Sunset bay

Have you ever seen a sun setting?

I haven't until just a few minutes ago. Got out of the shower and was drying my hair when I saw the sun setting far in the distance behind some HDB flats.

Resisted the urge to ran for the camera because I wanted to capture the moment in its entirety. So bit by bit, and at astonishing speed, the fiery red blob slithered out of sight. I thought the sun sets slowly, but it seems time does speed up at moments which we want to last for eternity.

Got to book in again and somehow survive another meaningless week. I am totally not making any headway in life and my Mum just broached a subject that pierced right through my heart and twisted my innards.

***

That's why reading (it was playing RPGs last time) is such a passionate hobby. It removes you from the world and I am doing so by entering Harry Potter's realm now, albeit through a pirated e-book version.

I would be getting the original soon. Until then, pray for me.

I see nothing but storm clouds up in the skies.

Wooho!

NDP 2005 Rehearsal!!!

I burnt the entire of yesterday and this morning sorting out and editing photos that I took from yesterday's NDP rehearsal with a friend. Fun, fun, fun!

Never knew that watching a parade could be so exciting man! For most people my age, they would have seen the NDP at least once, during their P5 year; unfortunately, I didn't quite make it the last time round because of fever. =(.

Shall let some of the pictures I took do the talking instead...!


Snaps from NDP

[Oops! It seems some of the photos were massacred during the creation of the collage. Haha.]

***

Wondering if I should go taking photos again next weekend...of what else but the NDP fireworks display!!!

I still haven't find a proper place to file away my SINGAPORE-CAMBRIDGE GENERAL CERTIFICATE OF EDUCATION (ADANCE LEVEL) certificate. It has been chucked at a corner on my desk ever since my Dad kindly collected it from school.

And I feel remotely detached from it.

***

The rain has stopped somewhat so I guess a shower is in order before I hit the library for my dosage of books and magazines and then meet up with a friend at Suntec.

Cheers to a great day ahead!

***

Military movies with inspirational leaders are nothing more than romanticism. There ain't a grain of truth in them.

Booked out on Friday and now it's Saturday!!!!

Brought home quite a bit of ARMY stuff to do, but I have resolved to ease my own apprehensions about not being able to meet deadlines. This bookout shall be stress free.

=).

I spent 1.5 hours doing up my journal for SOCC. An extremely sinful waste of good time but somehow I am rather pleased with the final product. Hahaha.

***

I was just reminded of how useless caffeine is against my body. No amount of coffee or tea can prevent me from sleeping if I have a book and sufficient time with it. I have thrown down the challenge.

BTW, I am getting so used to being shrouded in cigarette smoke that I don't find it THAT offensive anymore. I think my lungs reeks of tar now. This is bad.

Killing me softly

I spent 90% of my time at home thinking, blogging, blog surfing and reading. I don't think it's a smart way of indulging myself. In fact, it's stupid, unproductive and just plain o' silly.

I should change.

***

Their smiles, laughter and cheer,
of blissful joy,
I see and hear,
but can't join.

***

I can't do this. I really need to find an outlet to release all these negativity inside of me. Or I will die before the future arrives.

I give up LIAO

Read this ridiculous piece of news.

And no one said a word about it. If this really happened....Ah, wtf. I can't care less.

We are children

有时候，真不知身边的所谓朋友到底是否对己真心相待。

难道是自己心胸狭窄，不够宽宏大量吗？还是过于愚蠢，被人耍也不晓得。

人心难测啊！

***

这几个月来在茫茫大海中漂啊漂着，眼看就快要上岸了，却在最后一刻眼前的景象
又被那无边无际的海洋取代。

独自一个人跟心魔战斗是何等寂寞。但有谁知道？每个人都有本身的烦恼与不安，
我实在不想挨到别人。

读者，您有心来这儿阅读我的生活点滴，倒不如多注意一下周围的人，多关心一下
周围的人吧！

***

海洋的刻薄本人以习惯了。刻薄带来对的痛苦却丝毫还法接受，也可能永远办不到。


这应该就是我的死穴---自大、狂妄、嚣张

我不知道将来得路要如何走下去，但是我深信我失败的那天是我放弃奋斗的那天。


***

人定胜天。大家给我几年的时间，我一定会证明自己。

Feeling especially jumpy and twitchy now.

Eddie is probably somewhere in Taiwan now settling in while I am here in the comfort of my room, though not for long.

Question of the day: Should I start reading Potter today? I absolutely hate reading for the sake of reading and reading more than a book each time, useless they are textbooks.

10:32 AM is of no special significance except that it brings me closer to book in.

Lost. Really.

[This coming week will be terrible. What a shame. Sigh.]

tree & pagoda, Chinese Gardens

queue up to cross, national library linkway

wait for me, national library linkway

regulated vandalism, national library foyer

=) / =(

Writing at night, early morning rather, is NOT GOOD. I just deleted the entire entry because it sounded warped.

I got my first taste of Clark Quay just a couple of hours back and can safely say that night life is not for me. Drinking beer at a pub by the Singapore River isn't exactly the most exciting thing to me...but many seem to love this idea of chilling out. I guess I was brought up a different way.

Taxis, past midnight, are hell to pay for.

Earlier in the day, I visited the national library. Its ultra modernistic look made it just one huge skeleton of glass and steel. Very ugly, very cold and very soulless. Reminds you of Singaporeans eh? Hahaha.

Went by the NDP parade rehearsal in the evening but it was a pity I couldn't stay to watch as I was rushing for to a friend's concert at The Art House. And they actually hold the concert in the chamber of the old parliment house! So I got to sit in LKY's seat and listen to funky singing. That's about as close as I would get to the ADMINISTRATIVE SERVICE...not that I want to anyway. =).

Got to test out the tripod I bought after the concert. But night photo taking wasn't as fun because I was just not in the right mood. We shall see about that next week....

And in a couple of hours, I have to go back to camp. This totally sucks.

I was at Wheelock last night and any visit to Wheelock won't be completed without popping into Borders even if it's just for a look see.

And I was shocked/amazed/digusted to find four of Haruki Murakami's works at the '3 for 2' section with that demeaning pink circle sticker. Oh well, I guess I am a cheapskate reader.

Considering a subscription to 8-days to replace the lack of television in my life.

Today will be busy. Cya later!

Argh!

I wanted to write something but every that came out seemed wrong.

Forget it, night.

Incoherent shittings

Hmmmm, it's full moon tonight.

Orchard Road on Fridays is a darn bitch. The whole of Singapore's population just congregate at Orchard Road and form queues everywhere. I stood outside Wheelock's Fish & Co. for a good hour before actually getting a seat.

The service there was good though, just a bit slow for my liking. And between juggling an ever increasing number of loyal-die-hard-no-fish-will-die pigs and a restaurant FULL of people, the waitresses had time to do their little jiggle for TWO person celebrating their birthdays. I was rather surprise that no one in the queue swore at such audacity.

Queuing is a national passion, I conclude.

The national library will probably be packed as well. I will be going there tomorrow.

DARN.

Sitting on Cheese

a tattered gem

Very seldom do you find popular books in the library but luck was with me today. It's even rarer to find good, popular books because they are always 'ON LOAN' or 'RESERVED' or 'IN PROCESS', or so says the book search terminal.

I have just finished 'Who Moved My Cheese' in just under an hour and find it to be highly profound. Still in the process of digesting it and am considering whether to just buy a copy for myself so that I can my time with it...Hmmm.

Do find yourself a copy of it. It might change your life dramatically.

***


a tree, Chinese Garden MRT

I took this in a great hurry yesterday because it was drizzling and I was afraid the camera would get wet. The picture turned out blur, not of the angle I wanted and way too far from the subject, but I still love it.

Will be trying to get a better shot next weekend.

Freaky curtains, a wash job went wrong.

=S Everything is quite wrong!

A couple of month back when I was still in school, drinking Fruit Tree fresh Aloe Vera + ______ was all the rage.

The drinks came nicely packed in minature bottles and were always chilled. The moment you take them out of the freezer, condensation would cause droplets of water to form on the little plastic bottle and on a hot day, those are the kinda of irresistable things.

But they looked prohibitively expensive and I didn't bother to ask how much they cost. For two years, I didn't even buy a single bottle.

Recently, my Mum have taken a liking to buying juice with aloe vera bits in them. I have tasted Apple Aloe Vera as well as Blackcurrent Aloe Vera and there really isn't anything worth dying for except the texture is unique. In fact, the jucies are so darn sweet that I have been searching fantically for a 'Low in Sugar' or 'Sugar-less' or 'All Natural' or 'No additives' sign on the bottle to no avail. This is quite frightening.

Yesterday, I almost choked on the aloe vera bits when trying to swallow a multi-vitamin pill with a gulp of juice.

***

News have been filtering to me about the dangers of using a wireless LAN, which I have been using since last year. It seems the techonology transmits at 2.4 Mhz which is microwave frequency which causes resonance with water which happens to be the main composition of humans (70%). Suddenly my life seems to be in grave danger.

***

My camera seems to be acting up lately. Even with fully charged batteries, it still complains or low battery life. After much reloading of the batteries, the annoying warning would disappear only to resurface later. There MUST be something wrong with either the batteries or the camera.

***

Time to do some serious things. Cya later!

We all live for a reason, or so we think, or so we would like to think.

The body might be trapped physically here, but the mind can take a trip round the globe and back without restrain.

I was surfing around the blogs that I haven't read in a long time, another obvious sign of my current pathetic-ness. One of them have already left the country to chase a dream. I find it impossibly courageous to just leave everything because of dissatisfaction with things here.

Haven’t we all been taught to right the wrongs? Haven’t we all been taught that we are important in changing the future of this nation? Haven’t we all been lied to?

To be honest, I don’t know.

Recently, I have been going around telling anyone interested enough to ask that I want to be rich. Filthy rich. Why? Because I simply haven’t thought of and probably will not (in the near future) find a more sophisticated aim in life. And being rich sounds like it would make me a happy man.

Yeah, shallow as it sounds (I haven’t watched Initial D yet, just for the record), I really really believe that being rich will make me happy. Or at least the money can be used to do things that would make me happy, like giving my parents a good life for instance.

I am grateful that I might get a chance to do it. I am afraid I don’t have the balls to do it when the time comes.

Friends in NUS medicine sure are have a good time with all the fun of orientation and I am glad they are. No grudges, no envy, no jealously for a path I choose not to take. Like one of the NO PRIDERS (it’s the world’s worst misnomer) who used to say, ‘It’s the western part of Singapore or the western part of the world…’

Thank God that I didn’t succumb to the temptation of temporary pleasure. At least the dream is still within reasonable distance, just half the way round the globe. =).

And I am glad I still can wax lyrical here and now.

***

Been out since 1 30 PM. High time for a cold shower.

Mind haunted

I am OFFICIALLY part of the movie-watching-Orchard-walking decadent crowd.

This is the third (I think) STRAIGHT week I went to catch a movie. OMG! But no regrets, because Mindhunters was a great great show, riveting and suspenseful enough to keep me glued for 104 minutes...or there abouts. Although the background story was a bit lame and gives you the feeling that it was just a patchwork to explain the entire show, it was just mind blowing. And it was hell of a scary show at times, hence the title.

On par or even better than Fantastic Four, depending on your taste. Go watch it TODAY!

Before the show, I contented myself between the hungry people in Takashimaya and the Harry Potter fanatics in Borders. Explored Wheelock Place as well and realised that the upper floors have a number of interesting shops, including an Espon photo gallery!

Saw many many familiar faces in town today as well; some free men already, others freer.

I am hungry...=S.


Tomorrow is the last day!

Italian ice cream, OMG.

A windy and chilly Saturday morning. But the world looks the most promising today, in a week.

Bored.

***

12 45 PM

I just got my long overdue haircut, bought my journal, 6 bottles of mineral water and a carton of fresh milk. Should I just CCNA....argh!

The thought of doing so just disgusts me. Yucks. Pui.

I need to slack.

Time passes too quickly when I book out.

6 45 PM Book out
7 23 PM Dinner at Pizza Hut (Lot 1 Shopping Centre)
8 51 PM Left for Jurong East MRT station
9 00 PM Personal stuff
12 MN Finally reach home, feeling the pressure to make full use of this book out to SLACK.

It's weird going around reading that so many people have to go to camps as well. Medi camp, Pharmacy camp...blah blah blah. If only my camp lasts for all the glory of 2.5 days.

wtf/sigh/shit/emptiness

I always screw up when I wish myself luck (see bottom post), but none as spectacular as this time around.

The interview was swift (very), brief (quite), caustic (very), cold blooded and murderous. A 180 degree change from the previous one, where the interviewers took very kindly to my slack style.

I probably overdone it this time and to the wrong person as well.

No mood to write about the many interesting things I saw on the way there. On the way back, everything was dull and I was daze so there isn't much to talk about.

I feel empty. WTF. The cruel world raise my hopes so high up into the stratosphere and bring it all crashing down today (still keeping my fingers crossed though).

Hiaz.

It's raining, at the wrong time.

Off to Capital Tower for the third time. Good news awaits.

Shots of a mountain (?) somewhere

My Mum was craning her neck out of the window looking downwards. So I asked her what she was doing and she said she was looking if any taxis were turning into the little lane leading up to my place.

I book in in about an hour, you see.

Slightly amused, I went over to join her. But I looked up instead of down. And I saw these...

(Click to enlarge, they look much better that way.)












I never knew existed. A mighty shame that I didn't have a better camera to capture the majesty of it all. Makes you wonder how radically things can change just by looking in new directions.

Stay hungry, stay foolish.

Sun Lok Fish Hor Fun, $8.40

Went to the library to pick up some books about Cisco CCNA to aid (hopefully) me in cutting down time staring at the computer screen. Not sure why, but I find learning through books much more effective and pleasant than through LCDs.

Was pondering of whether to go out for a swim or meet some friends however the idea seems kinda remote now with the wind picking up quite a bit and thunder rumbling in the distance.

Somehow, I still feel the urge to get out of the house.

***

4 13 PM. I didn't so much as step out of my house. I slept on my bed for 3.5 hrs and woke up to a cold dark room. =(. I don't like waking up to darkness because it means my time at home is going to expire. Had 2 mini packets of M&Ms and it didn't help much.

Boy, it's really dark now, probably gonna rain soon.

***
5 00 PM. The rain came and gone. Thnuder is still growling somewhere in the distance though. I tried to capture the streaks of lightning to no avail. This is extremely frustrating. I guess I will just have to be contented looking out of the window as they come flashing down to earth, wondering if someone got hurt.

The winds are blowing the storm south, towards the sea which can been seen from my brother's window.

I read about a boy going of to university. Indeed, a fresh start. 3 more hours to go.

Come Sunday again...

Booking in still sucks.

The morning has been fruitful. I have almost completed my preparations for the GIC interview, took a cursory glance at the papers and my bags are packed and ready to go (to hell). Hopefully, the rest of the day would work out just as well!

This leaves only some optional studying to be done hence you find me here wasting away.

Actually I was given the choice of either going wakeboarding or visit my terminally ill auntie. It's frightening how logical and clinical people can get when it comes to managing their time. =S.

Discovery of the day: There is a turtle museum in the Chinese Gardens boosting the World's Largest Collection. But I won't pay a cent to enter it. Very typical of a Singaporean to spend more in Burger King than turtle museum.

[My TV and PS2 sits forlornly in a dusty corner of the living room looking at me and wondering why haven't I fiddled with them for so long. I need something to rekindle the passion.]

Hiaz. Sigh. Forget it.

Just finished the book and it's such a sad, lonely read.

The kinda of feeling you get when you stand at the mouth of the river on a rainy day and look out as it flows into the ocean. Oh boy.

I spent the better of today walking amongst the decandent society that this country has now, melting into their mist, officially declaring myself as part of the mindless, hedonistic movie-going, orchard-walking throng. I feel retarded and wonder why I couldn't understand the fun and enjoyment of movies and Orchard Road when I was a student.

And I still wonder why.

So another spent looking at the pretty girls/women walking by, watching the handbag carrying metrosexuals and spending hard earned (hopefully not anymore, or maybe I might get to have the slack life painted by my infantry mates) money on food and more food.

By the way, I now weigh my heaviest ever at 64 kgs and have an insane appetite. Dieting starts now.

Two things to do: Prepare for GIC interview as well as study the fricking TSR and CCNA module.

What a shame.

And maybe we should all dream and live in a land of dreams. That way, there wouldn't be very many collisions. Right?

My parents were complaining how badly my uniform from Brunei stank.

Just a while ago, I was trying to stuff one complete set into a tiny ziploc and boy did it STINK. I could smell the fricking Brunei swampy muddy jungles! And that is after 7 washes, mind you!

I feel sick. Nothing interesting in the papers as well.

Update: I have compulsive blog surfing disorder.

I actually have something to say/tell about people going to university soon. Halfway through the post, my Mum showed me my phone bill for the first 3 days (The reminding 7 days would come next month) of my Brunei stint and it is already $14. I almost vomitted out last week's breakfast.

WTF.

I am waiting. Still waiting....

It is frightening to know who quickly people can change. But the inevitability of changing is even more scary. Now, if that's true, then when can you find you? Trying to judge yourself objective is a really difficult thing to do...and with some many other stuff waiting for me, I guess that will have to wait a bit.

I reckon I made the right choice just about 2 weeks ago. And right now, all that stands between me and my final destination is one (hopefully) interview. Come on!

Shall go read a book while waiting...and plan my day as well.

***

Nothing of interest has happened so far. I am bored. Utterly.

***

I found that reading a book is a sure way of making myself fall asleep. 15 pages at most before I suddenly lose grip and allow the novel to slip off the bed onto the floor with a 'thud'. At that, my eyes will flick open for a moment, startled at what just had happen. Then I decided that the time is right to retire...and I do just that. That's how it has been for the past couple of weekends. Hahaha.

But on really special ocassions, I force myself up and back to the keyboard. Oh what a day ahead...!

Where are my house keys?

Argh! I distinctively remember jingling them in my uniform on the way back to bunk. And now its gone! GONE! Very vexing indeed. The only possible place that the keys can be is in my drawer...IN CAMP.

Spoiler indeed. We shall know come this Sunday.

Right now, enjoyment is of paramount importance. Cya around soon!

***

Signals is crawling with old friends, enemies and seniors. How wonderful seeing all these familiar faces in such a different setting! The best thing however, is still the bits and pieces of civilisation you can see from camp like the neighbouring schools and HDB blocks. Kinda reminds you of the outside world...

***

I doubt I have anything else to say tonight.

Life must go on...

Woke up at a frightful hour of 5 30 AM just to make sure that I report on time (7 30 AM) to my new unit at Stagmont.

Well, not sure what to expect but I am hoping for the best. Pray for me, will you?

***

Didn't realise when I fall asleep last night but it should be early from the numerous unreplied MSN messages I received. Of which one when I read, I felt a kinda sad.

u r back.
and now i am leaving.

I don't know what she meant by leaving-leaving MSN or leaving the house or leaving the country. My bet is on the last one. Separations and splits and breakups have somehow become the norm for my life this year. We are all growing up to fast ever since school ended.

Emotions always come to a swell during these painful partings and yet, time heals everything and the lost friends and lost relationships would be easily replaced by new ones.

So what's the saddness for?

***

I got to meet her one last time. Call me foolish, but friends are hard to come by, especially for me.

War of the Worlds

I just went out to catch my first movie in ages and caught a cold as well. Frats.

The movie certainly didn't live up to the hype surrounding it and I almost dozed off halfway. 2 hours was definitely too short and everything was just too abrupt for my liking, especially at the ending.

Nothing really worth mentioning except for the scene when Tom Cruise drove through the city and was mobbed by the people. I particularly liked that bit of the show because I thought it reflected how ugly people can get.

Somehow there is bottle of Baileys Irish cream (belongs to my brother) in my fridge right now and I had it on rocks as well as with coffee. I blame it for causing my flu.

I should get back to Spuntik Sweetheart soon.

And I am back!

Brunei was a unqiue experience and once is once too much. The place reminded me of a prison and I hope that's the closest I would come to one.

Meals were served in metal trays with the cooks just slapping on the food into the different compartments. We had green mugs to drink from and a sergeant would always be eyeing us, making sure that we queue up in an orderly fashion. The bunks were just rows of metal frame double-deckers with losta graffiti from the past batches. Prison style as well.

One of the best (I thought), I copied down into my little diary and brought it 1200+ KM back to share with you people...

We the unfortunate, (made) to do the unecessary, lead by the unqualified, to serve the ungrateful.

On the second last day during R&R, this guy from Armour Infantry came up and told me he remembered playing soccer with me at Pasir Ris.

I still haven't figured out who the hell he is, but the chat brought back very nostalgic moments.

Now that I am back, I wonder what I should do today. Ahhh. I haven't love my country so much since so long.