a proper and much needed haircut at this shop in Bukit Timah. They gave me a massage after the haircut. It wasn't very gentle. The guy brutely whacked my back like 3904823423 times...I almost vomited blood. BUT...hehe, I'm quite satisified with the job...will go back when the need arises..

I also took my photos!!! Yeah!

Happy today.

Everyone is too 'busy' to update their blogs. Or so they say...

I seirous wonder if blogging for 30 minutes (This is quite extreme....) is such a waste of time. Sometimes, I find that writing stuff down actually helps straighten out thoughts.

Apparently, it isn't working very well now though. I got to be in the lowest point in my life...as yet.

I need help. Desperately...but only I can help myself.

hiaz...

I tell people to be happy, yet I can't remember the last happy day I had.

I am in terrible shape.

3 character tests

I have developed 3 character tests. If you can pass all of them, I think you ain't suppose to be human.

But anway, I decided to give it a go and try them on myself first. Will let you know the results in due time....

University applications are as troublesome as ever...

Gave the farewell dinner a miss...partly due to my mood being disrupted severely since Biology practical. Reading blogs that rant on 'I am going to get full marks' have done nothing to make me happy....argh!

I have figured that I need full marks for Biology Paper 1, which is 40 MCQs. There isn't any room for error...but I believe it is possible. And since the MCQs have the same weightage has the practical paper (20%), I am still in with a fighting chance.......but it is FUCKING slim.

My mum reminded me that I have 3 S papers. How forgetful can I get....

Startling and shocking....

...

I think I need a break.

I am on the verge of a total breakdown.

[Nothing has gone right today. Fuck. 1706 hrs]

died.

damn sad.

I am sick of doing badly and then feeling extremely upset later.
I am sick of making stupid assumptions and not think clearly during exams.

Then I let myself suspect my readings and get nervous for nothing....and die.

I should have read through the whole paper so that I knew that the latter parts were much easier to do and 1 hour for 15 marks wasn't too much.

Should have been more alert to wording and phrasing of questions and information....

Fuck. Why am I so fucked up?

Update: When to LAN at Paradiz and I just got home at 11 20 pm...feeling hungry and tired now since I skipped dinner as well. What the hell am I thinking of? Fuck.

Plants, rest, tie ups, sleep.

Come on...

Then and now...

I thought 'now and then' sounded better has a title...but that is not the point.

2 years ago, I had to sit for 3 practicals too...Biology, Phyiscs and Chemistry. It is the same thing now.

2 years ago, my Mum told me to try drawing a kiwi fruit. I dissected and draw tomatos, cucumbers, bananas and many more I think....I didn't do the kiwi. Cucumber and kiwi came out from the O Levels.

2 years ago, I used a wall hook, some thread and a weight for fishing to obtain 6 readings and plot a graph to calculate acceleration of free fall g. I got g=9.81 ms^-2

I forgot what I did from chemistry except mug all the past practicals and notes.

Now, on the eve of my last Biology practical (hopefully), on the back of a fantastic result from Prelim Biology practical, I am wasting my time. Fuck.

I don't plan on doing well. I plan on excelling. The war starts now.

[I was going to write about how ridiculous practicals are. I just finished peeling and cuting onion epidermis into 0.5cm squares...both inner and outer epidmeris mind you! Somehow, it turned out to be a post to psyche up. Even better.]

It is my destiny to succeed. I am merely fulfilling it. Bring it on.

You will read a very happy post about me doing well in Biology practical. I promise.

Just wasted half my black ink cartridge to print a page of blank ink.

Fuck.

Tense...

It is the unmistakable feeling of nervousness, excitment, adrenaline and fear all rolled into one.

I usually get it one day before the exams. I am making some mistakes like neglecting S papers and GP again....like what I did for prelims.

I hope there is time still...to rectify them.

Come on!

Literary flare

The new look of STimes gives a very upmarket feel...a detachment from the warm fuzzy kinda layout they use to have.

Anyway, if you read between the lines has much as I do, you find that everything has sexual connotations...just like your brinijal and carrots.

Taken from Life! - 'One night in Bangkok...makes even the hardened shopper humble'

I wonder if dual meaning was intended...because

1. What is Bangkok famous for?
   
2. Why is it 'one night'? Why not 'one day'?
   
3. Why 'hardened'?
   
4. Shopping for?
   
5. Humbled by?
   

This is weird. With such skills, I should be (by right la) doing darn well for GP comprehension.

ZX....gogogo!

:S

Wasted from looking through Biology practical notes for the past 3 hours. Nothing seems to be getting in....ARGH!
Time could have been better spent doing Physics or Chemistry or Maths...in short, anything but Biology.

Realised once again that Ghim Moh is a very nice place to be in during lunch hours. I think I am on the psychotic side...but yeah, I like older women.

LOL!

Still not done with Biology yet...must get the scholarship/universities applications done...and must also stay sane.

A tall order.

But life isn't all that bad...yet. At least I saw the class photos today! They turned out (not from my camera obviously) pretty well. I guess I would have to beg my classmates to develop a set for me!!!!

Wahhhh...how exciting. I love to look at photos.

BTW, a couple of posts back, I said that rich, powerful and famous men get all the pretty women. My hypothesis was confirmmed last week when a not so rich and not so powerful and not so famous boy managed to get some not so pretty girls...to go and have dinner. I can't elaborate further...you go figure. =)

Boy, this is a damn gay colour.

Everytime I think of it, I would just smile to myself in pure bliss.

No matter how impossible it is, the happiness would just follow.

That's what dreams are for? Isn't it?

Dream on...(in both sense of the phrase...haha)

[Dreams are for weaving] That's from the theme song of Land Before Time?

.

.

.

I can feel it in my bones

It's coming. I know it is...

I sound like someone predicting the coming of some ghost. WTF!

I am just stressed la. With what I wonder?

When I seriously think about it, there isn't enough reason for me to worry about the exams. But sometimes, you just can't help it can you?

Kinda bored lately.

Forgot to add just now...I am getting better at ignoring certain things. That's good.

Retarded Monkey

After not bothering about him (yeah...male monkey) for so long, I got to say that the monkey really reaped what he sow...in a bad way of course.

I guess learning how to deal with people is a very complicated thing. Was, like always blog surfing during my free time...everyone from school is raving about how good John is...THE John.

I shall rave a bit too. Hahaha...

He is the one person that I think commands the respect of the entire school. Such a fantastic person...unbelieveable.

-End of 'rave' since I am not doing him any justice-

The point is (I always write with a point...LOL) the monkey should take a leaf out of John's book, if ever there is such an expression. Pardon me, you really shouldn't expect anything more than poor language from a GP C5 person.

I wonder at times whether the monkey does some self-reflection. Maybe soon he will realise that he has been rubbing people the wrong way. It is extremely difficult (read impossible) to make the whole school dislike you..I think.

But since we all know that the monkey is so capable...well he just managed the impossible that day.

Revelations

When you type capital letters, which key do you use? The 'shift' or 'Caps'? I always use the latter, but since my computer now bloody hell hangs everything I use 'Caps', I am forced to use the other one....GRRRRRRR!!!!

The computer hasn't been working really well ever since the last breakdown...this is frustrating!

Anyway, I discovered 3 things today...

If you are revising for exams using Redspot TYS and find it highly irritating that the answers are printed directly after the question, use the cloth for cleaning glasses to cover them! It is by far the most effective method. The cloth is opaque, heavy, small (fits the book well) and flexible so it doesn't fly away easily but covers the answers very well! Hahaha....seriously, give it a try!

I lied...I discovered only one thing today.

BYE!

Difficult.

Confused.

Was reading the papers when I realised how many rich and powerful and famous guys date pretty women...usually actresses and models.

Take Zhang Ziyi dating that rich kid (I didn't bother to remember his name), but isn't it obvious that she is going after his, or rather his Dad's money? Maybe I am just jealous...haha. But I think I have a point here. If you still don't believe me, just look at DONALD TRUMP. He looks like a tramp, but is also dating a model.

The thing is Donald Trump is a flithy rich tramp. Flithy, but darn rich.

Then I wonder what would happen to me since I probably will be rich and powerful and famous in the distant future. I think it is so sad that when you are rich and powerful and famous like me in the distant future, you will have to guard against all sorts of people habouring evil intentions...haha.

My GP tutor would be very happy if I were to engage her in a conversation about why two people get together...she holds the view that marriage for love is navie.

I haven't found the answer yet. I am too busy mugging....haha....and doing other stuff.

Dr M

I was watching the speech of Dr Mahathir on CNA.

He had quite an interesting speech and quite an interesting way of delievering it.

Off to do applications and mug!

Minor Update:

My humble attempt to apply to US universities has resulted in utter failure. The process is just too lengthy and complicated for me. I give up liao....at least for now. I am terribly upset and angry now. ARGH!

Reminiscence

Woah. My computer hung so many times today for no reason. I am more amazed than angry.

Anyway, I am going to berate myself for something stupid that I have done. And trust me, it is something really stupid beacause I don't usually screw(the other meaning...haha) myself for nothing.

"You are the most stupid and useless moron ever!!! That's it. It is ALL OVER and that's the closest you can come to *** (cenosored). Ever. Bloody lousy thing...that's what you are. A loser."

I feel slightly better now. Time flies.

It is evening once again.

Reminiscence

It's a thing for the mind, not the pen. Henceforth, thou shall try and shut up about it...NOT. Haha.

I have found a reason to berate myself severely. And trust me, I usually don't do that to myself even if I am at fault. Yeah, so it is a pretty darn good reason.

I shall do it in third person...

You are such a damn dimwit! That's it! It's ALL over for you, you stupid piece of shit. That will be the closest you will ever get to *** (CENSORED for some reason). Ever. OMG, you lousy thing.

Hmmm...so sad. I feel like crying.

Back to reality

Took 3 hours to write a 150 word essay.

A pure waste of good mugging time.

Reality stinks. FUCK IT!

Sad.

Realised that my previous post was filled with language errors. It is just testimony to my mixed emotions that's all. As Ms P. says 'When you think, the language flows.' It is true! And I was too confused to think....haha.

My classmate knows that I have a good camera...PowerShot A80. Good taste! A pity that most of the people had really shaky hands and the photos turned out REAL bad. Wasted...I did manage to take a few good only...as in 1 or 2 only...argh!

There are somethings only a student can do....

You have done well, smile.

Today's farewell assembly was highly memorable, not everything for the right reasons though. Let's get the unhappy stuff out of the way first shall we?

Mr Low did something that totally wrecked my day. Since such a scumbag doesn't deserve any more than a sentence in my post, I shall refrain from writing what actually happened. Just that it affected me so much that my Principal told me the to smile when I went up for my prize.

In short, I was quite upset at that moment. And people who know me....will know how I look like when I am upset.

I will remember this. Forever.
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Onto the happy stuff! Had this class dinner after the end of the farewell assembly. I must say that I thoroghly enjoyed myself just talking and taking photos with my classmates. I haven't had such fun in a long long time. In fact, I am starting to miss them already....hiaz. All this farewell and good bye and closure stuff is really getting to me now. Feeling sad that these 2 years just flew by....and yeah, I wished that time had slown down a wee bit.

Anyway, after dinner we headed over to the Fountain of Wealth to chill...and more photo-taking! Hahaha...it was really just plain simple fun. Admist all that happiness, the sinking feeling always sneek in...=(

And on the train ride home, it just got worse. I seriously don't want JC to end.

Maybe for these 2 years, I have pushed myself far too hard for far too long, fighting over what would ultimately just be a piece of paper. Maybe in the end, I would realise that I had forsake fun for success, gave up on the simple pleasures to seek a dream. The worst thing is the dream might not even be what I make it out to be.

The 2 years I had with this bunch of classmates can't be easily put into words. The friendships certainly ain't really deep ones. But they were special in their own ways. I regret not trying to make the most out of my time. And the time has ended...sort of anyway.

An interesting thing happened too. My primary school classmate took 2 years to recognize me. =). They (I won't bother to tell you who 'They' are) think I forget people easily. I don't. I have a very good memory and probably will remember more stuff than you...haha. I don't why, but I always feel very tired when it comes to maintaining relationships. I dislike putting consistent effort into saying those superficial 'hi-s' and 'bye-s'.

More often than not, they (the relationships I mean) just break down on me.

I sometimes wish that the clock would turn back 2 years. Feeling sad now....

Pensive III

Just had a very good lunch. I will post the picture of it some other time since the digital camera is too far away from me at the moment.

Also updated myself about the fiasco over the PSLE Science paper. The standard is definitely higher than what I had last time. But I don't think I will EVER cry over results. Granted that I might feel extremely upset, more the violent type of 'upset' than the crying type...if there is ever such a distinction, I feel that to grief to the point of 'emotional turmoil' is pure stupidity.

BTW, 'emotional turmoil' is what the parents of the poor P6 kids cite their children as having.

I felt so amazed at the sheer absurdity of the whole thing that I decided to write to the forum. Let's hope they publish my letter! =)

I rest my case. Do I have one at all?

T_T :S =(....F la.

I am very angry with DNA Technology. It is a long, useless topic. 99% of what I read probably will NOT come out.

Boy am I pissed now.

Fuck!

Dinner

My mum just destroyed the fish for dinner. In her own words, it was a 'disaster'.

You see, healthy cooking (using negligible amounts of polyunsaturated oil) and lousy woks (with insufficient poly(tetrafluoroethene) coating) causes the fish to stick to the wok. And hence no dinner for me. Patiently waiting for my mum to buy fried rice...Hiazz...stressed from mugging.

For non-chemistry and non-biology students,

Poly(tetrafluoroethene) or PTFE is the thing that makes your non-stick pans non-stick. And polyunsaturated oils have many C=C. I don't know why, but they are healthier.

I was never a fish lover anyway. Anything besides 'Fish n Chips' and 'Fish meat bee hon', I probably hate...yeah...off to dine now.

Mugging

I am interested to how many times people eat porridge in a week. Do you know the answer?

I suspect I am ranked way above the national average.

Was trying to fill in some application forms for scholarships and stuff...I find them an immerse bother. But the good thing is the essays they want me to submit is about 'aspirations, principles and values'...along those lines.

Which is a good thing since I personally feel that I have very very VERY sound moral grounding. And I love to preach about my life principles. =). Weird thing is being a priest or a social worker never entered my mind before...maybe I will consider again. NOT. Hahaha.

Your comments are not wanted. Diam la.

I am a mad mugger monster. 3M.

Intellect

As often as I post rubbish, I also do have intellectual musings. The phrase 'as often as' means I do them 50-50 you dimwit.

Anyway, here's the philosophical question for the day...deceivingly simple I would say...

What is a joystick?

Apparently, a hypenated word helps quite a bit. So if you are too dense to understand...

What is a joy-stick?

Sunrise

TM does not stand for trademark. It stands for transition metals.

That's how much mugging has gotten to my head. :S

Feeling very tired now....=(. Downloaded a song to lift my spirits...it's '陪我看日出' by a new Singaporean singer 蔡淳佳. Not exactly the best of ways to support a singer if you know what I mean....haha.

Hey, but I ain't working you now. I don't have much disposable income. Besides, I am grouped under the 'economically dependent' category for a reason ya know!

Wakka...a character in FFX always uses 'ya' instead of 'you'....if you didn't know.

Hmmmm.

I am feeling very weird these days. I guess it has to be the effect of stress...Grrrrr.

Was in the lift just now with a dog. It was a cute dog. But it had a scheming look and I thought it wanted to eat my balls. Oh well, if it had so much as moved a paw, I would have lobbed of its head with a kick.

Went to school for GP post mortem and I guess it was quite productive.

Argh. WTF! I am so damn sian. I need psychiatric help now, before I turn to something more drastic than blogging to relieve stress.....Grrrrr.....

Shall go mug. Bye!

Eating Porridge

Busy and pissed.

It is annoying that I stumble on TYS questions.

And disgusting for that matter too.

wtf man.

Minor Update (not worthy of a new post):

Ermm... I saw a distractingly pretty girl today. =). And the Specimen paper is difficult. =(
Argh, screw it. I am smart.

Shagged

A very hot and hectic morning...

The weather is terrible today. I almost fainted in the darn heat...GAY! Don't even think of going out. You would be better off staying at home in an air-conditioned room eating ice-cream. Serious.

Woke up at 7 am plus and headed over to the JTC Summit for a talk. I must say that this is one of the most fruitful talks that I have been to because I managed to get hold of a CS graduate who told me more about the course. CS stands for computer science btw...

He kindly offered to help me look up some information pertaining to my questions too! Wow! I hope his email comes quick....a very nice guy indeed.

Then had to go to school to loan out a blazer for Friday's assembly...and took a train back to Jurong to settle my lunch and return a book at the library.

Here am I now...feeling half asleep. DARN!

Have to go hose myself with some cold water, switch on the air-conditioner and hit the books. There ain't time for sleeping. GOGOGO!

I have a packed schedule until 12 am. Cya!

IF YOU ARE THRASH, SCREW OFF.

Now this is a change from the thrash...=)
[Maddog moments]

疯了

The world has gone bonkers. Indeed...

I try and keep my problems to myself. I expect you to do the same. Buzz off NOW! Teachers included.

If you read the thrash that people dare to write, you would be utterly disgusted, like how I am now. This world, the one that YOU are in right now, is full of thrash.

I can't even bear to start ranting about the nonsense and crap (refers to people) that I have to put up DAILY. It must be a miracle that I haven't died of a heart attack yet.

BTW, my class did rather badly for prelims. =(. There are 12 students with 1 A, 1 with 2 As, none with 3 and 1 with 4. I guess my teacher must be disappointed.

BUT disappointment is life.

I am not making any sense, am I? It must be the thrash that I am stuck with....that's YOU. Bitch.

Study break...my 'S'

I am incredibly busy. ARGH!

I just got home from a 3 hour mock GP examination which can be concluded in a word--torture.

And the Ghim Moh McDonald's sold me a STALE Filet-O-Fish burger! WTH! If not for the cute looking cashier, I would have torn the damn place down!!!

This is supposed to be my study break. I should be mugging like a fag at home non-stop 24/7. But my schedule is filled tomorrow with non-mugging stuff. This totally sucks!

Damn busy la...no time to waste. Off to mug. Bye!

Wahahahahahah...I can't believe the show ended.

I hate it when nice shows end. Argh.

Wahahahahahah...sob sob.

I realised that I won't (at least not yet) miss school. I am surprisingly unaffected by the so called 'end of formal lessons'. I am not sure why, but I am dying to pave my own life...away from school and studying.

Is this normal? Though I know that school life has afforded me certain luxuries that wouldn't ever come by anymore, I guess the past 2 years have been memorable in a way only to myself. Experiences, feelings and things that only I can relate to. Sad isn't it?

One day, I will tell my life story. I am adamant about this.

[Currently trying to balance out mugging/exercising/relaxation time]

[Relaxation consist of the TV, PC, PS2]

[Busy]

[Bye]

Vomit blood...

I was doing some work on my blog, trying to add in the 'Quick Edit Links' and some conditional tags, which would make posting and editing much much easier.

My internet refused to connect, the computer hung on me twice...and now, I have lost all mood of doing anything.

What a waste of my time. Damn you. Whoever/Whatever you are...

Anyway, last night, while switching between a Korean drama (with a VERY VERY cute actress) and CNA, I caught bits of the encore telecast of the US Presidental debate. Needless to say, it was highly amusing. Singapore should have something like this instead of an ancient father-to-son succession ritual that dates back to the time before Christ.

I have spoken too much. ISA coming liao....haha!

Bye, I need to go mug and look for the name of that cute actress. I love mugging and cute Korean actresses.

Courtesy of Gamespot. Pseudo FFX-2 characters....=( I rather look at the in-game graphics anytime. Haha
[Maddog moments]

Today sucks. Tomorrow will be worse.

I can predict the future with startling accuracy.

Powerless to stop you

命里有时终须有，
命里无时莫强求。

I can't be bothered. Only then can I seek the Way.

Blogs are drugs

Just showered for the day. Yeah! I am feeling clean now.

My parents went for some overseas university talk in school today. I didn't bother to. Anyway, not sure what had happened, but they got home telling me that the vice-principal knows me. I, again, didn't bother to ask for more details.

Kinda pleasantly surprised. Anyway, I got to know from a friend that the school teachers regularly read their students' blogs just to keep check on them. Yeah, it is because of a certain unpleasant thing that happened last year....

So, VP, if you are reading this, HI! That's all you are getting from me today. I have a TV show to catch.

People, expecially those that I find interesting, should blog more. I am starved of stuff (intended) to read.

It's a busy world out there. Here I come.

Blah.

I am hungry, bored and sick of mugging. But still am mugging.

Or rather, I still need to mug. Highly irritated at the moment by stupid people...the world is short of everything except stupid people.

A sidenote, my farewell assembly seems to be rather cool! Holding it in the evening/night just adds to the novelty...kinda exciting if I may say so. Hahaha.

Most of my classmates are 1) at school doing SAT 2 2) going to ECP for a class outing 3) How the hell would I know??

Irony

STimes / 8-10-2004 / Page 9 / Rightmost picture

To the person in the picture: You are blinded by your shades.

'chua'

I have a neighbour who goes by the name 'chua'. He either lives beside or above or under my unit.

I absolutely adore 'chua'. I don't know how 'chua' looks like, whether it's a he or she, tall or short, fat or thin.....you get the idea.

But, I know 'chua' uses a linksys router, broadcasts signals even STRONGER than my own and have broadband internet access. Oh, and 'chua' is smart enough to change his router's password...something which I haven't done.

Turn on WEP please...and any other network security options.

[I merely just used 'chua' for about a few minutes before reverting back to my own network. It was a mistake. I didn't mean to connect to 'chua'. =)]

Early

Got home really early today.

Managed to sign up for the SAT II Writing and Maths Level 2 subject at Collegeboard. At least that is one less thing on my mind now...yeah!

Education is really a big business man! I just threw another USD 62 at some American company that administers some test that I have to take to apply to some universities. And if you consider that each application is USD 100 (for US universities)....that amounts to quite a large sum...GAY!

I think I better go mug now. BYE!

Almost forgot...hehe...today is the last day of offical lessons. 13 more days to Biology practical....

argh! The computer is going crazy. It hung again!

Tomorrow, I will know my mark for Physics S. This is very killing.

Feeling really pensive.

$88 glasses
[Maddog moments]

Kinda looks like one of my friend's spectacles. Just that I got a better deal...haha.

Weird! My computer is acting up again! First, it refused to connect to the internet, which resulted in me having to reinstall the Linksys USB Adaptor and then it did an illegal shutdown on me!!! WTH!

I actually wanted to start my revision program for the A Level's today...but something cropped up...maybe tomorrow.

Yeah, and I am indeed feeling very unsettled at the moment. I wonder why?

Tomorrow would be better I hope. The rest of the night should be spent either mugging/surfing for universities/talking on the phone.

I am expecting a phone call...=)

The future...

Was looking through the universities that offer computer science (CS) or game design as a course. Found almost next to nothing...argh

I am beginning to regret my GP grade and my Maths S grade. This totally suck. I guess if I do get any interviews...I would have a hell lot of explanation to do. =(.

DSTA calls the 'bond period' assured employment. How are they kidding man? But it is quite funny that they actually make such a balant cover-up.

Current grades are AAAA C5 MM

A picture=1000 words

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That's the Maths S paper. 55 marks for a distinction. Anyone who knows me would probably know that I value my pride much more than my marks. But today, I ended up getting disgraced after trying to seek for an extra mark. Damn it!

Fucking hell...

Options

Either you go to this university...or that university...or that university....etc etc.

Why haven't anyone entertained the thought of not studying all together? And go do something more meaningful like helping the starving African kids?

I certainly have thought of that thought a couple of times. But my idea of something meaningful is more self-centred than anything else. Helping others isn't on my list....not yet at least.

I am making excuses for myself, which is not good.

对敌人仁慈就是对自己刻薄！What is the opposite (if there is one) of this phrase? Hmmm....

Sidesnotes: Feeling really tired these days/Brother's IC found after 1 year/Need food now...badly

Woah!

Someone has the excat same thinking as I have! Just read it of a blog though...I can't really give you the URL for very obvious reasons. Go figure.

Pride is difficult to swallow. I am choking!!!

Oh, I am indeed feeling very pensive. I am not sure why, but there seems to be a lot of thoughts flying about wildly in my head. I probably need some time to straigthen things out by myself. A shower and maybe some FFX would do me good... ....although, I shoudn't really be playing at this point in time.

And I forgot to add that another thing on my mind is the various applications for university and scholarships. Much as I would to get into a good college and stuff, I would really like the courage to go ahead any execute my life-long dream...hiaz.

Have to seriously think about that too....

What else? I like to keep things to myself...so fuck off NOW!

Emergency Stop Relaxation Technique

1. Say 'Stop' to yourself.
2. Take a breath in and hold it for a moment.
3. Breathe out slowly, relaxing your shoulders and hands.
4. Pause for a moment, then breathe in again.
5. Breathe out slowly, relaxing your forehead, face and jaw
6. Repeat once more if necessary, then continue with your acctivity, moving and talking slowly and smoothly

Obtained from NUH stress treatment centre.

Things on my mind:

1. How to structure my revision for A Levels
2. How to see my GP teacher (yes, again. And it is very troubling indeed.)
3. How to ... ...
   

I have disappointed you.

A day of extremes.

Results are filtering back. At present, I am in a terrible state. I never did foresee the C5 for GP coming. My lowest ever grade for the subject anyway.

Will wait to receive all the results these next few days before doing a post mortem myself and find out what went wrong. Hiaz.

I am not used to losing. Never will be.

One of my classmate knows me pretty well. More so than I ever thought. The worldd is weirdly comforting at times.

That's all for today. I am in a bad mood.

The last black sunday supper

My dinner!
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Black Sunday and The Last Supper are the two themes for today. Puzzled? You should be...haha. Only a few will understand the title. It is an immerse pity that my linguistic powers is understood only by the chosen ones...LOL

Anyway, trooped down to Orchard to dine at Cafe Cartel. I must say that dinner wasn't too bad. But the food wasn't out of this world either. Personally, I thought my dish, Black Pepper Ribs was slightly above average and the presentation was actually quite bad. Just take a look, it looks kinda sparse, doesn't it? The portion was quite big though...didn't come out right due to my amature photography skills. =(. Taste wise, I thought the baby carrots was a bit too sour, they added lemon I think. The corn with butter was good, but the baked potato was cold when I had it...that again might be my fault. The ribs was tender and the sauce rich with flavour. But both were habouring on the salty side...

I do have a few other photos of the dishes my dining companions ordered...head over there to see for yourself!

I would pretty much like to end this post on a happy note. So yeah, none of the depressing stuff today! The only problem in my mind now is how am I going to complete FFX. A very pleasent problem indeed to tickle the brain. =)

Tomorrow, we fight.

TNP

Went out to get a new pair of spectacles. Got my eyesight checked and the degree went up by 25 and 50 for the right and left eye respectively. Hiaz. I miss the days having prefect eyesight.

I think I got quite a good deal. The shop was newly opened and they were having a promotion, so I had a $88 package which included both frame and lens. Might post a picture of the new glasses next week...stay tuned!

Boy are the opticians cunning! My mum was asking if there were nicer looking frames and the salesgirl kept pulling out the brand with the 不在乎天长日久，只在乎曾经拥有 tagline...I think it is Soviet something. Really branded and expensive...$238 for just the frame...yeah, and I almost ran away the moment she started forcing me to try them on.



It broke. What more can I say?

Oh and TNP has a special on the social calander of Singapore...the parties and balls the RICH and POWERFUL attend. What sort of degenerated life is that...?

Bloody SHIT

I got up, took a nice shower and was cleaning my lovely spectacles.

And DUNNO WHY, it just broke into half. I presume that while I was took taken in my the webpage I was broswing that I didn't realise how much force I was exerting on the frame.

My $170 spectacles...It lasted around 2.5 years. ONLY. WTF. I am bloody pisssed.

Why did it have to happen to me? WHY??

Do you want a photo of it here? Yes? I would certainly like to post one too. BUT I am too damn angry now to do anything.

I was surfing here. Argh! Damn pissed off.

T_T

My life can be effectively confined to my room.

I start with the PS2, get tired, go on the PC... *repeat cycle*

This is a vicious cycle. A terrible, horrible, vicious cycle. I just finished up until the halfway mark in FFX...I think. My consercvative estimates would put me around 35 more gaming hours to completetion. Something that should be accomplished after the A Level's.

Shit. I cannot imagine life without FFX. And after 1 month, I doubt I will be able to continue my saved game. This ALWAYS happen to me and RPGS...Argh. Dark Cloud 2, Xenosaga, FFIX.....the list goes on. Sickening.

fuck.

I should stop fooling around with my future. Bah!

On to happier stuff, I went to the library today for a walk. You heard me right. Library, not park. The announcements in the library are getting more and more stupid by the day. They are literally begging 'kids not to run, throw books and climb on chairs'. I don't remember being such a bastardly kid. Hahaha...

Borrowed a book by Max Allan Collins who writes about true unsolved murder cases. The book I have is entitled 'The Titanic Murders'. High interest value.

Books will be my hobby as soon as I pack away the PS2 come next week.

Life is such a whore.

Brrrr...scary

I was happily playing THE game when it suddenly dawn on me that I have a MAJOR exam in 30 days time.

What the heck am I still doing? Fooling about? I heard that ACJC finished their prelims way ahead of us, before the September holidays..so they probably had a proper post-prelim-celebration-bash.

Me? I am having fun with a guilty heart. Not the best of ways to enjoy yourself. =(

Just finished writing in most of the A Level's examination dates into my desk calender. Looks pretty packed and intimidating....argh. I am scared.

Are you?

Breaking point

I had much difficulty climbing out of bed today. My whole body is on the verge of breaking apart. Argh...!

Crystal Jade looked like a nice place to have my lunch. I was checking out the prices with a friend, but unfortunately, gonna have fried rice at home. =(. This is so unfair.

Oh, and reading the proceedings of the 'dunking incident' in the newspapers in especially unnerving....since I am likely to have a taste of it (if I have real bad luck) next year. Hence, I have decided to go train up to be a muscleman. No instructor, COMMANDO OR NOT, will then be able to try and drown me just because they don't like my face....and force me to do anything I don't wanna do for that matter.

It will be pay back time !!! Hahaha, I am dead serious on this. I don't plan to die anytime soon.

And the taiwanese buggers are burning the national flag. GASP! We should obliterate the island now. Send in the NS men!!! And all of our submarines..do we have 3 or 4?

I need a bigger TV to play FFX. I am missing far too many items!!!

OC vs Reality

I had nothing to say. Now I have.

OC, the thrashy show on tv, is getting way too popular. I realised this a couple of minutes ago.

I was rather unfortunate to watch one episode last time because I was darn bored. From what little OC that I watched, it totally fits the bill of a garbage show.

People in real life, have more to do than to suspect your boyfriend is screwing your sister and your dog is not being faithful to your cat. OC has a plot similiar to this... ...Not only does the show glorify the wanton western culture (I am under the impression that all westerners have multiple sex partners), it also paints riduculous pictures of life.

If you watch OC, you should know what I am talking about.

If you like OC, God bless you.

Geezz...I am really tired now.

Almost half a year...

Is there a song with a similiar title? I would certainly like to hear it.

Badminton has taken its toll on me. I am feeling very feeble and weak...like a prawn. Argh.

Yet, there is still some much that I have to do i.e. tidy my room, file the stacks of papers that are everywhere and FFX!

I am nearing the 10 hour mark in the game and just have a few minor gripes about the game. They should have incorporated a changable camera angle. Playing with fixed angles can really be irritating at times....ermm, maybe a more complex equipment and magic system would be preferred and lastly a world map is what I wanna see.

Having said that, the game is almost prefect. Kudos to the team that made it. Realised that I have been going on and on about FFX ever since I have started the game...haha

Nothing else of interest already.

Cute cashiers

I am exhausted. Badminton was extremely intensive, yeah, but had great fun.

There 2 cute cashiers at 2 different McDonald's outlet. One's near school, at Ghim Moh. I can't remember her name, but my friends sure do!

The other one is at the outlet near Choa Chu Kang Stadium. Both look strikingly similar. And both look extremely adorable.

I wonder if they knew they looked cute...several trips were made to collect extra 'Curry sauce'. =)

Feeling down? Head over to McDonald's now...!!!