Doing everything with a smile instead of a frown.

This ain't resolutions, but stuff that really should be done.

I vow to be more organized and read letters more carefully. =)

Welcom 2005.

It's a new start. Everything will definitely go well for me, from now.

New Year Resolutions

1. Be happy, stay positive
2. Everything must 尽全力，奋斗到底，不可轻易放弃
3. Don't regret anything
4. Don't fret over what can't be controlled. Always engage in positive actions, not negative thoughts
   

The year is here for the taking, take it.

[Ironically, I was reading THE NEWPAPER, watching ONE FINE DAY on television when the countdown crept (not creep anymore...hiaz) by. A very nonchalant start, but definitely, great things will happen this year. I can just feel it in me.]

Happy New Year!!! =)

Cheers to 2004.

The heavens have been crying, uncontrollable outbursts, for the souls claimed cruelly by the sea.

A muted end to the year.

In a few hours time, I will transfer over the remnants of 2004 onto my new desk calender. Then the old one goes out of the window.

It's a miracle at such times people can still be caught up with university or scholarship applications. The education system has done well. Too well in fact.

I hope I am not like this/that/them. I can only hope.

It's not easy to be me.

The rain has been coming in spurts. It's so heavy now that out of the window, all I can see is a misty white of treetops in the Chinese Gardens.

I am in the writing mood today. Would go read City Boy, also by Herman Wouk, before I attempt to redo my IDA essay...or at the very least edit it a bit.

Hope the rain lets up soon. It will be a major shame to cancel up the Countdown parties around the island because of an insane downpour.

Despite its imposing stature...a really humorous and delightful read. Romance, war and drama all rolled into one... 

A Rainy Day

A phone call which rang continuously for 10 seconds unceremoniously dragged me out of my bed into reality with all its harsh trappings. I wonder what are the implications of that call? Hmmm....

I have an envelope to settle. It's more or less done already, but I still need to go post it, along with the letter I wrote yesterday. SingPost can steal a few more cents from me today...Hiaz.

I wonder, as well, what does the SAT II scores imply. For those in the dark, each subject test is over 800, the top figure being the score and the bottom on being percentile. I am in a sorry state. =(.

The rain is compounding this horrible day. Countdown parties, anyone?

[I am determined to make myself happy today despite this cock post.]

OMFG

Math Level 2

780

84

Writing

720

83

Straight off from Collegeboard. They are mighty efficient in releasing bad news to me. This spells the end of my academic life. Good bye and have a nice day.

Fuck.

D

A dreary, wet day.

I just had dinner at this Japanese outlet in JEC with rugby mate from secondary school

What a depressing, sad day. =(.

Preparing for a camping trip...

After puking a fair amount over the IDA essay, which I have finally got out a rough outline, I decided to do some shopping for my upcoming camping trip.

Visited about 5 shops to enquire about my handphone (Siemens M55) battery before buying one at the very last shop. I think the salesguy was about my age...certainly don't look like he has been through NS yet. I wonder what sort of life he leads....? Anyway, it suddenly rained real heavily so I was stucked in Jurong Central doing nothing.

Most of the shops were undergoing renovations of some kind, probably to prepare for the New Year, which made window shoppers like me very irritated. Baleno had a terrific sale though. I was so darn tempted to go in and buy some clothes for myself, but rational thought got the better of me. For the next 2 years, or at best 6 months, I would buy my clothes at Beach Road. What a saddening thing to say ya?

Oh I am infatuated with Shokubutsu 植物物語. I got the face wash, the shower foam...really like its packaging.

Irritated.

I hate waiting.

Love is sweet. =)

In between the love story of The Caine Mutiny and real life (mine is quite barren if I may say so), I manged to get hold of a actual tragic (until now... the ending is yet unknown) romance. Oh my god, if I wasn't sure, I would have thought it was straight out from a soap opera...

I feel like some DJ on YES 93.3 FM reading the lovelorn letters tormented young souls send in...hoping out there, that special someone is listening.

(Minor alterations has been carried out to protect the identity of my mystery writer X)

12月26日：圣诞节的告白

12月25日。昨天。是我给她发送的最后一则简讯。

我并不期待有个答复。因为，很明显的，这样的问题不是每一个人能够应付得来的，何况是她。发送的简讯，也或须对她来说太突然了。也不知道我哪来的那股冲动，突然想对她表白。想起来，真有些后悔，后悔让一时的冲动敲碎了一切的美好。一切的美好？也许只是我一厢情愿吧。

虽然发送给她的简讯她多少会有回复，虽然她的简讯中总是充满著哈哈，和：)，虽然她表面似有一定的积极，但我很清楚，一切离我渴望的美好有多遥远！在那无数的哈哈背后，隐藏了一个无奈的声音，一个别再烦我的恳求。不是吗？

真希望我这样的想法是错的。唉，还是告诉自己，别再痴心妄想，自欺欺人了！现在，我看着安静了足足两天的电话。没有她传来的简讯，感觉实在奇怪。早已答应自己，不再和她联系。

虽然无法忘记她的容颜，虽然从此不可能和她聊上半句话，我依然会把她藏在我心坎里，不会让她遭到岁月的蹂躏。

Itchy.dirty.tired.

Gone to LAN
Got home
Itchy.dirty.tired.

And stinky.

Disastrous

I called up the local SAT hotline at 67349868.

The lady was really very nice and helpful and all notion of blasting them disappeared.

But I am in deep shit still. Quite convinced that it is because of the way I wrote my name that screwed up everything. The worst thing is the paper is NOT EVEN MARKED YET....

Ah FUCK

SAT II
A LEVELS
S PAPER...

Everything is reeling back in a cheapskate sneak attack to destroy my mental well-being. FUCK.

发泄

两个字。。。

他妈的王八蛋！

Be thankful that language hasn't evolved until the state with the Hokkien dialect can be represeted by written characters. Or else...Grrrrrrr.

忍

You got to see what I found in The Caine Mutiny to believe me. In addition, I also found 2 library receipts belong to a certain WANG WEN CHONG in the very same book. It makes me wonder what other dirtier and nastier things these library books have endured...=S


On a side note, since these betting slips are quite dated, I think it is plausible that I am the first person to reach over 250 pages since June of this year. Back to reading......and remind me to get some disinfectant the next time I step out of my house.

I need to heal!

It is Day 3 of flu. I am definitely better. The pounding headache is gone, the runny nose is gone. I just feel weak though. Sleep is the best remedy...unfortunately, I am experiencing very little of that.

Spent the yesterday lying in my room mugging The Caine Mutiny. It is really a very interesting novel, a good way to pass time as the clock ticks down to enlistment day. CMPB sent me an SMS just to remind me that. In all honesty, I only have one reply. FUCK YOU LA.

Anyway, if you happen to be wondering why do I give every book I read the thumbs up, it is because I stop before ten pages if it starts to get boring. Good authors always hook you in the first few pages or so...or that is what I tend to believe in.

Today started well though. =). I managed to pass the FINAL enevlope to my teacher...and that offically concludes my university application. Later, I might draw up a list on what do I need for NS...

...what a bore.

You want style? This is as good as it gets.

[If anything, please take away these 3 messages from here; Firstly, the WWW is a place full of thrash, where people lie about everything. Secondly, people write what they don't want to tell you what they want. Thirdly, the military is a masterplan created by a few geniuses for the execution by many idiots.]

The Caine Mutiny

Books win the Pulitzer Prize for a reason. Go read it; it is by Herman Wouk.

My flu is getting worse. Damn it. I am feel faint, drowsy and weak. Should be resting, but I really don't want to do so...=(.

In anycase, I still have to go look for a teacher later.

Darn.

Great ambitions

I desperately need lotsa power and money.

'You salute the rank, not the person, soldier.'

Imagine saying that to someone you hate all your life...revenge is sweeter than tiramisu.

A $35 meal for two.

Dinner at Sun Lok Noodle House at JEC...It is a HK styled Cantonese restuarant complete with the glass viewing gallery to see the chefs at work!


Yeo Feng's main course of dumpling noodles. Taken by the award winning photographer himself...like the photo above. =)


My main course. Its called Ginger/Spring Onion Beef Noodles. The dish was really very good with the chilli oil that was provided. The noodles were 'Q' and fine...a pity that the beef was a little overcooked, and hence was chewy.


Steamed Glutinous Rice in Teochew Style (Left, $2.60) Not very special, but definitely one of the more filling 'Dim Sum' around. It was just a pau 'roll' with glutinous rice.

Steamed 'Shanghai' Dumpling (Centre, $2.80) The dumplings were already cold when I ate them, the juice that was inside dried up and the skin was too thick according to YF. The interesting thing was how to eat them. You are suppose to bite out a hole in the dumplings, add the ginger thingy (bottom centre) and suck out the juice of the dumpling before eating it. =S. The peanuts in the rice kinda added texture though...though the failed to shine.

Steamed Pork Dumpling 'Siew Mai' (Right, $3.20) A bit on the small side, this dish had a oddity. This is the first time I had 'Siew Mai' with green peas.

Fried Shrimp w/ Bean Curd Skin (Bottom, Right $3.20) My favourite dish! The bean curd skin was cripsy and piping hot and the filling was full of shrimps. Very well done!


Steamed Pork Rib ($3.00) Juicy, oily, salty and full of yummy tender pork drenched in sinful lard with salted black beans. Do I have to say more?


Steamed Shrimp Dumpling 'Har Kau' ($3.20) The pale transuclent skin, exquisitely shaped, exudes the essence of 'Dim Sum'. Not to mention the delicious shrimp filling...which might be a tad to salty for some.

If you ask me now, I would think life is meaningless. I hope the new week heralds new hope.

I got an expensive pen for X'mas. =)

My one and only X'mas gift...


Despite my suspicions that this is some cheapskate imitation, to the untrained eye, certainly looks high class!!! =D


[Captions are jokes.]

The day after...

X'mas night at Paradiz.


After all things, I am down with a slight flu today. Argh! I think this will be sufficient excuses to slack the day away...again. =S.

Anyway, haven't done anything much since morning. Everyone went out already and I am stuck at home with my friend who is sleeping at the moment. AGAIN! Sure hoped everyone had nice X'mas because mine was awfully plain...=(

Today I shall...

• Buy postage for my Cornell app.
• Remember to get YF to shrink my file size for me.
• Watch the Japanese 11 PM serial.
• Return my library books.

Tomorrow I shall...

• Finish DBS apps
• Call up DSTA
• Still haven't think of anything else that is important...

Really nothing to blog about, a reflection of my current state of life. =(

X'mas

Woah, it came and went.

How boring. Oh, and please take note, town is dead on Christmas. There was totally no festival spirit around. But then again, that might be because I was there too early.

Shagged. That's all for today.

An austerely beatiful novel...a story of narrative simplicity, paradox and emotional depth that recalls the classic Japanese films.



I wish I had written the comment above, but I didn't. What I did was copying it out from the back of the book...=S. It was done by New York Times.

Christmas Day

And it sure feels like any other day, perhaps worse.

=(. I am upset. still.

Why me?

I really wanted to do a food review today, but I don't have pictures nor do I have the mood to do it.

I am hungry now as well.

Anyway, hoping for a Merry X'mas because of today, the mundane things will come back...hiaz.

Life really offers nothing for me to look forward to at present.

天啊！为何要这么耍我？

X'mas eve dinner.


Sorry, the photo is really quite bad because my hands are trembling with _____.

Anyway, X'mas, so I went out after lunch and conveniently forgot that my SANYO rechargable batteries were charging. I overcharged them by 12 hours. =S...hope it doesn't start leaking or anything because they are in my camera right now.

So I went to meet with a friend and hang around Orchard for about 3 hours? Yeah..to kill time before heading to the meeting place for the class dinner. Class meaning 5 people btw. I still somehow managed to reach a full hour before the meeting time, but thankfully I had my book for company...=).

Dinner was at this upmarket place in the Bukit Timah area. The restuarant was been featured in at least one food programme and is called GREENWOOD FISHMARKET N BISTRO. I will probably remember that place for life...but that is for later. The bistro is like Aussie-NZ-causal-classy-upmarket-dining. The shop had two parts; when you first get in, there is a fishmarket with really expensive, fresh seafood like lobsters, oysters and fish. Through a hallway and you will find yourself in a cozy dining area. The price is really...wooo..the cheapest dish is Fish N Chips at $18.90. So go figure yourself....We decided to share food, which I thought was a rather stupid idea because with $46 each (that's my most expensive dinner I think btw), going ala carte would be better.

It is a pity that I can't remember the fancy Italian/French/German/Whatever names the dishes had..so from now on they are called cold seafood platter, hot seafood platter and pasta. A few days ago, I was carving for lobsters...today I had 3 types of lobsters..I don't even know how they cooked it. The cold platter was basically cooked seafood that was chilled with ice. Honestly, the portions were pathetic, though the taste was really good la..the scallops, mussels, prawns, lobster (no s), oysters and something else I couldn't remember...

The hot platter had chicken sticks, leeks, squid, lobster.....and I can't remember liao la. I should have photographed the menu down. =(. Oh and there was the pasta with lobster thingy and a plate of sashimi.

If I were to describe everything to you..it would be boring. So in short, good tasting food, fresh and unique taste, small portions, average service and a very very very expensive price.

Maybe just to sum it up, allele (organiser of this dinner) as one certain classmate is affectionately called went to buy two packets of mee pok from Fei Siong Coffeeshop...after dinner that is. So, WHAT DO YOU THINK NOW? Nothing sums it up more succinctly than this brilliant act of his.

The after-dinner event at Loke's was watching LOTR. Thanks for offering your house...but I guess it was rather sian since the turnup wasn't good. I won't even waste time writing about it because it was boring. TOTALLY.

天啊！为何要这么耍我？
I have been thoroghly played today. There is only so much I can take.

[Allele still owes me $4. I will make fucking sure he returns it. There ain't no such thing as owing me money without paying.]

X'mas eve!

It's here and I hope it stays.

Do you know?

5 stars!!! *****


Apart from still having to wait for my SAT II results, today has been great.

I went out after a shower at 2 PM and headed for the Jurong East Library to get some books. After searching through the whole fiction section, I was almost going to leave empty handed when I chanced upon 'Shipwrecks' by Akira Yoshimura. His style is something like Mingfong Ho, author of 'The Clay Marble' and so far it has been a total pleasure to read. I kinda like the Asian (rural Japan) setting a lot and although it isn't page after page of action packed stuff, his writing just seems to suck me right into the story. =).

With plenty of time to kill, I foolishly took the North-South line from Jurong East Interchange all the way to Orchard. A very stupid decision indeed...the journey had no cute girls, only stupid idiots yelling our their conversations about politics....BLAH! Remind me never to take the train north, never ever again. I now rank the North as the most god forsaken part of Singapore.

Upon reaching Orchard, I had to weave through swarms of people (X'mas is in the air!) carrying huge bags to reach Cine, the ONLY cinema screening 'Nobody Knows'. The show had no gore, no sex, no babes (ok, a few, but I can't tell you who and where), no guns, no nothing. But it has got to be one of the best films I have ever seen. Its simplicity is simply alluring. It was like...WOAH. I was totally riveted to my seat from start to finish. Impractical as it may be at times, I think the movie certainly had a lot of sincerity in it...think along the lines of 'Homerun', though I think 'Homerun' isn't such a melodrama.

Exit cinema, weave through swarms of people (X'mas is in the air!) carrying huge bags to reach the MRT station. Interestingly, everyone was buying something...even 'Famous Amos' had queues. Mango (the boutique) hired a security guard to control the crowd in their stall...they were having 50% discounts la. Somethings just don't change. =)

The streets of Orchard are filled with lights, people and X'mas. How nice.

The waiting continues... ...

I hate waiting. Argh! It totally sucks to be keep in suspense.=(.

I just finished reading the papers...STimes, Today and Streats. Go read Peter Siow's pathetic excuses for living in Geylang on Page 16 of Streats. The best line would be the one where he claims China hookers with their porcelain complexion add class and elegance to the place. I am not trying to nitpick, but how on earth can someone say such a thing?

I am greatly befuddled. Hahaha...

And it seems the X'mas movies are all rated very highly, among which includes Kung Fu Hustle and Nobody Knows. The former, of course, is by Stephen Chow. A mad jock whom I will refuse to patornize. The latter, on the other hand is a socio-documentary set in Japan...which really looks very good. In fact, I think I would go watch it today...!!!

They call it one of the top 5 films of 2004. A must see.

ER

It never cease to amaze me how many people around me have got THE calling to become a doctor. Been blog surfing as usual even at this late hour (remind me to get out of the house and exercise tomorrow, or technically, today), and suffice to say, 99% of the people in school are getting attachements to doctors for god knows what for.

I think they should get a lesson in medical ethics first. I wonder if they are made to sign 'agreements of non-disclosure', but I sure do pity the doctors and their patients having their names plasted all over the WWW.

Apart from that, my confidence in the Singapore health system suffered yet another plunge. It first dropped when my brother got into the med course and when I saw his...ahhh...schoolmates. Ok, but my brother is sure working hard now!

However, since I personally know some of this people who aspire to be a doctor, I can't help but imagine years later (touch wood), when I open the door, see an ex-schoolmate...

'Were you the one who couldn't do implicit differentiation?'

God, you have to save me. I think prayers will heal me better.

Track18.mp3

At a whooping 13.6 MB, it has got to be one of the largest .mp3 files I have ever downloaded off the web. Nonetheless, it is worth every single byte.

I give you Metal Gear Solid's ending theme...The Best Is Yet To Come.

Argh, the only sad thing is the title sounds to much like the ACS motto. What a pity! A flaw in an otherwise perfect composition.

Do you remember the time when little things made you happy
Do you remember the time when simple things made you smile
Life can be wonderful if you let it be
Life can be simple if you try

What happened to those days?
What happened to those nights?
Do you remember the time when little things made you so sad
Do you remember the time when simple things made you cry

Is it just me, or is it just us
Feeling lost in this world?
Why do we have to hurt each other?
Why do we have to shed tears?
Life can be beautiful if you try
Life can be joyful if we try
Tell me I am not alone
Tell me we are not alone in this world fighting against the wind
Do you remember the time when simple things made you happy
Do you remember the time when simple things made you laugh

You know life can be simple
You know life is simple
Because the best thing in life is yet to come
Because the best is yet to come

Bored-est ever.

Today has got to be the most boring day since Novemeber 27th. Utterly unbelievable.

With nothing to do, I tend to focus on the slight irritations that occur around me. People just don't seem to be able to understand the simple fact that for some, the road ends here. It is an ultimately futile exercise to try play the role of a 'wannabe'.

To the group of pretenders, wake up and get a life. I don't profess to have much of one, but certainly am in no illusion anymore. Nothing irks me more than a group of mindless sheep...make that mindless, dreaming sheeps.

I don't entertain mindless, dreaming phone calls as well.

[On a side note, I think I shall go out and get some fresh air...then maybe come home for a jog later around the estate. FFX died on me. =(.]

I finished 'Angels and Demons' last night. Now that the book is done with, I find myself having to fill a void. Maybe I should have read at a slower pace. =S.

Jogging would be at 6 PM today. But I am already dreading it...argh!

[I wonder if the churches in Singapore have that 'telephone booth lookalike confession box thingy'. The one you always see in the TV where a priest would be sitting besides you on the other side and you speak through a small opening. That would come in handy right now.]

Welcome my 6th invited reader..FHS.

Snapshots of the little menu that PASTAMANIA provides diners.


The backside of the menu...


Coincidentally, my digital camera run out on batteries just after I took this shots. And as you might have guessed, I am totally absorbed in this little menu of PASTAMANIA. It is just as good as any Dan Brown book! In fact, I think it is a very good sales tactic that all restuarants should employ.

That's all for today.

And we go again

I sound like a man fulfilling his deathwish. Before I head for the blissful sanctuary, I still have a few things to do. Today, I did two of them.

After talking to my uncle who called from Australia, I headed out to meet my friend at City Hall. Unfortunately, maybe in my excitement after the call, I forgot if I locked the door before leaving...and I rushed back from Bouna Vista to get home, unlock the door, check everything was ok, before hurrying back to the MRT. =S.

SMRT earned an undeserved 50 cents from me today.

Then went to Funan where the was a LAN party going on...bummed around the shops there as well, raising the hopes of a few salesmen and then dashing them cruelly...none better than the fiasco at the shop called Infocom...something....something. LOL! Then I did what I have never done before...I went to PASTAMANIA for an early dinner...=). I ordered Spicy Chicken for $5.90..alas, no pictures since my camera wasn't with me. Actually it was a mistake as I thought the icon beside the item was 'Chief's recommendations'. It turned out to be 'Hot & Spicy'. TMD! But, the ironic thing was the dish was NOT spicy...AT ALL. But it tasted good! The peas were sorta out of place though...and I thought they could have been more generous with their chicken shreds.

Parted with my friend after dinner and headed on to City Link to accomplish objective NO. 2. You know the coffee joint near HMV? I always wondered how the hell people could seat there all day reading/studying/talking/or just looking. I did just that today. I badly wanted to snap a few photos inside the outlet as well to show the world what exorbitant prices they charged...and throw in bad service..it wasn't made up by the tasty decor and pretty cashier. =). Pacific Coffee Club...the one with the red cushions...I ordered a $3.90 'Tall Iced Coffee'. In case you are really into details...it is just normal black coffee with ice and no milk/sugar. I take coffee black. Paradoxically, 'Tall' meant small size, or medium, I think.

So I sat there with my book in hand, with all intentions to look part of the hip crowd reading as the world go by. My solitude was briefly interrupted by a family of ang-mohs (geeze, they are everywhere, ain't they?).

Why isn't anyone racist against WHITES, why must it always be "yellow/brown/black" racism? I am a white-hater.

Sorry, I digressed.

The family of 5 were going on about something in some language. I don't know anything else. So time past, as I sipped my coffee and read my book. The waiter came, cleared my drink and still I sat in the same corner. It was until 7 30 PM when the diuretic effect of the drink was too much to bear that I got up and headed for home. I decided not to suffer the indignity of taking out my water bottle or asking for water from the lousy waiteress...the hip crowd don't do that, do they? They rather spend $2.50 on a bottle of Evian water from the fresh springs in the Swiss Alps. Weirdly, 'Mountain turtle' lobster king has been to the Swiss Alps and found only ice mixed with dirt from the grim of tourists.

The book kept me spell bounded all the way home, including the 20 mintues I sat at Chinese Gardens MRT after I alighted.

I forgot to add that there was an exceptionally cute girl my age on the ride home...a comment I seldom bestow upon people my age...=). Haha.

And never mention the sentence 'Religion is the opiate of the masses' to me. I will have your blood for that.

And it concludes this post. Thank you.

Home alone...

Quarky newspapers...

In Digital Life, not only there is this morbid section on a blog, flip to the middle of the paper where you can see a very typical gay gang of Singaporean guys have fun with a console. If you look carefully enough, they are hyperventilating over a covnersation in Japanese, in a Japanese RPG. I wonder how did they manage to pose for the photo...specially mention have to go to the fag on the extreme left.

Also read Pg 30 of STREATS. The columnist is advertising herself in guise of writing the article...To think she gets paid doing that..ji jian. Columnists must have been the world's first bloggers. I am convinced of that.

Nothing else going on now...I feel sad and depressed. =(. Not to mention sunburnt as well....ARGH!

M & M

One of my teacher once told me that career women suffer very much from MCPs. It is so bad to the extend that these women try to 'camo' themselves in the working world via clothing. The modern working women dress with much like men actually.

This is totally weird.

On a separate note, life would be very much easier if one had no morals. My neighbour is leaving on a holiday to god know where. I saw them dragging their lugguage to the lift lobby, looking very happy and excited about their trip. I wonder if I should go rob them.

Should I?

Sunburnt

A very healthy turnout for soccer today. And after 4 hours in the sun, I am sunburnt as well...as usual. It was rather enjoyable, just that the weather was terrible today...dry and hot.

After that, headed over with some guys to S-11 for a cheap lunch. Ok, I think this is the first time I tried the famed '秋 lian ban 面' (I am not sure which lian/ban it is). It was definitely cheap...and edible. Where can you get stuff for $2.50 anymore man! Although the pork was too minced, the noodles too tough/uncooked and the egg smashed into invisible pieces, I think I will revisit it again. LOL. The chilli was good though.

Which brings me to the fact that I have no dinner tonight at home...and I didn't have dinner outside...which means I am starving now.

After lunch, the 6 of us went to Junction 8 for a movie, my first since Troy. Ocean's Twevle is darn confusing, a little funny and have a weird plot. Half the time, you have to remember the weird stuff so that you will understand what is the significants of stuff happening later on. HOWEVER, this is a big HOWEVER, I felt it was money well spent..($6.50)

..Catherine Zeta Jones...looks F-A-N-T-A-S-T-I-C! OMG man...I can't believe she looked that great. I mean she hasn't aged one bit and....that face and figure of hers. Gosh! I am totally drooling already.

And it all came tumbling down on the way to Junction 8...

I am living in self-constructed reality. In short, I am disillusioned....oh well...playing the waiting game. AGAIN!

Day 17

Time is really running out, fast.

Have been reading morbid blogs....and to tell you the truth morbid thoughts are actually quite normal, ain't they? I have them from time to time...or is it just me that is weird?

Anyway, never refer to me using the past tense. I will have your blood for that.....=)

Good night. It is half-moon again.

[Hope Enming and his twin Enhui comes for soccer tomorrow. They are like my Santa...with tech gadgets for me! Haha.....if you are reading this, though highly unlikely, PLEASE COME!]

Wahhh...had fun!

Just got home after 12 hours outside...

Hmmm, I bought the stamps and stuff and sent out the X'mas cards and DSTA stuff already, which is good. Then, surprise surprise, I actually donated $2 to the community chest. I am shocked at my own actions. LOL! Actually it was because they gave me an option to donate any amount I wanted...unlike some other organizations which force people to donate like $5 or $10...GAY!

Then I took a bus over to BEAUTY WORLD to play LAN with several of my classmates. Oh, before that, I went to Shop N Save to buy water...saw a man went ballistic because of the long queues. He went on ranting about how the cashier wanted to go home even though there was a hell lot of customers. It seemed the cashier finished her shift liao..I personally felt it was fair if she wanted to leave...but WTH right?

LANed at this really expensive place...$10 for 4 hours! It was quite worthwhile on second thoughts since the computers were really very good, it was a Sunday, and there was internet access as well. And lucky ken somehow managed to play for FREE...darn!

After that, we headed over to a cozy 'family' coffeshop to have dinner, which took away my last $4. =(. But the food was not bad at all...I plan to go there again if the chance ever arises to try out the other dishes! =). Don's house was filled with terrifying cute little white dogs!!! We slacked at his place for an hour before heading to some ulu place to play soccer at like 9 PM. =S. Ran like a fag until I was totally exhausted....but the place was very good for soccer...the only thing was midway through the game, a police car drove by and scared the shit out of me!!!

Then it was over to Loke's to watch Newcastle self destruct ever so spectcularly...Hiaz. They are really just a pile of shit man. And the bus ride home was frightfully fast..the driver was speeding like crazy. For the record, it was SBS Transit 66 from BEAUTY WORLD to JURONG INTERCHANGE. It took a mere 15 minutes...

That's my day. Shag like a fag. Soccer tomorrow....how tiring. Pullups is at 9 now.

SingPost

I have been letting SingPost earn a lot of my money recently. My NETS savings account is shrinking at an alarming rate.

And I just finished the DSTA apps. It is very gay to say the least.

Tomorrow will be a busy day...

• Finish up DSTA app
• Start on the Brightsparks form for DBS and IDA
• Finish writing the X'mas cards
• Buy stamps and send the cards
• Restart my FFX game
  

Feeling full from dinner

I just went out to have dinner alone. Wahhhh, I feel damn sorry for myself. Anyway, I had 高记招牌面, the same thing that I ate at the food court in Orchard just a couple of days back. Only this time, the service was better, the portions were larger and it was cheaper. I thought the stall was a franchise man...TMD. How can the Orchard branch be so 贱!!!

Then later I went to NUTC to find some chocolates. I am totally in love with MEJI Black Chocolate....but there were none! =(. Oh, but I did see a lot of people buying some MYOJO instant noodles and later found out it was on offer. =S. AND there was this weird couple (a ang-moh man and a chinese woman) studying the different types of insecticides NUTC sells....

Half-moon today. The smell of 茶叶蛋 is intoxicating...

Slow day.

The weather certainly doesn't look promising. It is threatening to rain...again actually, since it rained in around noon...HIAZ!

I just finished writing 3 cards. I wonder why Singaporeans in general don't have the habit of sending cards. In my opinion, emails just can't give the same magical feeling as when one opens a letter, or a card for that matter....

I quite enjoyed myself writing....maybe I will do more if nothing else crops up.

My Mum forced me to tidy my room as well. It is more of 'relocating' the mess. The stacks of notes/paper/rubbish just got grouped into different piles...and well, get shafted into drawers and cupboards. Oh, I have a serious lack of storage space man...=(. Well, at least my room looks tidy now. =)

...feeling unsettled.

Today...

I woke up rather late today, which is quite surprising since I went to bed early last night.

Angels and Demons is not a bad read, just that I have lost the plot a bit since I usually try and read myself to sleep. The book is quite hypnotic actually.

Hmmm...in fact, I think I shall go read it now. Cya later!

[At page 200 now, 1/3 of my way through the book. Reading is a fantastic time-killer. But I still wonder if there is anything more worthwhile then reading and filling in almost identical forms everyday for 2 weeks or so...]

Dot dot dot.

Just finished another bout of CS with ken. This is very meaningless indeed.

I gave up everything just to wait at home for my SAT II results. Unfortunately, I think they will only be released on the 23rd.

This is damn rubbish. I should have gone to the gym.

West Mall

That place sells the cheapest 'Kway Chap' yet. At $2.80, it is even cheaper than hawker centres...=S.

Take note: It is Yu Kee Duck and Kway Chap

Anyway going out with your Mum has its perks. She bought me 2 shirts from G2000...something that I will never do. Got some X'mas cards as well from Popular to send to some friends...yeah I am THAT bored.

Frick, I just thought of going for a jog later around my estate, but the weather doesn't look promising at all. I think I will just have to head to the gym then. Hiazzz.

Oh, and Cornell apps is 100% completed. I just mailed the essays over to them...YEAH!

Now to settle some scholarship apps....and when the HELL are my SAT II results coming out?

I absolutely hate to be kept waiting.

Time flies

I was looking at the 2005 calender that was given to be...

...and found out those green blocks of school holidays might never be applicable again.

I was reading the newspapers today...

...and found out 'Back To School' sales might never be applicable again.

Down with gastric pains. According to experience, it should clear up in 2 hours time. Until then, I am damn pissed. I have almost completed my Cornell apps. Never in my entire life had I forsee this to happen..LOL.

On the other hand, wretch DSTA wants me to do an essay. =(. The good thing is you have to complete it in 20 minutes...like fricking SAT II. At least it prevents me from procastinating it....and speaking of SAT II, I think my results will be relased at 1900-2100 hrs today, SINGAPORE TIME.

I am refreshing the page every now and then. Have to go to the gym today as well because I have been slacking. HAVE, MUST, I SWEAR.

Shopping trip No. 2!

MORE X'mas presents!


Yup, I went to Centerpoint Times to buy more stuff! The brown (it looks black because I can't be bothered to take a good photo...LOL) diary is for my Mum while the novel is for myself. One thing I don't understand about Times is how come they haven't gone bust yet? 1. They let people browse all their magazines for free, even those expensive ones and 2. their stuff is damn bloody expensive.

The only reason why I went all the way there to buy things is because I had $40 worth of their vouchers...courtsey of my school. Anyway, I spent like 2 whole hours pondering on what to buy before settling on the above novel. But the plot is strangly very similar to The Da Vinic Code. In fact, I am quite sure the first 36 pages is almost a rip....=S

Dan Brown ought to be skewered and roasted like a pig for trying to suck me dry. The previous sentence is meant to be highly explicit. LOL.

But the book is still proving to be an irresistible read.

Oh, SMRT is making a hell lot of money from me. I just added another $5 to my EZ-link. That is the 4th time since Nov 28th...The hidden costs of public transport....hiazz....sucking me dry as well. I figured with the $25++ spent on transport, I could have eaten 50 bowls of rice at Food Junction. Eat until puke la..~!

After that, I had dinner at some food court in Orchard. The auntie was how TMD fierce. I would have stuffed all the Yong Tau Foo right up her _______ (fill in the blank) if she was a tad rude to me. Thank her lucky stars, she was quite polite. But the funny thing was all those white-collar executives were so humji...one even asked her for permission to take extra sweet/chilli sauce! HAHAHA!

I thought I had a lot to write leh....hmm. Oh tissue paper is cheaper in Orchard then Ghim Moh. It costs 30 cents per packet from the old lady camping outside Centrepoint while the it is $1 for 3 at the Ghim Moh underpass. TMD! I am damn bo liao.

Anyway, I collected my new glasses for NS as well. They are more expensive and more flismy then the present pair. It makes me wonder what is the point of making such ugly spectacles. BTW, people interested in making glasses should go to Optical 88. It has the best deals man! Seriously, Optical 88 should be renamed Everything 88. I bought a pair from them....and it cost $88.

I am mad la. Fuck. BYE.

S-I-A-N

I think I have a knack of screwing things up at the last minute. Hiaz...

Quite sad actually. I feel screwed (not the sexually kind).

In anycase, I will try, definitely will try to start on my personal statement for Cornell today, then maybe head to the gym since I am sick of running in circles around my estate.

I have realised that in life, nothing is more important than being rich and feeling happy.

Are you rich and happy? Or is being rich and happy one and the same thing?

What a fuck up day. Day 20 that is.

[Just to add on, read the article on the last page of the TIME magazine. It is definitely much better than all the thrashy MSN conversation that I have been SUBJECTED to in recent weeks.]

[And maids are even more exploited than NS men. They get only $230 a month for a 2 year contract which includes food and lodging. They wake up at 6 AM to do shit and have to stay awake until night to do shit as well. They only get breaks on weekends and are subjected to the possibility of sexual abuse by their employers. Sound familiar a not? I feel like a maid. =S]

Sleepy

Time is now 5 47 PM.

I wasted by entire day roaming aimlessly about in town. How boring. I wonder how can the Ah Bengs and Ah Lians stand this kind of life.

I feel sleepy as well.

Unsettled...

Weird, I am feeling very unsettled today.

I think it is because my Cornell applications have sort of stalled with the numerous outings I am having...and DSTA's provisional deadline is coming real soon on the 21st. And add to that my SAT II results will be known on the 17th US time, you will get a very jumpy lobster king.

Hmmm...nervous.

Shopping!

X'mas presents for myself!


Had a hard time getting the picture up. I think blogger is confused because I have too many files of similiar names. Anyway, before the correct picture was posted, a picture of instant noodles and another of the scv box was loaded instead. How gay! Hahaha...

Today was a hectic day to say the least. I woke up late and had to rush down to Lavander to meet Bing Rui at the ICA building to collect my new passport. Wah man....I seriously look damn good in the photo. LOL! Then we decided to head to Bugis for breakfast. 'Hup Lee' or 'Lee Hup' bee hon is seriously not bad. I had bee hon mixed with noodles, toufu and a fried egg for $1.50. Ok, maybe it is because I skipped dinner the day before...but breakfast was nice. =)

Sim Lim was bloody hell still sleeping when we got there at 10 AM. Searched around for the a microphone and mouse to no avail, instead I saw two idiots getting 'chopped' by the evil salespeople there...how moronic. No choice but to head to Cyberactive at Junction 8 to buy my stuff. On the way to the MRT station, BR showed me where to get cheap and ORGINIAL CDs...for a mere $7. It is the stall nearest to the road along the Bugis street market on your way to Sim Lim. Confused? Yeah.....me too. LOL!

Yup, then we headed over to my place where I tested my stuff and write more rubbish for the Cornell essays before going for a jog.

Oh the mouse is quite a good deal since it's 'Buy 1, Get 1 free'. So in the end it costs $35. However, unless you are still using a scroll-less or ball type of mouse, I don't think there is much of a need to get it. I bought it because I wanted to give myself a treat...in fact my $12 Genius mouse have been very good for the past 5 years or so. I just wanted a change....

The microphone + headset was to add entertainment value to CS and MSN. But most unfortunately...it is not working very well...argh! I am still desperately trying to get it to work in MSN....and it is a bit uncomfortable to wear. I suggest potential buyers to get stand alone microphones if you are going for budget stuff...

Anyway, for the cheapskate people, the mouse cost $69.90 and the headset thingy $11.90. My bank account is currently $81.90 poorer. I think I have to go sell myself to make back some money.....any takers?

I saw the lift girl a second time today. She looked quite good, but I just kept my mouth shut. I think she is going to work....not sure though. I cycled like mad to the MRT station.

I am not gonna be your FUCKING backup.

CS-ing my life away...when I have so much proper 'shit' to do.

[Yeah man, I am not backup. Never will be one. You can't steal my pride away from me.]

Back home...

Today's soccer wasn't too bad. The weather was good, there were lots of people and the security guard forgot about us! The only thing was the violent and idiotic GEPs who couldn't stand losing to my POWERFUL class. As usual, they were spoiling for a fight. Hahaha...so much for being GEPs...A moronic bunch.

Ok, to be fair it was only 2-3 of them.....the rest were quite ok. But I decided to bastard all of them anyway.

Then I had lunch with ray, jy, poh and yl at Junction 8. To be honest, I am getting sick of eating at food courts. It is so darn expensive and the food isn't good at all. I ended up eating a bowl of plain rice (darn unhealthy since it was chicken rice) to make sure that I would be filled up.

There are plans for more soccer, an outing to some fantasy island thingy and to watch soccer at my place. Life seems busy all of a sudden.

But I just only have Cornell to do...and maybe look for a few more scholarships with yl that might want us.

Alamak la. Fuck!

Maybe I have found it...

Good stuff on TV..

• Six weeks on Channel i
• Searching for my polestar on Channel 8
• Organics advertisement

After talking to a friend on MSN, I think I have found the reason why.

You might be talented, but you still need to show it.

Maybe I can't understand why people fail to see that in me. I will write more on this....but not now.

[The only achievement that one can possible achieve is given to one by others. No matter how you slog, at the end of the day, it is the recognition that really counts. Not rewards, not titles, not money and not even trophies. Just people looking at you and saying...'Yeah, that's a guy with talent' would be enough for me. Even that, I am denied. No use complaining right? ]

Hahahaha....无奈啊.

[You know in those ancient times in China? There were a lot of those talented men who weren't used by the lords? I feel like them right now...just that I am neither as talented nor do I feel like dying. Just sad.]

Shit. What the fuck are they thinking ?!?!

Fuck you man.

So damn pissing.

[Did the Cornell 'Short answer' section. It isn't the best thing to do when you are darn bored. In fact, it kinda irritates you. Like now, I am bloody hell fucking pissed.]

[Just got home from making my spectacles for BMT. It is a terrible pity that I couldn't use the $36 voucher since that shop didn't have the frames that the Army allowed. Hiaz...blow $100 on some shit-ass glasses at Wisemen instead. A pure waste of money in my opinion.

Oh, and I tried to burn some stuff at the metal bin downstairs. It was unhappy/pissing/fucked up stuff so I decided that burning them away would be the best opporunity. UNFORTUNATELY, the writings on the papers didn't disappear with burning. It just sorta stayed there althought the paper was already ash. Yup, so I took a tile and smash the paper into bits.

Maybe it's an omen? A sign of hope...perhaps.]

Edited at 3:19 PM

OMG

Newcastle is impotent! They draw again...like what the hell man!

I think I am sick of the team already, highly unlikely to visit soccernet anymore in the near future. YUCKS!

On the other hand, Singapore now has a terrific chance of qualifying for the Tiger Cup semi-finals! I really hope they do so as it has been quite a long time since I had anything to be proud about Singapore soccer. =)

Will get my wretch SAT 2 results in a few days time....Still clinging onto hope. Waiting is a terrible thing to do. Damn it la. =(

Things to do today....

1. Cornell App
2. Make my plastic spectacles...=(
3. Go jogging.

And it is already Day 25...shitz!

Pissed

I have spent the better part of the day (2 PM to now), trying to get STEAM to work on my computer.

It just won't work!

And obviously, I am in a very very foul mood. Quite upset (read bloody fucking pissed) to say the least about it...

Day 26

BR: Thanks for the lovely card. So in the spirit of Christmas, I have decided to grant you your wish and put up a tag board. LOL! Yeah..!!

Anyway, really shagged now. This morning was a bit mad because SMS started to come in from 7 AM. And after some persuasion, I decided to head down to Yishun for a soccer session..which sad to say...was terribly boring.

Just to digress, Microsoft is offering 2 wireless optical mouse for only $70. I think it is a rather good deal. Anyone interested in sharing please call me ASAP.

Yeah..then I had lunch with the soccer people before heading home. I have given up...almost already.

I always lie. True.

.

The what ifs

I was thinking, partially out of boredom, if I didn't have NS...and school only started say in July, WHAT THE HELL WOULD I DO MAN...

Ok here is THE list...

1. I wouldn't work most definitely...shall live off my parents for a bit longer until I can't do so anymore.
2. I can't think of anything.

[hiaz...always like that one lor. si bei sickening. Oh yeah, it is almost over already...towards the end]

The art of saying what you don't wanna say

Ahh...I actually wanted to blog, but after coming to decide page, have decided that I am not in the 'mood'.

Yeah....so bye bye!

[I am back. Damn it man! How can people like army? In addition to being boring, they teach you how to kill. The only thing I will kill from now on is chickens. I will never go back to KFC anymore. I had dinner there just now..and boy was it horrible. Yucks!]

sleepy. =(

Wah tired!

Back from the Firefly assessment thingy.

=)

I don't give a damn about what happens. I am just happy that except for the Cornell essays....I am free.

You understand the meaning of being free ?!?!?!

I guess not. =P

There is just so much to learn.

It seems tomorrow will be war. I shall have confidence in myself.

[Just had dinner. Waiting for the food to digest before I do some final tuning to my presentation and pullups. Then, that will be that]

b-twotw. You lied. I knew it.

[Depression is infecious. Why is everyone so caught up in everything? I have less of a life than some cobbler in Singapore. Trust me, students of Singapore shouldn't never go out there and say they have lived. They know nothing about living life. Me included. But at least, I think I know what I am missing...the rest of you have to wake up soon.]

I am totally burnt out on FFX as well. I need some motivation.

That's all. I hope I have a good Christmas and New Year.

The last class party

Nostalgia is such a transient emotion. Or maybe it applies only to me, for I will never know how you people think.

Let me get some boring stuff out of the way...Today have to be devoted to the Firefly presentation. Have to get back to exercising as well....my fitness (pullups and runing especially)is damn poor. HIAZ!

Ok, I am done.

Yups, today I had a great time! I went to meet my classmates at Parkway Parade to buy stuff for the BBQ, then headed over to ZK's place at Mandarin Gardens. Oh, tmd! I got cheated again at a 'Kway Chap' store. I tell you almost all 'Kway Chap' hawkers try and cheat my money....if only I didn't like the dish that much....ARGH!

Had a good swim in the freezing pool while soaking in the sights and sounds....haha. And surprise surprise, the BBQ food was fantastic! I think it is the best I ever had! Hahaha, kudos to the girls and the green boy-Kenny, who dyed his hair with streaks of green. Soccer on the carpet grass was great too....except for the bit when Loke stepped on some dog/cat/human shit. Hmm...then there was the mad photo-taking session towards the end. Maybe that was how graduation night was? That, I will never know as well.

I left my camera at home despite a part of me telling myself to bring it. Maybe one day I would regret it...but ya, not now.

It feels a bit sad man...to think that it might be the last class gathering before I enlist. And the more I think of it, the more I hate to enlist. It is just that sickening feeling. Especially when everyone was saying stuff like 'cya in army'. I figured that I better chiong real hard to get into OCS to qualify for scholarships as well as sign up for the medicine course. That will probably be the only things that I can do to increase my chances of deferring.

I can't understand you. Are you thinking what I think you are thinking? This is killing me....but it is just all part of being human.




Just to add, in tune with the mood, FM 933 was playing 'Friends are forever'when I was walking home.


I guess that's all for today. It is Day 28 already.

Singlish

Wah lao zi cant tahan liao le. i cmi leh. cannot finish the presentation! mebbie cos i no motivation lor. how ah? jialat liao lor. shitz.

friends forever very sad leh. my heart also hurt noe. i pity the person tt wrote it lor.

What the hell am I talking? Go figure! =)

My day out...

Went out at 3 PM plus and this is what happened...

I went for lunch at a nearby hawker centre and spotted a cute girl. Ok, not fantastically cute, but yeah, nice to look at...I spoke to her a grand total of two sentences and no, I didn't like order food from her or something equally lame as that. =).

Kenna chided for parking my bicycle in the hawker centre. Hey man, I kept it at the side ok! So, being 18 years of age and all, I decided to exercise some of my power both as a consumer and a soon-to-be adult. I gave that bloody old hag a dirty face (I am highly capable of that, you can ask my friends) and said in a very 理直气壮 manner to her to buzz off.

Oh, there always a kido there as well with a bike...he wasn't bothered though. THEY TMD THINK I CAN BE BULLIED!

Anyway, I went on to Jurong East Library to check up stuff on the economic competitiveness of Singapore. NOt a very worthwhile trip since I wasn't very motivated to copy all the stuff in the reference books I found. Hiaz. Guess I have to be more impressive with the delievery of my presentation instead.

But the highlight was staring at a girl's butt for a good 10 minutes. It wasn't a nice butt, so no one else complained. Anyway this stupid bitch decided to read her books at the shelves where all the economics books were. I had no choice but to stand behind her to browse at the books. And I bet she knew I was behind, but just refused to move a fat ass away. What an inconsiderate bitch! Left with no choice, and I didn't want to talk to such a bitch, I hunted for the shelf 330.9597 from behind. It so happens to be blocked by her ass. And when I bend down to reach for the shelf, Big Butt refused to move away. I bet she desperatedly wanted me to grope her or something....thank god she wasn't chio.

So controlling my urges weren't an issue.

What a gay day.

Blood is boiling.

I can hardly believe it. I don't have lunch! Yes, and I am starving real badly

So this is how it feels like to be a African kid. People, cherish food please!

And I am getting weaker...managed only 5 pullups today. TMD!

I cannot tahan liao man. I need food. I think I will go out and get a long overdue lunch plus make use of the chance to research on 'How Singapore can improve its competitiveness' and do some more of the Cornell application.

Shall blog again after my jogging session this evening.

I actually woke up, or got woken up rather at 6 AM today. That is like so fucking early.

And the PS2 has been moved out of my room. I am amazingly surprised that my blood is not boiling...YET.

Hmmm what else, ok, today would be kinda taken up by 'proper' stuff.

I think I will do a bit of the cornell applications, maybe tackling the personal statement today and settle the EDB presentation as well. Would have to meet my teachers too, and guess what, one of them no longer teaches at my school. This is like what the hell man! Effectively, I know only have 2 teachers remainding in school.....This totally sucks.

Oh, just to sidetrack, this website is terrific for scholarship apps. It kinda saves time with the one-form-fits-all thingy...haha, Try it at your own peril.

And yes, I will have to go jogging again and do more pullups.

Life is just retentlessly repeating itself. =(

Amazing Singapore

YES! The last of the darn tests are over! After finishing that 40 minute puzzle qiuz courtesy of PSC, I finally have no more exams! And if you are interested, I saw the chio pyschologist again! =) But sadly, she went to straight her lovely hair....=(. Still very chio anyway...lol!

Anyway, I was at City Hall MRT Station at around 8 05am. AND like WOAH! Up the escalator, everyone kept left so that a free channel was formed on the right for people in a rush! LIKE EVERYONE PLEASE!

This is darn amazing! Well done to everyone there! =)

[I can't do pullups still. This is dissing! ARGH!]

Hmmm

Ran four rounds around my estate and according to this website I did about 4 km today. Not too bad, but definitely room for improvement. I need to decrease the rest time I take and increase my pace...grrrr! DAMN PSYCHE UP NOW. Yups, but tomorrow hopefully I can work on my pullups instead. I am tempted to do some day but I think I had better wait for a full recovery instead.....=)

Anyway after finish my 4th round, I was cooling down at the stone table when I thought I saw my schoolmate going for prom. It turned out to be an illusion on my part...oops! You see, as prom draws near...its like in 1 hours time I think, people are kao bei-ing me for being an asshole, an anti-social and in general a lousy guy.

There is only one JC prom in ya life ya know!

Yeah man...I totally agree with you. But I bet you will never experience how it feels like to miss JC prom. That's a once in a lifetime experience as well. I shall happen to make the unconventional choice...

So much for once in the lifetime opportunities...=)

The Chinese Language

Chinese businessman (from china): We are always looking forward.

True meaning: 我们永远都是向钱看的。

If you don't get it, buzz off. I ain't going to explain this to 香蕉人s.

Grrrr...considering the fact that I have the PSC essay and Cornell applications to do, I am rather irritated.

In addition, I still am aching from the 'pullups' session I had about 4 days ago. This is terrible. ARGH! I guess I have no choice but to go jogging again...

Things to do today

1. PSC essay
2. Cornell Apps
3. Exercise

What a boring day...someone tell me how to have an exciting holiday. To all graduation night goers, enjoy yourselves.

[I need to forgot about SAT II.]

Sucks

So sad.

Jogging.

I am damn tired.

Ran two rounds around the estate.

No idea how far is that.

But will be a regular from now on.

I can't writing properly

Full of sentence fragments.

SAT II die liao.

FUCK.

Update:

I am a bit less stressed now after organizing myself a little. I have made a list of the up coming appoinments and things to do. It will get very busy, but I have to remain calm under all situations. Panicking will not help me.
It is nice to know that maybe some people (only one in fact...yes, I am THAT hated.) do care about me.

Now, I shall go play FFX for a short while before hitting the books to tie up some ends for SAT II.

When the going gets tough, the tough gets going. Remember that.

The heat is on

I have been working at applying to Cornell University the whole day...from 9 am until now.

My Dad has been a great help in getting me the bank draft and postage. Thanks Dad!

But I don't think I have enough teacher recommendation letters to send. But there is no turning back now since I already mailed the bank draft to them. Hopefully after Cornell has accepted the money, the universit will be obligated to process my application as best as it can.

Hiazzz....damn fucking stressed.

If only I get in....

fuck la

Oh man...

I can't believe it man! Just when I am feeling quite happy, I suddenly thought of disgusting Maths S. What a fricking bummer.

Delete.
Delete.
Wahhh, fuck it.

How do you spell bored?

Dreams

The air was scented with a burnt tinge.

And I sat there in corner, a dark corner, working on my pull ups.

The radio blared in an attempt to drown out the crazy ramblings of someone. The DJ just read out another letter of some girl pinning for love. There is probably a whole stack of such letters just sitting there, waiting to be read, night after night.

Some 20 km away, two people are competing to become the first Singapore Idol. I wonder if they know about SAT II, about PSC, about US universities or even scholarships.

I went back to do a couple more pullups. I managed only a measly 4.

They knew something about life that I didn't and probably never will know.

Dreams are for living.

[According to the SAT 2 Writing book, there are a zillion errors in the above post. But I can't care less]